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Catholicism made me Protestant
First Things ^ | 9/11/2019 | Onsi A. Kamel

Posted on 09/11/2019 10:52:15 AM PDT by Gamecock

Like all accounts of God’s faithfulness, mine begins with a genealogy. In the late seventeenth century, my mother’s Congregationalist ancestors journeyed to the New World to escape what they saw as England’s deadly compromise with Romanism. Centuries later, ­American Presbyterians converted my father’s great-­grandmother from Coptic ­Orthodoxy to ­Protestantism. Her son became a Presbyterian minister in the Evangelical Coptic Church. By the time my parents were ­living in ­twenty-first-century Illinois, their families’ historic Reformed commitments had been replaced by non-denominational, ­Baptistic ­evangelicalism.

This form of Christianity dominated my Midwestern hometown. My parents taught me to love God, revere the Scriptures, and seek truth through reason. In middle school, my father introduced me to theology, and as a present for my sixteenth birthday he arranged a meeting between me and a Catholic philosopher, Dr. B—. From high school into college, Dr. B— introduced me to Catholic thought and graciously helped me work through my doubts about Christianity. How could a just and loving God not reveal himself equally to everyone? What are we to make of the Bible’s creation stories and flood narrative? Did Calvinism make God the author of evil? My acquaintance with Dr. B— set my intellectual trajectory for several years.

The causes of any conversion (or near conversion) are many and confused. Should I foreground psychological and social factors or my theological reasoning? Certain elements of my attraction to Catholicism were adolescent, like a sixties radical’s attraction to Marx or a contemporary activist’s to intersectionality: I aimed to preserve the core beliefs of my upbringing while fleeing their bourgeois expressions. When I arrived at the University of Chicago, I knew just enough about Calvinism to hold it in ­contempt—which is to say, I knew very little. Reacting against the middle-aged leaders of the inaptly named “Young, Restless, and Reformed Movement,” I sought refuge in that other great ­Western ­theological tradition: ­Roman ­Catholicism.

During my first year of college, I became involved in campus Catholic life. Through the influence of the Catholic student group and the Lumen Christi Institute, which hosts lectures by Catholic intellectuals, my theologically inclined college friends began converting to Catholicism, one after another. These friends were devout, intelligent, and schooled in Christian history. I met faithful and holy Catholic priests—one of whom has valiantly defended the faith for years, drawing punitive opposition from his own religious superiors, as well as the ire of Chicago’s archbishop. This priest was and is to me the very model of a holy, righteous, and courageous man.

I loved Catholicism because Catholics taught me to love the Church. At Lumen Christi events, I heard about saints and mystics, stylites and monastics, desert fathers and late-antique theologians. I was captivated by the holy martyrs, relics, Mary, and the Mass. I found in the Church a spiritual mother and the mother of all the faithful. Through Catholicism, I came into an inheritance: a past of saints and redeemed sinners from all corners of the earth, theologians who illuminated the deep things of God, music and art that summon men to worship God “in the beauty of holiness,” and a tradition to ground me in a world of flux.

Catholicism, which I took to be the Christianity of history, was a world waiting to be discovered. I set about exploring, and I tried to bring others along. I debated tradition with my mother, sola Scriptura with my then fiancée (now wife), and the meaning of the Eucharist with my father. On one occasion, a Reformed professor dispensed with my arguments for transubstantiation in a matter of minutes.

Not long after this, I began to notice discrepancies between Catholic apologists’ map of the tradition and the terrain I encountered in the tradition itself. St. Ambrose’s doctrine of justification sounded a great deal more like Luther’s sola fide than like Trent. St. John Chrysostom’s teaching on repentance and absolution—“Mourn and you annul the sin”—would have been more at home in Geneva than Paris. St. Thomas’s doctrine of predestination, much to my horror, was nearly identical to the Synod of Dordt’s. The Anglican divine Richard Hooker quoted Irenaeus, ­Chrysostom, ­Augustine, and Pope Leo I as he rejected doctrines and practices because they were not grounded in Scripture. He cited Pope Gregory the Great on the “­ungodly” title of universal bishop. The Council of ­Nicaea assumed that Alexandria was on a par with Rome, and Chalcedon declared that the Roman patriarchate was privileged only “because [Rome] was the royal city.” In short, I began to wonder whether the Reformers had a legitimate claim to the Fathers. The Church of Rome could not be straightforwardly identified as catholic.

