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I Hated the Idea of Becoming Catholic
Aleteia ^ | JUNE 20, 2014 | ANTHONY BARATTA

Posted on 11/28/2014 2:33:31 PM PST by NYer

It was the day after Ash Wednesday in 2012 when I called my mom from my dorm room at Southern Baptist Theological Seminary and told her I thought I was going to become Catholic.

“You’re not going to become Catholic, you just know you’re not Southern Baptist,” she said.

“No, I don’t think so.”

A pause. “Oh boy,” she sighed.

I started crying.

I cannot stress enough how much I hated the idea of becoming Catholic. I was bargaining to the last moment. I submitted a sermon for a competition days before withdrawing from school. I was memorizing Psalm 119 to convince myself of sola scriptura. I set up meetings with professors to hear the best arguments. I purposefully read Protestant books about Catholicism, rather than books by Catholic authors.

Further, I knew I would lose my housing money and have to pay a scholarship back if I withdrew from school, not to mention disappointing family, friends, and a dedicated church community.

But when I attempted to do my homework, I collapsed on my bed. All I wanted to do was scream at the textbook, “Who says?!”

I had experienced a huge paradigm shift in my thinking about the faith, and the question of apostolic authority loomed larger than ever.

But let’s rewind back a few years.

I grew up in an evangelical Protestant home. My father was a worship and preaching pastor from when I was in fourth grade onwards. Midway through college, I really fell in love with Jesus Christ and His precious Gospel and decided to become a pastor.

It was during that time that I was hardened in my assumption that the Roman Catholic Church didn’t adhere to the Bible. When I asked one pastor friend of mine during my junior year why Catholics thought Mary remained a virgin after Jesus’ birth when the Bible clearly said Jesus had “brothers,” he simply grimaced: “They don’t read the Bible.”

Though I had been in talks with Seattle’s Mars Hill Church about doing an internship with them, John Piper’s book Don’t Waste Your Life clarified my call to missionary work specifically, and I spent the next summer evangelizing Catholics in Poland.

So I was surprised when I visited my parents and found a silly looking book titled Born Fundamentalist, Born Again Catholic on my father’s desk. What was my dad doing reading something like this? I was curious and hadn’t brought anything home to read, so I gave it a look.

David Currie’s memoir of leaving behind his evangelical education and ministries was bothersome. His unapologetic defense of controversial doctrines regarding Mary and the papacy were most shocking, as I had never seriously considered that Catholics would have sensible, scriptural defenses to these beliefs.

The book’s presence on my father’s desk was explained more fully a few months later when he called me and said he was returning to the Catholicism of his youth. My response? “But, can’t you just be Lutheran or something?” I felt angry, betrayed, and indignant. For the next four months I served as a youth pastor at my local church and, in my free time, read up on why Catholicism was wrong.

During that time, I stumbled across a Christianity Today article that depicted an “evangelical identity crisis.” The author painted a picture of young evangelicals, growing up in a post-modern world, yearning to be firmly rooted in history and encouraged that others had stood strong for Christ in changing and troubled times. Yet, in my experience, most evangelical churches did not observe the liturgical calendar, the Apostles’ Creed was never mentioned, many of the songs were written after 1997, and if any anecdotal story was told about a hero from church history, it was certainly from after the Reformation. Most of Christian history was nowhere to be found.

For the first time, I panicked. I found a copy of the Catechism and started leafing through it, finding the most controversial doctrines and laughing at the silliness of the Catholic Church. Indulgences? Papal infallibility? These things, so obviously wrong, reassured me in my Protestantism. The Mass sounded beautiful and the idea of a visible, unified Church was appealing - but at the expense of the Gospel? It seemed obvious that Satan would build a large organization that would lead so many just short of heaven.

I shook off most of the doubts and enjoyed the remainder of my time at college, having fun with the youth group and sharing my faith with the students. Any lingering doubts, I assumed, would be dealt with in seminary.

I started my classes in January with the excitement of a die-hard football fan going to the Super Bowl. The classes were fantastic and I thought I had finally rid myself of any Catholic problems.


But just a few weeks later, I ran into more doubts. We were learning about spiritual disciplines like prayer and fasting and I was struck by how often the professor would skip from St. Paul to Martin Luther or Jonathan Edwards when describing admirable lives of piety. Did nothing worthwhile happen in the first 1500 years? The skipping of history would continue in many other classes and assigned reading. The majority of pre-Reformation church history was ignored.

