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I am utterly undone: My struggle with black rage and fear after Ferguson
Salon ^ | November 25, 2014 | Brittney Cooper teaches Women's and Gender Studies and Africana Studies at Rutgers

Posted on 11/26/2014 2:24:04 AM PST by Cincinatus' Wife

Peaceful protests have been happening for over 100 days. But white folks only really pay attention if they fear they have something to lose. Smoke flares in their nostrils, because then they are confronted with the possibility of charred, burning, white flesh. No more water. The fire next time.

If I have to begin by convincing you that Black Lives Matter, we have all already lost, haven’t we? So let’s not begin there. Let’s begin at the end. At the end there is only Michael Brown Jr.’s dead body, no justice, and weeping and gnashing of teeth.

For his parents, there is only grief.

They are undone. We are undone. I am undone. This is what American democracy coming apart at the seams looks like. Our frayed, tattered edges are showing. The emperors are the only ones who can’t see it. Where can we begin so that we don’t end up here?

Is anyone else tired of wandering in this wilderness? Surely this land of broken promises isn’t what Dr. King had in mind for us. Hopefully, from the fiery furnace of Ferguson, the floating embers will spark and spread and blaze us a new trail – up out of this madness.

Did you expect me to call for peace? Did you expect me to condemn looting and property damage? Did you expect me to preach at the people about being constructive rather than destructive?

Peaceful protests have been happening for over 100 days. But white folks only really pay attention if they fear they have something to lose. Smoke flares in their nostrils, because then they are confronted with the possibility of charred, burning, white flesh. No more water. The fire next time.

I woke up in black skin this morning. Frustrated, because for the first time in a long time, I felt the weight, the scourge of this skin. Had visions of being able to unzip myself, climb out of myself, and lay aside this weight, but the woman who climbed out was darker still. Since black is beautiful, we are never supposed to admit that we are sometimes tempted to believe what white supremacy tells us to believe about ourselves. But you caught me in a moment of weakness.

Utterly undone. Put out trying to pull it together. Still trying to put together – piece together —all these pieces. Of “evidence.”

Many things are evident this morning.

Our black president says that first and foremost, we must “respect the rule of law.” I watch, as he says this, a split screen of unruly protesters smashing the windows of a police cruiser. It is evident what they think about “the system.”

It, too, is evident what the system thinks about us.

(Do you feel the struggle in these words? The utter inadequacy of them? The struggle to contain and train my rage on the proper (white) people, and not all of them? The challenge of trying to narrate black rage, and black pain, and black fear, and black freedom dreams deferred – again—in hopes that white folks would really understand? The resentment at my failure? The rage at my having to do so in the first place?)

Tupac famously asked “if there was a heaven for a gangsta.” I find myself hoping there’s a hell for white supremacists. But too many of them believe in Jesus. So fire and brimstone in Ferguson and beyond will have to suffice.

The attorneys for Michael Brown’s family appear on the news, admonishing us to be “dignified and disciplined.” I laugh, tears threatening the back of my eyes. I want to ask them if they really believe what they are saying.

There is no dignity in lying dead on scorching, hot pavement for four hours. That is evident. There are no disciplined acts of resistance that will restore dignity to Michael Brown’s life. Only justice can do that. Justice affirms that his life was worth protecting, that Darren Wilson, the person who took it, should be punished.

There will be no justice for Michael Brown, so there will be no surrogate acts of “dignity” from protesters.

Neither should we any longer submit to the disciplinary impulses of the “rule of law.” The rule of law wants to beat into us, through “discipline,” the belief that we –black people — would be animals but for its chastening rod of correction. The law stepped to a podium yesterday, under cover of night, to tell us that it reserves the right to slaughter black men with impunity, that it seeks to coerce through threat of force, our permission to do so.

To ask us to be “dignified and disciplined,” to ask us to “respect the rule of law” in the face of such a mockery of justice is to ask us to affirm the path to our own destruction.

Surely America knows black folks better than that.

Humans can only be sucker punched for so long. Humans can only have the life choked out of us for so long. Humans can only be kicked in the stomach while your foot is on our neck for so long. Humans can only be bullied for so long. One day we stagger to our feet, and you see reflected back to you the results of your own unresolved monstrousness.

I asked for a different beginning, hoping we wouldn’t end up here. But here we are — at the end again. Here we are – black people – yet again faced with the magnitude of our need and the inadequacy of our resources – trying to make ends meet. Trying to begin again.


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To: Cincinatus' Wife
But white folks only really pay attention if they fear they have something to lose. Smoke flares in their nostrils, because then they are confronted with the possibility of charred, burning, white flesh.

Nice idea, except we all know blacks just burn down their own 'hoods. Have at it, ya'll!

21 posted on 11/26/2014 2:56:57 AM PST by Future Snake Eater (CrossFit.com)
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To: Hugin

And from her rant:

“If I have to begin by convincing you that Black Lives Matter,....”

She needs to address that plea to those blacks who are killing other blacks.


22 posted on 11/26/2014 2:57:57 AM PST by Cincinatus' Wife
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To: Cincinatus' Wife
They are undone. We are undone. I am undone. This is what American democracy coming apart at the seams looks like.

This psychosis of the "black community" psyche is fascinating and utterly ridiculous. No amount of medical and forensic evidence can trump the ONLY piece of evidence they need--Michael Brown was black, therefore Wilson needs to go to prison. Period.

And we're the racists?

23 posted on 11/26/2014 3:01:37 AM PST by Future Snake Eater (CrossFit.com)
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

She just wants blacks to be able to commit thuggery at will, and without consequence.