John Henry Newman became my crucial interlocutor: More than in Ratzinger, Wojtyła, or Congar, in Newman I found a kindred spirit. Here was a man obsessed with the same questions that ate at me, questions of tradition and authority. With Newman, I agonized over conversion. I devoured his Essay on the Development of Christian Doctrine and his Apologia pro Vita Sua. Two of his ideas were pivotal for me: his theory of doctrinal development and his articulation of the problem of private judgment. On these two ideas hung all the claims of Rome.

In retrospect, I see that Newman’s need to construct a theory of doctrinal development tells against Rome’s claims of continuity with the ancient Church. And at the time, though I wished to accept Newman’s proposal that “the early condition, and the evidence, of each doctrine . . . ought consistently to be interpreted by means of that development which was ultimately attained,” I could not. One could only justify such assumptions if one were already committed to Roman Catholic doctrine and Rome’s meaningful continuity with what came before. Without either of these commitments, I simply could not find a plausible reason to speak of “development” rather than “disjuncture,” especially because what came before so often contradicted what followed.

The issue of ecclesiastical authority was trickier for me. I recognized the absurdity of a twenty-year-old presuming to adjudicate claims about the Scriptures and two thousand years of history. Newman’s arguments against private judgment therefore had a prima facie plausibility for me. In his Apologia, Newman argues that man’s rebellion against God introduced an “anarchical condition of things,” leading human thought toward “suicidal excesses.” Hence, the fittingness of a divinely established living voice infallibly proclaiming supernatural truths. In his discourse on “Faith and Private Judgment,” Newman castigates Protestants for refusing to “surrender” reason in matters religious. The implication is that reason is unreliable in matters of revelation. Faith is assent to the incontestable, self-evident truth of God’s revelation, and reasoning becomes an excuse to refuse to bend the knee.

The more I internalized ­Newman’s claims about private judgment, however, the more I descended into skepticism. I could not reliably interpret the Scriptures, history, or God’s Word preached and given in the sacraments. But if I could not do these things, if my reason was unfit in matters religious, how was I to assess Newman’s arguments for Roman Catholicism? Newman himself had once recognized this dilemma, writing in a pre-conversion letter, “We have too great a horror of the principle of private judgment to trust it in so immense a matter as that of changing from one communion to another.” Did he expect me to forfeit the faculty by which I adjudicate truth claims, because that faculty is fallible? My ­conversion would have to be rooted in my private ­judgment—but, because of Rome’s claim of infallibility, conversion would forbid me from exercising that faculty ever again on doctrinal questions.

Finally, the infighting among traditionalist, conservative, and liberal Catholics made plain that Catholics did not gain by their magisterium a clear, living voice of divine authority. They received from the past a set of magisterial documents that had to be weighed and interpreted, often over against living prelates. The ­magisterium of prior ages only multiplied the texts one had to interpret for oneself, for living bishops, it turns out, are as bad at reading as the rest of us.

But I did not remain a Protestant merely because I could not become a Catholic. While I was discovering that Roman Catholicism could not be straightforwardly identified with the catholicism of the first six centuries (nor, in certain respects, with that of the seventh century through the twelfth), and as I was wrestling with Newman, I finally began reading the Reformers. What I found shocked me. Catholicism had, by this time, reoriented my theological concerns around the concerns of the Church catholic. My assumptions, and the issues that animated me, were those of the Church of history. My evangelical upbringing had led me to believe that Protestantism entailed the rejection of these concerns. But this notion exploded upon contact with the Protestantism of history.