I soon discovered I had less in common with the early Church fathers than I thought. Unlike most Christians in history, communion had always been for me an occasional eating of bread and grape juice, and baptism was only important after someone had gotten “saved.” Not only did these views contradict much of Church history but, increasingly, they did not match with uncomfortable Bible passages I had always shrugged off (John 6, Romans 6, etc).

Other questions that I had buried began to reappear, no longer docile but ferocious, demanding an answer. Where did the Bible come from? Why didn’t the Bible claim to be “sufficient”? The Protestant answers that had held me over in the last year were no longer satisfying.

Jefferson Bethke’s viral YouTube video, “Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus,” was released during this time. The young man meant well, but to me he only validated what the Wall Street Journal called “the dangerous theological anarchy of young evangelicals,” attempting to remove Jesus from the confines of religion but losing so much in the process.

Ash Wednesday was the tipping point. A hip Southern Baptist church in Louisville held a morning Ash Wednesday service and many students showed up to classes with ashes on their forehead. At chapel that afternoon, a professor renowned for his apologetic efforts against Catholicism expounded upon the beauty of this thousand year old tradition.

Afterwards, I asked a seminary friend why most evangelicals had rejected this beautiful thing. He responded with something about Pharisees and “man-made traditions.”

I shook my head. “I can’t do this anymore.”

My resistance to Catholicism started to fade. I was feeling drawn to the sacraments, sacramentals, physical manifestations of God’s grace, the one, holy, catholic and apostolic Church. No more borrowing, no more denying.

It was the next day that I called my mom and told her I thought I was going to become Catholic.

I didn’t go to classes on Friday. I went to the seminary library and checked out books I had previously forbidden myself to look at too closely, like the Catechism and Pope Benedict’s latest. I felt like I was checking out porn. Later, I drove to a 5pm Saturday Mass. The gorgeous crucifix at the front of the church reminded me of when I had mused that crucifixes demonstrated that Catholics didn’t really understand the resurrection.

But I saw the crucifix differently this time and began crying. “Jesus, my suffering savior, you’re here.”

A peace came over me until Tuesday, when it yielded to face-to-windshield reality. Should I stay or leave? I had several panicked phone calls: “I literally have no idea what I am going to do tomorrow morning.”

On Wednesday morning I woke up, opened my laptop, and typed out “77 Reasons I Am Leaving Evangelicalism.” The list included things like sola scriptura, justification, authority, the Eucharist, history, beauty, and continuity between the Old and New Testament. The headlines and the ensuing paragraphs flowed from my fingers like water bursting from a centuries-old dam. 

A few hours later on February 29, 2012 I slipped out of Louisville, Kentucky, eager to not confuse anyone else and hoping I wasn’t making a mistake.  

The next few months were painful. More than anything else I felt ashamed and defensive, uncertain of how so much of my identity and career path could be upended so quickly. Nonetheless, I joined the Church on Pentecost with the support of my family and started looking for work.

So much has changed since then. I met Jackie on CatholicMatch.com that June, got married a year later, and celebrated the birth of our daughter, Evelyn, on March 3rd, 2014. We’re now in Indiana and I’m happy at my job.

I’m still very new on this Catholic journey. To all inquirers out there, I can tell you that my relationship with God has deepened and strengthened. As I get involved in our parish, I’m so thankful for the love of evangelism and the Bible that I learned in Protestantism.

I have not so much left my former faith as I have filled in the gaps. I thank God for the fullness of the Catholic faith.


TOPICS: Apologetics; Catholic; Evangelical Christian; Theology
KEYWORDS: anthonybaratta; baptist; catholic; evangelical; protestant; seminary; southernbaptist
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To: Resettozero

“Except for the underground Christian Church that God has always kept.”

There was no such Church. Even Protestant historians admit it: http://www.amazon.com/Baptist-Successionism-James-Edward-McGoldrick/dp/0810836815


101 posted on 11/28/2014 5:24:22 PM PST by vladimir998
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To: ealgeone

**Caths may read the bible but they don’t apply it. **

And exactly how do you know this? Is it in the Bible?


102 posted on 11/28/2014 5:24:57 PM PST by Salvation ("With God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26)
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To: Balding_Eagle
I’m assuming this post is here to help begin a healthy dialogue about Catholicism versus Christianity?

