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I Hated the Idea of Becoming Catholic
Aleteia ^ | JUNE 20, 2014 | ANTHONY BARATTA

Posted on 11/28/2014 2:33:31 PM PST by NYer

It was the day after Ash Wednesday in 2012 when I called my mom from my dorm room at Southern Baptist Theological Seminary and told her I thought I was going to become Catholic.

“You’re not going to become Catholic, you just know you’re not Southern Baptist,” she said.

“No, I don’t think so.”

A pause. “Oh boy,” she sighed.

I started crying.

I cannot stress enough how much I hated the idea of becoming Catholic. I was bargaining to the last moment. I submitted a sermon for a competition days before withdrawing from school. I was memorizing Psalm 119 to convince myself of sola scriptura. I set up meetings with professors to hear the best arguments. I purposefully read Protestant books about Catholicism, rather than books by Catholic authors.

Further, I knew I would lose my housing money and have to pay a scholarship back if I withdrew from school, not to mention disappointing family, friends, and a dedicated church community.

But when I attempted to do my homework, I collapsed on my bed. All I wanted to do was scream at the textbook, “Who says?!”

I had experienced a huge paradigm shift in my thinking about the faith, and the question of apostolic authority loomed larger than ever.

But let’s rewind back a few years.

I grew up in an evangelical Protestant home. My father was a worship and preaching pastor from when I was in fourth grade onwards. Midway through college, I really fell in love with Jesus Christ and His precious Gospel and decided to become a pastor.

It was during that time that I was hardened in my assumption that the Roman Catholic Church didn’t adhere to the Bible. When I asked one pastor friend of mine during my junior year why Catholics thought Mary remained a virgin after Jesus’ birth when the Bible clearly said Jesus had “brothers,” he simply grimaced: “They don’t read the Bible.”

Though I had been in talks with Seattle’s Mars Hill Church about doing an internship with them, John Piper’s book Don’t Waste Your Life clarified my call to missionary work specifically, and I spent the next summer evangelizing Catholics in Poland.

So I was surprised when I visited my parents and found a silly looking book titled Born Fundamentalist, Born Again Catholic on my father’s desk. What was my dad doing reading something like this? I was curious and hadn’t brought anything home to read, so I gave it a look.

David Currie’s memoir of leaving behind his evangelical education and ministries was bothersome. His unapologetic defense of controversial doctrines regarding Mary and the papacy were most shocking, as I had never seriously considered that Catholics would have sensible, scriptural defenses to these beliefs.

The book’s presence on my father’s desk was explained more fully a few months later when he called me and said he was returning to the Catholicism of his youth. My response? “But, can’t you just be Lutheran or something?” I felt angry, betrayed, and indignant. For the next four months I served as a youth pastor at my local church and, in my free time, read up on why Catholicism was wrong.

During that time, I stumbled across a Christianity Today article that depicted an “evangelical identity crisis.” The author painted a picture of young evangelicals, growing up in a post-modern world, yearning to be firmly rooted in history and encouraged that others had stood strong for Christ in changing and troubled times. Yet, in my experience, most evangelical churches did not observe the liturgical calendar, the Apostles’ Creed was never mentioned, many of the songs were written after 1997, and if any anecdotal story was told about a hero from church history, it was certainly from after the Reformation. Most of Christian history was nowhere to be found.

For the first time, I panicked. I found a copy of the Catechism and started leafing through it, finding the most controversial doctrines and laughing at the silliness of the Catholic Church. Indulgences? Papal infallibility? These things, so obviously wrong, reassured me in my Protestantism. The Mass sounded beautiful and the idea of a visible, unified Church was appealing - but at the expense of the Gospel? It seemed obvious that Satan would build a large organization that would lead so many just short of heaven.

I shook off most of the doubts and enjoyed the remainder of my time at college, having fun with the youth group and sharing my faith with the students. Any lingering doubts, I assumed, would be dealt with in seminary.

I started my classes in January with the excitement of a die-hard football fan going to the Super Bowl. The classes were fantastic and I thought I had finally rid myself of any Catholic problems.


But just a few weeks later, I ran into more doubts. We were learning about spiritual disciplines like prayer and fasting and I was struck by how often the professor would skip from St. Paul to Martin Luther or Jonathan Edwards when describing admirable lives of piety. Did nothing worthwhile happen in the first 1500 years? The skipping of history would continue in many other classes and assigned reading. The majority of pre-Reformation church history was ignored.

