June 15, 2005 -- The shattered father of a Queens deli clerk shot dead by a retired police detective last fall collapsed in tears yesterday, telling a crowded courtroom how the incident had torn his life apart. "Every day, I miss his smile," said Noe Chametla, 40, of his boy. "Every day, I miss the phrase, 'Papi, I love you.' I don't have the chance to see him grow older, to see him become a man."