The first 1500 years of Christianity were filled with millions of people discovering Jesus through the Catholic Church, Eastern, Orthodox and Roman. Catholic simply means universal.

Most of the eastern rites have united with the Roman Catholic Church, which makes such good sense. I BELIEVE that it would be what our good Lord would have us to.
Whether you travel the road of John Calvin, Martin Luther or any of those very pious souls who found Christ their own way in the 16th century, you travel to Jesus.

ALL roads worth traveling are with Jesus leading us, with Jesus at our side and with Jesus behind us in case we fall. THAT is the true path. Why cavil at our own Christian paths if they all lead to Jesus?

103 posted on 11/28/2014 5:25:41 PM PST by cloudmountain
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To: BipolarBob

The Apostles were Jews who became Christians. They would attend synagogue on Saturday and then meet in church homes on Sunday for the celebration of the Eucharist.

Eventually, then, they were expelled from the synagogues.


104 posted on 11/28/2014 5:26:28 PM PST by Salvation ("With God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26)
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To: vladimir998
So you’re saying Jews can be saved without Christ?

Of course not. Have you ever heard of Jewish Christians??? That's what the Apostles were. That's what the churches they established were.

105 posted on 11/28/2014 5:26:34 PM PST by BipolarBob (You smell of elderberries, my friend.)
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To: mountn man
When Jesus was asked by Peter in Matthew 18:21-22- "Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Until seven times? Jesus said unto him, "I say not unto thee, until seven times: but unto thee Until seven times seventy.

it seems that Jesus would have forgiven the whore, the heretic, the sinner in this life, but the Popes did not see it that way, so it seems, given they burned and killed (had killed) millions over a period of 800- 900 years.

106 posted on 11/28/2014 5:27:04 PM PST by Texas Songwriter (w)
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To: Resettozero
I designed and presented a Lives of the Saints class for 11 weeks this past summer in my parish. It's hard to choose just a few from so many, but we did just 11 saints, from Irenaeus (2nd century) to John Henry Newman (19th century).

I was particularly interested in how they dealt with controversy, either within their own closest religious communities, or when dealing with erroneous movements like the Gnostics, the Donatists, and so forth.

I was looking for rational, patient, persistent approaches. I was looking for balanced people able to be reasoned with; strong for the truth; humble enough to be corrected. I found them!

One could write a History of the Catholic Churh based on crimes, just as one could write a History of the United States of America based on crimes. It would be stirring for those who enjoy the thrill of moral indignation; it would also be biased in a deeply damaging way. But I found it very restoring in mind, heartm, and spirit, to read history based on saints who, like Christ, were truly full of mercy, and would rather suffer than inflict suffering.

107 posted on 11/28/2014 5:27:59 PM PST by Mrs. Don-o (If you desire to know the truth about anything, you always run the risk of finding it. - S. Undset)
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To: Andyman

I was a 10-year old kid who was invited by his aunt to accompany her to Adoration on some Sunday afternoon in 1948. She disappeared in the choir loft to play the organ and left me fetching for myself.

Here I am sitting in a pew all by myself when some dude in an ornate coat walks in, opens a little door in some safe, puts something white in a gold, cross-shaped thingy, places it on a table, and starts swinging something like a ball on a chain at the Subject on the table.

Smoke starts to billow. Hmm, strange smell, but not unpleasant. Hmm, this is cool, this is strange, I think that this is what I want from now on. In the meantime, my aunt in the choir loft was doing her thing.

The rest is history and I never looked back. Of course, later on in life, the Jesuits just reinforced all the emotions I experienced on that Sunday afternoon.

The End.


108 posted on 11/28/2014 5:28:28 PM PST by 353FMG
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To: boycott; CynicalBear; BipolarBob
I quit reading at that point.

Too bad. You might have gained a better understanding of how and why this young man, along with other Evangelicals, chose to come home to the Catholic Church. Consider, for example ...

Frncis J. Beckwith - "Until a few weeks ago, Francis Beckwith served as president of the Evangelical Theological Society, an association of 4,300 Protestant theologians." He Could No Longer Explain Why He Wasn’t Catholic

Ulf Ekman - "I discovered how little I really knew about [Catholics], their spirituality and their beliefs. Unconsciously I carried many prejudices and bad attitudes and have been quick to judge them without really knowing what they actually believed. It has been good to discover and to repent from nonchalant and shallow opinions, based not on their own sources but on their opponents, and to discover a very rich heritage, a strong theological foundation and a deep love for Jesus Christ among them."
Conversion of Sweden's Most Influential Pastor Causes 'Pain and Disillusion'

These Evangelical leaders, like many others, are theologians who were emotionally invested in their Evangelical faith. Their decisions to convert were emotionally difficult and came about after much prayer for discernment. Before you denigrate this young man, watch the short video in which he describes the challenges he confronted. If nothing else, it might convey a better understanding of the power of prayer.

