Posted on 06/25/2010 8:16:18 PM PDT by Danae
About 6 months ago I made my first FReeper prayer request. I had just found out that my Dad Brian's Cancer had returned. This time it was in his lungs, brain and liver, and it was Stage 4.
Treatment started up again, Chemo and then Gamma Knife Radiation on his brain, more chemo. And then a pause. The brain tumors were growing again, and now instead of 3 tumors, there were 17. Full brain Radiation followed, 15 days of it.
Once through that, they found he had bone cancer in his neck. Treatment was done.
Through all this, my dad said: "don't listen to a thing, just watch me,". He knew he was dying. He was showing us how to do it with grace. And boy howdy did he do it... I have a whole lot to live up to to come close to matching that...
There were many visits, lots of laughing, and lots of listening. And more love than I ever knew existed.
My dad went from a little boy abused in every way... what he grew up with is utterly unimaginable to me. God bless him, that's just what he swore, that HIS kids would never know that kind of abuse. And by God he did that too. He never hit us. Never. He broke the chain of abuse. Which isn't to say that he wasn't still deeply scarred by what he had been through. He was, and he struggled with that for much of his life.
Until he forgave himself. Forgave himself and instead, came to love himself, and his parents, though they had passed years ago. He went from a creature of utter fear and every negative emotion that comes with fear including hate, to a man of love. Pure love. AMAZING.
My Dad passed into the arms of Jesus at 10:27 pm Thursday night. Just my mom and I were in the room right at that moment.
It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
We called my Brother, Auntie and Cousin into the room and we cried HALLELUJAH! Thank you God! He FLIES now and is free! Halleluja! Thank you for setting him free at last Lord!!
Thank you for the honor of being Brian's daughter, I prayed. Thank you for the gift of being able to say goodbye, and know my dad was and is so proud of me! Thank you for allowing me to witness my fathers re-birth into a creature of spirit and love. Thank you for the gift of being present for such a miracle!
I am in awe.
I wanted to thank all of you who posted and prayed for and with me when I first asked for the prayer request when we learned his cancer was back. I printed them all out and gave them to him. He was so moved! The support and strength we gained gave us what we needed to find a center, a balance, a place of LOVE. Thank you!
Remember this...... Please.
Where there is love, fear cannot exist. Where there is fear, love cannot exist. When you fear anything, stop, and think of what you love, and fear cannot touch you.
Thank you my FRiends. Go with God, and go with love.
Danae
God’s abundant blessings your father and you, Danae.
Thanks for your remarkable words.
Thank you for your gracious message at such a difficult time.
I was with my Dad when he passed away last year. I considered being with him through those last days the privilege of my life.
Thank you, Danae, for sharing your beautiful and moving experiences with your FR family.
God bless you.
God bless you (and it sounds like He has).
Beautifully written. Your dad’s in a better place and he is happier than he has ever been. God bless your whole family and your dad’s departed soul.
**Thank you for the honor of being Brian’s daughter, I prayed. Thank you for the gift of being able to say goodbye, and know my dad was and is so proud of me! Thank you for allowing me to witness my fathers re-birth into a creature of spirit and love. Thank you for the gift of being present for such a miracle!
I am in awe.**
Danae, I am in awe! Being a writer even showed up in this. What a wonderful account!
May the Lord be with you, your mom and your entire family, and may the souls of your dad and all the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace. Amen.
It is me who is grateful.
I either am not greiving, cannot grieve, or something ....I don’t know. I am not sad though I cry. I am so happy for him!
I am really sad for my mom, who is just busted up, but laughing and loving all at the same time.
Awe. Who know that one could gain and be given so much through the “loss” of a loved one?? Awe... It will take me a long time to really process what I have experienced in the last 60 hours or so. I suppose the fact that I have slept only about 5 hours in that time might have something to do with it LOL... I sat up with him all night wednesday... I would have gotten up at 5am that morning... sigh... lol.
Awe. I thank you God!
Thank you GOP_Lady! :)
Thank you for such a touching story, Danae. My prayers are with you and your family at this time.
Thank you Salvation!
God bless you too! You have seen that scene yourself, and your grace is an inspiration to me!
Thank you! I know exactly what you mean!
Awe..... :) it is a privilege. 100%
What a beautiful story to share with us. Thank you. God blessed your family and now holds Brian in His loving arms.
My Father died a little over five years ago from lung cancer.
He was never one to express his feelings or emotions. His love for us was just understood.
On a Thursday night in late May of 2005, as my Mother was putting him to bed, he said.....”I Love You”
He passed the next day.
He knew.
Prayers from my family to yours.
May God bless your mom and family.
Very touching in every way....some things of life go to the very heart and soul...this is one of those. Thank you for sharing this.
Condolences to you and your family on your father’s passing. May he rest in peace.
It’s really moving that you are happy for father.
That’s how he wants you to be. :-)
You have such a wonderful attitude and spirit.
Keep it always.
Your father and your mother, I know, are proud of you.
God bless you and your family and your precious father, Danae.
I understand. My mother-in-law passed away on May 25th after a five year battle with Lewy Body Dementia. It was a very tough journey for the family. She is free now to be with God and endure no more suffering.
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