I'm not sure I understand why awards are necessary, and having won and lost my share in the past, I'm certain those who are nominated aren't quite sure either. Award ceremonies themselves are excruciating affairs where you try to act as normal as possible while your stomach flips in circles and your mind tries to rectify the banality of it all: Does this define me? Am I more than a list of accomplishments? At the end of the night, invariably, the answer to both is, God, I hope so. All of which is why I've chosen not to notify the...