109 posted on 11/28/2014 5:30:06 PM PST by NYer ("You are a puff of smoke that appears briefly and then disappears." James 4:14)
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To: Salvation
They would attend synagogue on Saturday and then meet in church homes on Sunday for the celebration of the Eucharist. Eventually, then, they were expelled from the synagogues.

No. They met in homes anytime during the week (whenever they could). They were expelled for teaching Christ and Him crucified. They started their own churches.

110 posted on 11/28/2014 5:30:57 PM PST by BipolarBob (You smell of elderberries, my friend.)
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To: vladimir998
“Except for the underground Christian Church that God has always kept.”

You vladimir998 omitted the rest of my post that clarifies and specifies. Why would an honest FR poster do that?

Except for the underground Christian Church that God has always kept. The same underground believers in Jesus Christ that Roman and other RCC rulers were putting to death in a variety of hideous ways. But, that's probably easy for some to forget.


111 posted on 11/28/2014 5:31:19 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: Texas Songwriter
You may be interested in thi:

#107 I am beginning to gt deep into history, and would like to get deeper. History (as in Stuff That Really Happened)---difficult as it is --- is the field of action of Divine Providence.

112 posted on 11/28/2014 5:31:51 PM PST by Mrs. Don-o (If you desire to know the truth about anything, you always run the risk of finding it. - S. Undset)
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To: 353FMG

Sounds positively paganistic.


113 posted on 11/28/2014 5:32:37 PM PST by BipolarBob (You smell of elderberries, my friend.)
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To: mountn man

My advice to you is to just avoid these threads because, for the most part they only produce rotten fruit.


114 posted on 11/28/2014 5:34:10 PM PST by right way right (America has embraced the suck of Freedumb.)
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To: NYer

I can’t go back to Catholicism since I am saved by grace through faith.


115 posted on 11/28/2014 5:36:27 PM PST by Old Yeller (Civil rights are for civilized people.)
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To: CynicalBear

This is one of the most sobering scriptures in the Book. It seems the me the Protestant/Catholic question is, “What is the Authority for justification in that faith (Catholic or Protestant...which ever applies). It seems clear the scripture, written under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit it for the Protestant - The WORD of GOD). It seems the tradition of men preaching another gospel for the Catholic. The Truth Matters.


116 posted on 11/28/2014 5:41:03 PM PST by Texas Songwriter (w)
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To: 98ZJ USMC
Not this Roman Catholic. Being Catholic, doesn't excuse stupidity. In fact, I think I despise RC Liberals more than the run of the mill lame brains.

"RC Liberals" -- that seems to be a contradiction in terms when it comes to faith. The Roman Catholic path is very straight and very narrow.

Liberals like paths that are winding, wide and eclectic and very forgiving. That way there is no reason for the Sacrament of Reconciliations because nothing is wrong or evil. It's also very easy.
To me, being liberal means that almost "anything goes."

I don't think that any Christian, Catholic or any of the 40,000 different Protestant denominations, believe that.

FYI: http://www.city-data.com/forum/christianity/1938892-33000-41000-how-many-protestant-denominations.html

117 posted on 11/28/2014 5:42:18 PM PST by cloudmountain
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To: Mrs. Don-o

None of what you posted addressed what I posted.

Honest communication between you and me on FR just cannot happen with circumstances as they are now.

Please, no more attempts at this. Please?


118 posted on 11/28/2014 5:43:06 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: BipolarBob

Thanks for proving my point.


119 posted on 11/28/2014 5:46:11 PM PST by Salvation ("With God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26)
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To: cloudmountain
Why do you feel the need to pound your SUPPOSED 40,000 different Protestant denominations.

Why not just man up and realize that their are milions of individuals that disagree with aspects of the catholic church.

Either that, or just quit trying to make it sound that you are trying to be conciliatory to any protestant.

120 posted on 11/28/2014 5:51:55 PM PST by mountn man (The Pleasure You Get From Life Is Equal To The Attitude You Put Into It)
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