Martin Luther, John Calvin, Richard Hooker, Herman Bavinck, Karl Barth—they wrestled with the concerns of the Church catholic and provided answers to the questions Catholicism had taught me to pose. Richard Hooker interpreted the Church’s traditions; Calvin followed Luther’s Augustinianism, proclaimed the visible Church the mother of the faithful, and claimed for the Reformation the Church’s exegetical tradition; Barth convinced me that God’s Word could speak, certainly and surely, from beyond all created realities, to me.

Catholicism had taught me to think like a Protestant, because, as it turned out, the Reformers had thought like catholics. Like their pope-aligned opponents, they had asked questions about justification, the authority of tradition, the mode of Christ’s self-gift in the Eucharist, the nature of apostolic succession, and the Church’s wielding of the keys. Like their opponents, Protestants had appealed to Scripture and tradition. In time, I came to find their answers not only plausible, but more faithful to Scripture than the Catholic answers, and at least as well-represented in the traditions of the Church.

The Protestants did more than out-catholic the Catholics. They also spoke to the deepest needs of sinful souls. I will never forget the moment when, like Luther five hundred years earlier, I discovered justification by faith alone through union with Christ. I was sitting in my dorm room by myself. I had been assigned Luther’s Explanations of the Ninety-Five ­Theses, and I expected to find it facile. A year or two prior, I had decided that Trent was right about justification: It was entirely a gift of grace consisting of the gradual perfecting of the soul by faith and works—God instigating and me cooperating. For years, I had attempted to live out this model of justification. I had gone to Mass regularly, prayed the rosary with friends, fasted frequently, read the Scriptures daily, prayed earnestly, and sought advice from spiritual directors. I had begun this arduous cooperation with God’s grace full of hope; by the time I sat in that dorm room alone, I was distraught and demoralized. I had learned just how wretched a sinner I was: No good work was unsullied by pride, no repentance unaccompanied by expectations of future sin, no love free from selfishness.

In this state, I picked up my copy of that arch-heretic Luther and read his explanation of Thesis 37: “Any true Christian, whether living or dead, participates in all the blessings of Christ and the church; and this is granted him by God, even without indulgence letters.” With these words, Luther transformed my understanding of justification: Every Christian possesses Christ, and to possess Christ is to possess all of Christ’s righteousness, life, and merits. Christ had joined me to himself.

I had “put on Christ” in baptism and, by faith through the work of the Spirit, all things were mine, and I was Christ’s, and Christ was God’s (Gal. 3:27; 1 Cor. 3:21–23). His was not an uncertain mercy; his was not a grace of parts, which one hoped would become a whole; his was not a salvation to be attained, as though it were not already also a present possession. At that moment, the joy of my salvation poured into my soul. I wept and showed forth God’s praise. I had finally discovered the true ground and power of Protestantism: “My beloved is mine, and I am his” (Song 2:16).

Rome had brought me to ­Reformation.


TOPICS: Catholic; Evangelical Christian; General Discusssion; Mainline Protestant
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To: metmom

It could not be stated any clearer or simpler.
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Really? Then why are there a multitude of differing and in some cases contradictory understandings of the meaning of various passages of Scripture some of which are critical to the correct formation of Christian doctrine?


721 posted on 09/15/2019 8:20:55 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat; Iscool
If that is so why are there multiple and often contradictory interpretations of so many of the key Scriptures upon which primary Christian doctrines are based?

Because Roman Catholicism *interprets* Scripture to make it mean something it does not say. That's the only reason to *interpret* something.

We just read what it says and take it face value and believe it.

And there is precious little variation in doctrine and theology amongst Bible believing churches.

The ones that have the biggest differences rely on other things besides Scripture or do not accept Scripture as true but rather figurative or not literal and factual.

Kind of like mainline Protestant denominations and Catholicism.

722 posted on 09/15/2019 8:21:29 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
Really? Then why are there a multitude of differing and in some cases contradictory understandings of the meaning of various passages of Scripture some of which are critical to the correct formation of Christian doctrine?