24 posted on 11/26/2014 3:02:53 AM PST by SauronOfMordor (Socialists want YOUR wealth redistributed, never THEIRS!)
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

“If I have to begin by convincing you that Black Lives Matter, we have all already lost, haven’t we?”

Michael Brown is dead because he was unconvinced that Indian and White Lives Matter.


25 posted on 11/26/2014 3:03:09 AM PST by ctdonath2 (You know what, just do it.)
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

I have an idea - rather than bothering about convincing the white man that black lives matter, concentrate on convincing black men to obey the law. That way, law enforcement doesn’t bother them, and voila, they don’t get shot.

Would Michael Brown be alive today were he a law-abiding citizen?


26 posted on 11/26/2014 3:20:35 AM PST by JudyinCanada
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

Us white folk only pay attention to what is right not what is wrong.........
Sorry that is just how it works........


27 posted on 11/26/2014 3:22:51 AM PST by 48th SPS (Not Republican. Not a Democrat. I am an American)
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To: RoosterRedux

Rooster, crow it to the roof tops. You are spot on!


28 posted on 11/26/2014 3:25:18 AM PST by jonrick46 (The opium of Communists: other people's money.)
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

“But white folks only really pay attention if they fear they have something to lose. Smoke flares in their nostrils, because then they are confronted with the possibility of charred, burning, white flesh.” ........ maybe but there will be a pile of bodies around some of us and spent shell casings.


29 posted on 11/26/2014 3:29:17 AM PST by crusadersoldier
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To: Cincinatus' Wife
What an ignorant piece totally devoid of truth......

The problem was Michael Brown and the culture of entitlement and irresponsible behavior he was raised in. He robbed a store, then he took on a cop in the cop's car (6'6 and 280 pound little kid?) and he got shot! Too bad but it's his own fault that he died.

30 posted on 11/26/2014 3:29:49 AM PST by high info voter
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To: Cincinatus' Wife; All
She needs to seriously get a copy of "White Girl Bleed a Lot" and look at a) how the wool has been pulled over the eyes of everyone as to the 'cause' of black discontent ("Oh, it's just a result of poverty." or "It's just kids blowing off steam."); and b) see that it's not the Baptists, or the Amish, or the cholos that are doing all these flash mob/run and loot things that dot the countryside now and then. It's not the Shriners that have created situations at public events that turn them into riots. It's not the Bronies who cause things to be cancelled because LEO can't deal with them the way they need to.

This sad, deluded little troll does so much bad to her people.

31 posted on 11/26/2014 3:30:17 AM PST by Othniel (No, I don't have a plan. And doesn't that scare you to death?)
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To: Cincinatus' Wife
Me. Cooper, you need to ask yourself why you can feel comfortable with working at a university that has a race department which only considers “Africana studies” as worthy enough to formally name.

What kind of sick, twisted womyn are you?

32 posted on 11/26/2014 3:33:37 AM PST by ConservativeMind ("Humane" = "Don't pen up pets or eat meat, but allow infanticide, abortion, and euthanasia.")
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

That article really does tell us what’s wrong with America, and it’s not White racism. It’s non-Whites refusal to face the fact that their problems are self-inflicted.


33 posted on 11/26/2014 3:36:15 AM PST by I want the USA back (Media: completely irresponsible. Complicit in the destruction of this country.)
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To: Cincinatus' Wife
But white folks only really pay attention if they fear they have something to lose.

Well, yeah.

I suspect most "white folks" are actually ashamed to admit that what has become normative from a cultural standpoint for black people is ingrained in American culture and politics.

I also suspect that most "white folks" don't give a flaming sh!t about any racial or ethnic group that seems to have limited itself to two career options: (1) stealing cigars from a convenience store, and (2) Women's and Gender Studies and Africana Studies.

34 posted on 11/26/2014 3:36:54 AM PST by Alberta's Child ("The ship be sinking.")
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

Racist drivel.


35 posted on 11/26/2014 3:37:05 AM PST by servo1969
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

She also needs to convince black parents of the same...Does anyone ANYONE here no of ANYBODY’s child who would behave in such a way toward a cop the way Michael Brown did that day? Do you know ANYONE who would act in such a way?

Yesterday, one of my black students said that “Anyone would have acted the way Michael Brown did toward that cop.”

My jaw dropped and I realized I would be able to teach that student precious little.


36 posted on 11/26/2014 3:37:11 AM PST by MarDav
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To: MarDav

Ugh...”no,” should be “know”

Come on coffee! Do your job!


37 posted on 11/26/2014 3:39:16 AM PST by MarDav
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To: Cincinatus' Wife
There are no disciplined acts of resistance that will restore dignity to Michael Brown’s life.

If Mr. Brown lived a life with even a little dignity he would be alive today.

38 posted on 11/26/2014 3:42:16 AM PST by Fzob (Jesus + anything = nothing, Jesus + nothing = everything)
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To: Cincinatus' Wife

She should try being a little Asian shopkeeper.

39 posted on 11/26/2014 3:42:18 AM PST by Theophilus (Be as prolific as you are pro-life.)
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To: raybbr

I have long realized that reasoning with a Liberal is like roping a cloud. Can’t be done and useless to try. Liberals deal with emotions. Facts have no meaning.

Ghetto Blacks have been conditioned to FEEL that they are entitled to do things to pay for their years of slavery. Even the regime and the jello-spined Congress refer to “entitlements”. Ghetto people FEEL that they are above the law because the white man’s law has held them back.

The FACTS are you are endowed by the Creator with life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. That’s it. Everything else you have to WORK for it.


40 posted on 11/26/2014 3:45:30 AM PST by NTHockey (Rules of engagement #1: Take no prisoners. And to the NSA trolls, FU)
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