How beautiful it was too! I am past child bearing years and are reaping the consequences physically connected to hospital decisions in my child bearing experiences. Briefly, I would like to bring up a couple points that happened to me.
1)induced without as much as an ultrasound to be sure I could safely pass my child. After 36 plus hours of hard labor, she was quite literally pulled out of me. My back was injured from my baby bouncing from spine to pelvic bone and came out with her head ripped up..quite literally. I ended up with caged fusion on lower spine later in life that I attribute to the situation because it was in the exact area that I felt deep burning with labor pounding back and forth. I guess, nobody is perfect but you would think common sense would have played a part to prohibit this kind of thing.
2)I lost a full term baby simply because they told me it was “commonly called pregnancy” when I told them my baby was convulsing inside me. She died within 6 hours of them sending me home.
3)I allowed no intervention, drugs or evaluations and had a healthy little girl. BTW, not once has a doctor delivered me..they always seem to leave when that time comes.
You mentioned that your body knows what to do and I cannot agree with you more. Of course as in all things, there are exceptions and things may not turn out the way you wanted but I bet that happens more in hospital than home. This is my analogy although not so pretty. When you go through transition (time just before the birth) the process is taken over by your body. It is like what your body does when it needs to expel something you consumed like bad food and you bring it right back up and fast. You cannot prevent it...slow it down...speed it up or stop. Your body takes over.
I was so surprised how quiet it was when you gave birth through this transition. I have never screamed but the strong muscles at work was like a bearing down, pushing without me so I sounded like I was pushing on my own but was not. How on earth did you get around that? (again like heaving from expelling bad food..do you do that without a sound too?)
I have watched on t.v. the hours of required pushing that by the time the baby came, the mother was out of it. That benefits no one but the hospital in most cases.
Your a beautiful person and I feel strongly that God placing you here at this time is no mistake. Your family is beautiful as well.