Posted on 06/14/2022 12:05:04 PM PDT by Red Badger
I want to tell everyone what they took from us, what irreversible really means, and what that reality looks like for us.
No one told me any of what I’m going to tell you now.
🧵 I have no sensation in my crotch region at all.
You could stab me with a knife and I wouldn't know. The entire area is numb, like it's shell shocked and unable to comprehend what happened, even 4 years on.
I tore a sutra 4 days post recovery, they promised to address it, i begged them in emails to fix it, they scorned me instead.
Years later, I have what looks like a chunk of missing flesh next to my neo-vagina, it literally looks like someone hacked at me.
They still wont fix it
No one told me that the base area of your penis is left, it can't be removed - meaning you're left with a literal stump inside that twitches.
When you take Testosterone and your libido returns, you wake up with morning wood, without the tree.
I wish this was a joke
And if you do take testosterone after being post op, you run the risk of internal hair in the neo-vagina. Imagine dealing with internal hair growth after everything?
What a choice... be healthy on Testosterone and a freak, or remain a sexless eunuch.
And thats something that will never come back and one of the reason why i got surgery.
My sex drive died about 6 months on HRT and at the time I was glad to be rid of it, but now 10 years later, Im realising what im missing out on and what I won't get back.
Because even if i had a sex drive, my neo vagina is so narrow and small, i wouldn't even be able to have sex if i wanted too.
And when I do use a small dilator, I have random pockets of sensation that only seem to pick up pain, rather than pleasure.
Any pleasure I do get comes from the Prostate that was moved forward and wrapped in glands from the penis, meaning anal sex isnt possible and can risk further damage.
Then theres the dreams. I dream often, that I have both sets of genitals, in the dream I'm distressed I have both, why both I think? I tell myself to wake up because I know its just a dream.
And I awaken into a living nightmare. In those moments of amnesia as I would wake, I would reach down to my crotch area expecting something that was there for 3 decades, and it's not.
My heart skips a beat, every single damn time.
Then theres the act of going to the toilet. It takes me about 10 minutes to empty my bladder, it's extremely slow, painful and because it dribbles no matter how much i relax, it will then just go all over that entire area, leaving me soaken.
So after cleaning myself up, I will find moments later that my underwear is wet - no matter how much I wiped, it slowly drips out for the best part of an hour.
I never knew at 35 I ran the risk like smelling like piss everywhere I went.
Now i get to the point where im detransitioned and the realisation that this is permanent is catching up with me.
During transition, I was obsessive and deeply unwell, I cannot believe they were allowed to do this to me, even after all the red flags.
I wasn't even asked if I wanted to freeze sperm or want kids. In my obsessive, deeply unwell state they just nodded along and didnt tell me the realities, what life would be like.
And finally, theres dilation, which is like some sort of demonic ceremony where you impale yourself for 20 agonising minutes to remind you of your own stupidity.
This isn't even the half of it. And this isn't regret either, this is grief and anger.
F--k everyone who let this happen.
When I lost 1600 ml blood during surgery, it took days to get a blood transfusion.
The surgery lasted 3 hours longer.
They joked about the blood loss too.
"call me"
I haven't deleted anything btw. Thread got mass reported.
Thank you for archiving kind internet stranger
No going back? I don’t think so. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27156012/
And I’ll bet this genius got he/she/its clot shots? Problems just starting.
Back in the Stone Age (semi-normal time), when Lorena Bobbit did a TakeADickFromMe surgery on her hubby, it was a well-reported crime. Now idiots beg for it, and they or we, pay for it. 🤡🌍
A heavy price to pay to be disabused of one’s delusion.
A mutilated homosexual transvestite regrets the mutilation? Tough noogies.
You got what you wanted. Now live with it.
Autogynophilia(sp) is a mental disorder that means the person who dresses up as sexually opposite or in drag, gets sexually charged/aroused by doing it in front of others.
People would ask, why wouldn’t Micheal/Michelle hide it from people? Answer is, she and Aboma both get wood over it.
I feel the same as you expressed too, but the overwhelming thing that hits me is sadness.
Jesus wept.
I pray that it won’t be long until these “medical practices” have gone the way of lobotomies. (LOTS of similarities between the two).
While these people are confused about their bodies and sex, culture and the doctors share a LOT/most of the blame too. It is like an anorexic going to their counselor or doctor and being placed on a diet to treat their perceived problem of being fat.
Those two “girls” who claimed that they were “gay” at the age of ten I’m willing to bet were encouraged that way by “teachers”. (homos)🙄
The politicians and butchers who exploit this mental illness in people and gallivant about it being “pride” are hideous abusers. Yes, the people who promote this bear responsibility but those that encourage and facilitate it are worse. You don’t give people in the psych ward the keys to the car.
I majory cringe when I read stuff like this. I cannot imagine having my genitals permanently mutilated.
It seems like this guy is still mostly on board with the homo agenda (rainbow in his profile, etc.) He hasn’t learned, he just thinks something went wrong with HIM. The entire agenda is deadly.
They do have to f*** themselves with larger and larger dildos, several times a day initially and then several times a week, to prevent the created wound from healing over. The body never recognizes it as what they think it is, and constantly tries to combat their attempts at fantasy with reality.
This is horrid.
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