Like what? Give us specific examples.

No one can answer a vague charge that's nothing more than an accusation.

Tell us what you specifically have in mind.

723 posted on 09/15/2019 8:26:55 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat; Elsie
No, Elsie, if it were not for faith in God’s Word as revealed in the Holy Scriptures I would not be trying to conform my life to His teachings and his commandments.

Every genuine born-again believer in Jesus Christ is being conformed in life to be like Christ and motivated to follow His teachings and commandments. The only difference is we do this not to BE saved but because we ARE saved. Because it is God who is working in us, enabling us both to desire and to work out His good purpose. Our works are the evidence of salvific faith and not the cause of our salvation.

724 posted on 09/15/2019 8:37:03 PM PDT by boatbums (semper reformanda secundum verbum dei)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
Okay, so you think the words of Jesus are a strawman.

So now you’re claiming to be Jesus? I suspected you might be possessed, but that’s really over the top!

Call no man father.

725 posted on 09/15/2019 8:40:33 PM PDT by Elsie (Heck is where people, who don't believe in Gosh, think they are not going...)
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To: metmom

I guess we can add that to the *Call no man father* problem Catholics have, that of dismissing verses spoken by Jesus that they don’t like.
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Better check your Concordance!


726 posted on 09/15/2019 8:42:05 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
Do yourself a spiritual service and read Matthew 7:21 a few dozen times until its teaching becomes clear to you!

Do yourself a spiritual service and read Matthew 23:9 a few dozen times until its teaching becomes clear to you!

727 posted on 09/15/2019 8:42:51 PM PDT by Elsie (Heck is where people, who don't believe in Gosh, think they are not going...)
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To: boatbums

Our works are the evidence of salvific faith and not the cause of our salvation.
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Okay, if that’s what makes you happy, have at it!


728 posted on 09/15/2019 8:46:34 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: terycarl; metmom
Salvation is about Jesus being the substitutionary sacrifice for our sins, Him taking the punishment for our sins so that we don't have to.

Osama Bin Laden will be glad to hear that...…..sigh

You don't believe that???

729 posted on 09/15/2019 8:51:43 PM PDT by Iscool
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
Supposedly so, but than why is it that there are literally hundreds of divergent and conflicting understandings which have resulted in literally hundreds of different religious denominations and sects each of which claims to have the “correct” understanding of the Scriptures?

Only hundreds?

I've seen 30,000; 50,000 and even 80,000 bandied about by CAtholics here on FR.

730 posted on 09/15/2019 8:54:13 PM PDT by Elsie (Heck is where people, who don't believe in Gosh, think they are not going...)
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To: metmom

And there is precious little variation in doctrine and theology amongst Bible believing churches.
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Yeah, right. That’s why there are dozens of sects teaching all manner of heresy and contradictions unique to their own congregations. Virtually every passage of Scripture is interpreted in a multitude of different ways only ONE of which can actually be true. But which one, that’s always the unanswerable question, isn’t it?


731 posted on 09/15/2019 8:56:18 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: Mark17

Yes, praise God for His wonderful gift of eternal life! I think when that is really understood, the whole motivation for obedience is transformed. It ceases being out of fear of hellfire and becomes out of gratitude and love for His boundless mercy and grace. God is glorified when His children live in holiness as He works within each one to conform us to be like Jesus.


732 posted on 09/15/2019 9:06:27 PM PDT by boatbums (semper reformanda secundum verbum dei)
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To: metmom

If you’re going to want to try to prove works save, you’re going to have to find a different verse to misapply.
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I have no desire to prove works save because it’s contrary to orthodox Christian doctrine.

It wasn’t them simply calling Jesus Lord that caused them to think they were followers of His, but their works that they claimed they did in His name.
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Really? Can you refer me to a passage of Scripture that specifically makes that statement in reference to Matt 7:21?
If not, that statement is nothing more than conjecture on your part isn’t it?