I soon discovered I had less in common with the early Church fathers than I thought. Unlike most Christians in history, communion had always been for me an occasional eating of bread and grape juice, and baptism was only important after someone had gotten “saved.” Not only did these views contradict much of Church history but, increasingly, they did not match with uncomfortable Bible passages I had always shrugged off (John 6, Romans 6, etc).

Other questions that I had buried began to reappear, no longer docile but ferocious, demanding an answer. Where did the Bible come from? Why didn’t the Bible claim to be “sufficient”? The Protestant answers that had held me over in the last year were no longer satisfying.

Jefferson Bethke’s viral YouTube video, “Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus,” was released during this time. The young man meant well, but to me he only validated what the Wall Street Journal called “the dangerous theological anarchy of young evangelicals,” attempting to remove Jesus from the confines of religion but losing so much in the process.

Ash Wednesday was the tipping point. A hip Southern Baptist church in Louisville held a morning Ash Wednesday service and many students showed up to classes with ashes on their forehead. At chapel that afternoon, a professor renowned for his apologetic efforts against Catholicism expounded upon the beauty of this thousand year old tradition.

Afterwards, I asked a seminary friend why most evangelicals had rejected this beautiful thing. He responded with something about Pharisees and “man-made traditions.”

I shook my head. “I can’t do this anymore.”

My resistance to Catholicism started to fade. I was feeling drawn to the sacraments, sacramentals, physical manifestations of God’s grace, the one, holy, catholic and apostolic Church. No more borrowing, no more denying.

It was the next day that I called my mom and told her I thought I was going to become Catholic.

I didn’t go to classes on Friday. I went to the seminary library and checked out books I had previously forbidden myself to look at too closely, like the Catechism and Pope Benedict’s latest. I felt like I was checking out porn. Later, I drove to a 5pm Saturday Mass. The gorgeous crucifix at the front of the church reminded me of when I had mused that crucifixes demonstrated that Catholics didn’t really understand the resurrection.

But I saw the crucifix differently this time and began crying. “Jesus, my suffering savior, you’re here.”

A peace came over me until Tuesday, when it yielded to face-to-windshield reality. Should I stay or leave? I had several panicked phone calls: “I literally have no idea what I am going to do tomorrow morning.”

On Wednesday morning I woke up, opened my laptop, and typed out “77 Reasons I Am Leaving Evangelicalism.” The list included things like sola scriptura, justification, authority, the Eucharist, history, beauty, and continuity between the Old and New Testament. The headlines and the ensuing paragraphs flowed from my fingers like water bursting from a centuries-old dam. 

A few hours later on February 29, 2012 I slipped out of Louisville, Kentucky, eager to not confuse anyone else and hoping I wasn’t making a mistake.  

The next few months were painful. More than anything else I felt ashamed and defensive, uncertain of how so much of my identity and career path could be upended so quickly. Nonetheless, I joined the Church on Pentecost with the support of my family and started looking for work.

So much has changed since then. I met Jackie on CatholicMatch.com that June, got married a year later, and celebrated the birth of our daughter, Evelyn, on March 3rd, 2014. We’re now in Indiana and I’m happy at my job.

I’m still very new on this Catholic journey. To all inquirers out there, I can tell you that my relationship with God has deepened and strengthened. As I get involved in our parish, I’m so thankful for the love of evangelism and the Bible that I learned in Protestantism.

I have not so much left my former faith as I have filled in the gaps. I thank God for the fullness of the Catholic faith.


TOPICS: Apologetics; Catholic; Evangelical Christian; Theology
KEYWORDS: anthonybaratta; baptist; catholic; evangelical; protestant; seminary; southernbaptist
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To: NYer; Mark17
It's worth mentioning that this young man, barely out of his teens and exposed to challenging and faith-destroying thought in college and seminary, may have been "gospel-hardened" through the continual beating on the evangelical jargon until he became numb to it, rather than regenerated, through his formative days.

It is my suspicion that his turn to Romanism can only mean that he was--even after his continual exposure--not truly discipled and regenerated, or he would not have been deceived by the panoply and mystery of Romanism.

After reading his screed, I certainly would not expect a true Gospel warrior to be greatly impressed by his conversion from neo-evangelicalism to Catholicism through his ignorance from either viewpoint of the spiritual battles won by genuine Christ-followers from the Donatists tothe Waldensians to William Tyndall to our Pilgrims, and out of them the modern Baptists and Darbyites, persecuted to the death by the Roman statist church/government machine.

