Posted on 06/25/2010 8:16:18 PM PDT by Danae
About 6 months ago I made my first FReeper prayer request. I had just found out that my Dad Brian's Cancer had returned. This time it was in his lungs, brain and liver, and it was Stage 4.
Treatment started up again, Chemo and then Gamma Knife Radiation on his brain, more chemo. And then a pause. The brain tumors were growing again, and now instead of 3 tumors, there were 17. Full brain Radiation followed, 15 days of it.
Once through that, they found he had bone cancer in his neck. Treatment was done.
Through all this, my dad said: "don't listen to a thing, just watch me,". He knew he was dying. He was showing us how to do it with grace. And boy howdy did he do it... I have a whole lot to live up to to come close to matching that...
There were many visits, lots of laughing, and lots of listening. And more love than I ever knew existed.
My dad went from a little boy abused in every way... what he grew up with is utterly unimaginable to me. God bless him, that's just what he swore, that HIS kids would never know that kind of abuse. And by God he did that too. He never hit us. Never. He broke the chain of abuse. Which isn't to say that he wasn't still deeply scarred by what he had been through. He was, and he struggled with that for much of his life.
Until he forgave himself. Forgave himself and instead, came to love himself, and his parents, though they had passed years ago. He went from a creature of utter fear and every negative emotion that comes with fear including hate, to a man of love. Pure love. AMAZING.
My Dad passed into the arms of Jesus at 10:27 pm Thursday night. Just my mom and I were in the room right at that moment.
It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
We called my Brother, Auntie and Cousin into the room and we cried HALLELUJAH! Thank you God! He FLIES now and is free! Halleluja! Thank you for setting him free at last Lord!!
Thank you for the honor of being Brian's daughter, I prayed. Thank you for the gift of being able to say goodbye, and know my dad was and is so proud of me! Thank you for allowing me to witness my fathers re-birth into a creature of spirit and love. Thank you for the gift of being present for such a miracle!
I am in awe.
I wanted to thank all of you who posted and prayed for and with me when I first asked for the prayer request when we learned his cancer was back. I printed them all out and gave them to him. He was so moved! The support and strength we gained gave us what we needed to find a center, a balance, a place of LOVE. Thank you!
Remember this...... Please.
Where there is love, fear cannot exist. Where there is fear, love cannot exist. When you fear anything, stop, and think of what you love, and fear cannot touch you.
Thank you my FRiends. Go with God, and go with love.
Danae
Our Sovereign Lord sustains His own. There is no greater blessing or assurance.
Rest in Him.
I’m very sorry for your loss, Danae, but rejoice with you at your father’s home-going, as well.
my condolences...
Thank you for your loving words...
And thank you, my FRiend, for your inspiring words. May God be with you and your mother and give you solace and comfort.
*HUG*
Prayers for you and your family, that all of you will get through the next trying week with grace and dignity.
God is with you all, and He has blessed you immensely.
‘Face
When my father died, I was 17. He, too, died of cancer, but I’ve never grieved for him. I loved him dearly, and learned many things at his knee. It’s OK to not grieve just because it’s “expected” or “the right thing to do.” There are many ways of handling the loss. Your way is the right way for you.
*hug*
You know, we ask for prayers for healing, when someone we love is stricken with a dread disease, or is injured severely, but we have to remember that God heals in many ways. Sometimes there is physical healing, and our loved ones are returned to us, whole, in this life. Sometimes there is spiritual healing, and though they may be taken from us, we know they're waiting for us, and we won't be making that final journey alone.
God Bless your family, and give repose to your Dad's soul.
I don’t think that is at all weird. As my father crossed over, his music list was playing nest to the bed. Celine Dion was singing, I can’t recall right now which one. Of course we were crying... and what comes on next?
“You ain’t nothin but a Hound Dog” by Elvis.
We cracked up laughing. Because that was SO just like my Dad! It WAS my dad! It was just so perfect... lol
The house creaked all night it seemed, footsteps that we could hear but no one was there. People called that we had not spoken to for years, my 90 year old great uncle from Florida, Uncle Lou, he called the next day, though no one had called him yet. Dad was flying free.
So no I don’t consider that in the least strange.
So if we are nuts, then we are the same kinda nuts and that works for me! :)
Thank you!
That is exactly what I was thinking this morning. My tears are now for me, and my Mom.
Grief is a bizarre journey. I have no clue where its going to lead.
I thank GOD he is free!
Thank you!
:) Thanks my friend. I believe my uncle is coming down soon, he will be piping for the celebration I think! :)
Thank you Bray!
This is why I have not been writing much lately. I have just had no time to do it. Eugene isn’t that far away, but its far enough to require I do a lot to make it possible to get down there and be there for as long as I can.
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.
They are priceless. Thank you!
D
What a awesome tribute to your Dad. May you know the comfort of that love in the coming days.
I lost my dad almost exactly a year ago. All of us—my mom and siblings—were able to make it to his bedside and express love before he died. It was so meaningful to have that opportunity. It’s so important to say the important things—to have no regrets. It appears that you have done that.
Prayers for God’s blessings on all.
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