733 posted on 09/15/2019 9:06:31 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: MHGinTN

We can see why God hates human pride more than any other sin!


734 posted on 09/15/2019 9:08:05 PM PDT by boatbums (semper reformanda secundum verbum dei)
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To: boatbums

The pride we are witnessing on this thread is so dark in the soul that God’s voice is being ignored or called a strawman, or worse. He will give them up to their unbelief at this rate. Using Jesus to insult someone is over the top, but typical of Catholics convinced they are striving successful to obtain salvation, as they plunge downward, ever downward.


735 posted on 09/15/2019 9:14:29 PM PDT by MHGinTN (A dispensation perspective is a powerful tool for discernment)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
Our works are the evidence of salvific faith and not the cause of our salvation.
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Okay, if that’s what makes you happy, have at it!

It's certainly what makes God happy! It is also what James 2 is trying to communicate, as well. What's holding you back from acknowledging this truth?

736 posted on 09/15/2019 9:17:30 PM PDT by boatbums (semper reformanda secundum verbum dei)
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To: Elsie

Only hundreds?

I’ve seen 30,000; 50,000 and even 80,000 bandied about by CAtholics here on FR.
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LOL! Well, regardless of the actual number the fact is that any more than ONE is one too many, isn’t it? I mean if “truth” is indivisible, than so is right doctrine which would seem to require only one church to promulgate it!


737 posted on 09/15/2019 9:19:23 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
Supposedly so, but than why is it that there are literally hundreds of divergent and conflicting understandings which have resulted in literally hundreds of different religious denominations and sects each of which claims to have the “correct” understanding of the Scriptures?

There are not hundreds but unlike you most if not all know what the will of the Father is:

Joh 6:40  And this is the will of him that sent me, that every one which seeth the Son, and believeth on him, may have everlasting life: and I will raise him up at the last day. 

Believe and you’ll be saved.
Not so. Revelation clearly tells us that even the Devil “believes”

Not so??? And by the way that's not in Revelation...

Luk_8:12  Those by the way side are they that hear; then cometh the devil, and taketh away the word out of their hearts, lest they should believe and be saved.

Act 16:30  And brought them out, and said, Sirs, what must I do to be saved? 
Act 16:31  And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house. 

738 posted on 09/15/2019 9:20:17 PM PDT by Iscool
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
One finds that the scriptures explain it as the scriptures are searched, comparing scripture with scripture

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If that is so why are there multiple and often contradictory interpretations of so many of the key Scriptures upon which primary Christian doctrines are based?

A couple of answers for that...

Most Christians don't spend a lot of time in the Bible...They generally know plenty of key scripture but they are not teachers of the scripture but those who follow the teachers...

In my experience I find that many teachers of the scriptures either don't believe everything they read or they don't like what they read and they change it to suit them...This results in church splits and sometimes new denominations are formed...

We do not have the capacity to understand the scriptures...They are spiritually discerned...God provides the understanding as long as we supply the belief...No one gets the deep things of scripture until they get the basics, the milk...If God gives you some milk and you don't like it, you're done...God will show you no more...And when that happens the man will go on relying on his own interpretation and another denomination is formed...

But the final answer is that one has to reconcile ALL of the scriptures...If you fine a scripture that shows salvation is by faith alone and another that shows works are involved, you can't pick one over another...You have to believe them both and trust that God will show you how they are different...

And then, there are scriptures that are meant for none of us...They are time sensitive...And people sensitive...They are not written to the church or for the church...This is true for so much of the Old Testament...And yet, some will use those scriptures to create doctrine for this age and there goes another denomination...

739 posted on 09/15/2019 9:40:23 PM PDT by Iscool
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To: Iscool; Elsie

Well stated. ... Elsie, catch that last paragraph. It is stated so much clearer than my freepmail to you.


740 posted on 09/15/2019 10:08:15 PM PDT by MHGinTN (A dispensation perspective is a powerful tool for discernment)
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