I know and have honored many, many pastors, evangelists, and fellow disciples who were raised in Romanism, looked at it full front in its unscriptural regulations, rituals, ecclesiology, and rejection of Bible truths, and finally fled to the Jesus of the Bible Who yet seeks them, and have become mighty blood-soaked hunters for lost souls in a dying world.

As Mark17 insisted, true salvation is the critical issue in days like these, when we need a Savior.

641 posted on 12/02/2014 3:54:42 PM PST by imardmd1 (Fiat Lux)
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To: Popman; Elsie

His circumstances precluded that from being accomplished. The same if someone were on their deathbed.


642 posted on 12/02/2014 3:57:03 PM PST by BipolarBob (You smell of elderberries, my friend.)
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To: imardmd1

Good post.


643 posted on 12/02/2014 3:58:20 PM PST by BipolarBob (You smell of elderberries, my friend.)
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To: Elsie; metmom; Popman

>> “WHAT???

You NEED to be baptized to be SAVED!!!!!!” <<

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That doesn’t mean get sprinkled with water, it means Confess, repent of your sin.

The thief on the cross did that.


644 posted on 12/02/2014 3:58:27 PM PST by editor-surveyor (Freepers: Not as smart as I'd hoped they'd be)
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To: Resettozero

Do you know how FR works?

All you have to do is click on the “to” and “Replies” buttons to follow up or down thread.

So if you click on the “to” button in my post, then click on the “to” button in the post of yours to which I replied, it leads to the post that contained the referenced material.

I just assumed that you were familiar with this stuff.

My apologies for being boorish.
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645 posted on 12/02/2014 4:07:28 PM PST by editor-surveyor (Freepers: Not as smart as I'd hoped they'd be)
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To: BipolarBob

I am saying just the opposite.

Scripture itself says the patience of the Saints is to obey the Commandments of Yah AND the Faith of Yahshua. Pretty clear.. in fact, He even says if You love me, you will obey my commandments..

Those are the same ones at Sinai.. you bet.. they haven’t changed.. Rome has changed them.. the world has erased them.. revelation 13 says the enemy will cause the breaking of the first four commandments..

Not sure where you got I was endorsing lawlessness..

Not in the slightest..
In fact, I was pointing out how we are lawless by using the world’s system, not out of maliciousness, but ignorance..

We strive to love Him with all our hearts, minds, soul and strength and our neighbors as ourselves as He says leads to life.

But it is tough to keep His Sabbath Holy when the world calls it a work day like they did yesterday (Gregorian monday)

His calendar isn’t found in Rome.. and the body of believers tend to use Rome as their timekeeping standard- not the sun, moon and stars that He says He gave us..


646 posted on 12/02/2014 4:10:34 PM PST by delchiante
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To: Springfield Reformer
Very well done incorporating Ezekiel 36 and Jeremiah 31 with John 3. Those are easily two of my favorite pearls. You might consider adding Isaiah 57. Take a look at verse 15 where the hiphil binyamin pattern for "live" is translated in the KJV as "revive" in For thus saith the high and lofty One that inhabiteth eternity, whose name is Holy; I dwell in the high and holy place, with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones. and then compare this same infinitive over in Genesis19:19 as "saving" Behold now, thy servant hath found grace in thy sight, and thou hast magnified thy mercy, which thou hast shewed unto me in saving my life; and I cannot escape to the mountain, lest some evil take me, and I die:

The fear of the LORD is clean, enduring for ever: the judgments of the LORD are true and righteous altogether. More to be desired are they than gold, yea, than much fine gold: sweeter also than honey and the honeycomb.


My soul hath kept thy testimonies; and I love them exceedingly.

647 posted on 12/02/2014 4:12:39 PM PST by af_vet_1981 (The bus came by and I got on, That's when it all began.)
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To: editor-surveyor
My apologies for being boorish.

It wasn't until this post that I understood you were trying to put me down somehow in your mind. Perhaps you succeeded. But your veiled antagonistic comments to me have been misplaced on this particular thread. And perhaps out of order.
648 posted on 12/02/2014 4:12:55 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: Elsie

I should have used Will. You are right..

A poor hedge on my part.


649 posted on 12/02/2014 4:13:27 PM PST by delchiante
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To: delchiante

>> “ I didn’t understand why He didn’t let me join a church..

