A part of this was posted about a month ago. I offer this not for sympathy but that the reality of clinical depression be acknowledged. Waking up to reality was long and hard, for at that very time the pernicious seeds of a deep and unlovely depression were sprouting and poisoning my heart and life. Growing within me was a malevolent life that was not wholly mine. It viciously and unrelentingly began to catch hold of my heart and with demonic claws drag it down into a spiral of never-ending descent. Inside me I was rotting, dying, withering and decaying....