'And I was totally embarrassed. And for years, I would almost disguise myself before going into the psychiatrist's office that had my baseball hat on and my glasses and I'm looking around and I'm sneaking in as fast as I can. 'Yeah, and just because, you know, I was grown up to believe that it was embarrassing to ask for that kind of help and need that kind of help. 'And it took me years to get used to just feeling fine and confident about walking into the office. It was so forbidden in the world that I grew up...