Now I know why..” <<

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We are called out of the Harlot and her daughters.

But that doesn’t mean that we do not assemble together in his name.
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650 posted on 12/02/2014 4:14:52 PM PST by editor-surveyor (Freepers: Not as smart as I'd hoped they'd be)
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To: Resettozero

I was in no way trying to put you down, I thought that you were trying to tell me that you simply were not interested in that matter.

What comment did you take as antagonistic?
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651 posted on 12/02/2014 4:18:08 PM PST by editor-surveyor (Freepers: Not as smart as I'd hoped they'd be)
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To: Springfield Reformer
LOL! It’s my fault for how I wrote the post.

Perhaps I made a mistake in misunderstanding your thrust by me reading it too quickly. If I made a mistake please excuse me, I didn't intend to offend --

652 posted on 12/02/2014 4:20:41 PM PST by imardmd1 (Fiat Lux)
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To: delchiante
Sorry about that.

No call to be. I replied to your post while thinking of yet another post. As a result, part of my comment was meaningless to you. My error. Just one of many today. (Got to work on that.)
653 posted on 12/02/2014 4:22:35 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: imardmd1
I know and have honored many, many pastors, evangelists, and fellow disciples who were raised in Romanism, looked at it full front in its unscriptural regulations, rituals, ecclesiology, and rejection of Bible truths, and finally fled to the Jesus of the Bible

Hey, I resemble that remark. I was never a pastor or evangelist, but I was caught up in the system, and was liberated from it, when I finally understood the Plan of Salvation. I found it was so simple, that previously, I couldn't see the forest for the trees. It was like scales fell from my eyes. It really was an eye opening experience.

654 posted on 12/02/2014 4:23:23 PM PST by Mark17 (So gracious and tender was He. I claimed Him that day as my saviour, this stranger of Galilee)
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To: Resettozero

The spirit of error is thriving on this thread along about now.


655 posted on 12/02/2014 4:24:09 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: Elsie
You NEED to be baptized to be SAVED!!!!!!

Unh-unh. You need to be saved to be baptized.

656 posted on 12/02/2014 4:29:33 PM PST by imardmd1 (Fiat Lux)
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To: Resettozero
The spirit of error is thriving on this thread along about now.

I think the spirit of error has been thriving on this thread since its inception, but many of us, including you, have been sitting it straight ever since. Keep up the good work bro.

657 posted on 12/02/2014 4:32:07 PM PST by Mark17 (So gracious and tender was He. I claimed Him that day as my saviour, this stranger of Galilee)
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To: CynicalBear; Springfield Reformer
let me ask this then. doesn't the verse that CB pointed out 1 Peter 1:23 that contains the compound word "ἀναγεννάω anagennaō" actually add weight to my position that in the case anothon is 'best" translated as "from above"? I am not saying it is the 'ONLY" translation, I am saying that it is the best transaltion.
658 posted on 12/02/2014 4:59:49 PM PST by verga (You anger Catholics by telling them a lie, you anger protestants by telling them the truth.)
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To: Elsie
29 You are to abstain from food sacrificed to idols, from blood, from the meat of strangled animals and from sexual immorality.

You've got a poor translation. This is most certainly not in the imperative sense. It is not an order imposed by the Jerusalem Church OR its apostles and elders (as those who would like to convince you to believe of the beginning of Romanism and removal of the autonomy of the local church).

Rather, it is a request, a word of wise counsel, a strong suggestion to negate attempts to institute Torah law, that the church at Antioch consider adopting the same rule for themselves, and go no further improvising rules of conduct. The idea was that false Judaizers, claiming to have been sent from Jerusalem, may have their counsel nullified, declined, and told to take their religious rule-making attempts elsewhere.

659 posted on 12/02/2014 5:05:36 PM PST by imardmd1 (Fiat Lux)
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To: Popman
The thief on the cross might disagree....

That forgiven thief was not a part of the Church Age. He was one of the last Christ-believers saved under the Law, and went to Hell--the Paradise part, where Jesus' soul went to preach to him, and in a few hours transited the whole Paradise portion to be separated from Hell and joined to Heaven.

This thief was not a candidate for baptism, and will not be a member of the Bride.

At the wedding, he will be a friend of the Bride, IIRC.

660 posted on 12/02/2014 5:15:04 PM PST by imardmd1 (Fiat Lux)
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