[Ragtime Cowgirl]

Ernest apologizes in advance for perhaps not being able to answer everyone.

Please ping your lists, prayer warriors. Thank you.

[strela]

Ernest, you and your wife are in my prayers. May God quickly relieve her pain and yours.

[potlatch]

May God grant her peace, I will pray for them both.

[Atticus]

Ernest and Kathy have my prayers.

[Diver Dave]

Prayers for Kathy and Ernest.

[lowbridge]

Prayers on the way for Ernest and his Wife.

[afraidfortherepublic]

I shall remember you and your wife in my prayers. I know how hard it is to watch someone decline. My mother in law died of stomach cancer the first year we were married and I still remember the pain she suffered and the long days and nights sitting at her bedside. I worked in the hospital where she died, and I think I was the last to see her alive because I ate my lunch in her room. She didn't wake up and an hour later she was gone. Your wife is lucky to have someone love her and stay with her to the end. Be strong, and God be with you both as she flies home to Jesus raised on the wings of eagles.

[gonzo]

Prayers along, sweetie..........FRegards

[Wait4Truth]

This is so very sad. Prayers and God's grace to both. This dear lady needs the Lord's peace and she will soon have it. God bless.

[Quix]

Lord God,

[PS at the front TO: Ernest_at_the_Beach: I don't know how much of this fits. It's just what came out. If it fits and draws you closer to God--Praise Him. Whatever doesn't, let slip into the trash without any bother about it at all, please]

You declared that by Jesus' stripes we WERE HEALED. Yet, so far, you clearly do not manifest the healing of everyone--even everyone with great faith. Yet, it is clearly possible for you to do so at this late date. And, Lord, it would be so wonderful to have her whole, 100% healed for her family and other loved ones. If our vote counts, in this, Lord, then we certainly vote energetically for that. So be it, in Jesus' Name.

Yet, Lord, it sounds and feels sadly in my gut that it is to be otherwise. We don't know your reasons well or completely, if at all. And, we know that this is boot camp wherein you are training and refining us that we might BEAR A GREATER WEIGHT OF GLORY THROUGH ALL ETERNITY. And how can we encourage you to avoid granting her the MERCY of a process that produces in and for her greater glory, authority, power than we can currently conceive of.

But Lord, sometimes, I want to scream--I won't care that much about greater Glory, healing, power, authority THEN--I care about the PAIN now! And as I imagine screaming on some mountain top about the shredding angst and pain of it all, I realize that I'm ignorant and don't know my left hand from my right.

But Lord, you are merciful--You are paragon MERCY. And perhaps this is yet another SEVERE MERCY as the graphic book so well portrayed. But it doesn't FEEL like a mercy, Lord.

OK, OK. Don't go by our feelings, go by faith--faith in Your altogether goodness, in your Love, in Your peace. And that's all well and good Lord, until you see someone who is part and parcel of the fabric of your being in atom wrenching pain beyond seeming limit and beyond sane bearing . . .

. . . . Faith that you do know the end from the beginning; that you do all things well; that you ONLY DO GOOD to those who Love you.

But Lord, this good seems wrapped in incredibly contrary wrapping paper. And it's bleeding all over my sanity, all over my emotions, all over everything I ever thought I knew about life and marriage and death and Love and righteousness. And I need you Lord. But more, my wife needs you, Lord.

At least hold her hand in your awesome hand. Hold her heart close to your heart. Hold her painful body close to your breast. You said you bore our sorrows, Lord. Can I see some evidence of you bearing her sorrows more demonstrably NOW?????!!!!

I say I'd take her pain for her, Lord. And so much of me would so easily. You gave me that much Love for her, Lord. But other big parts of me shudder at the thought. I'm terrrified to even view her pain and I can't imagine bearing 1/10th of it myself.

Lord God, we have made our peace in about all the ways we know how to. We have said good bye's in about all the ways we can and know how to. We have made all the fitting horrendous 'arrangements.'

Is another microsecond of pain really necessary, Lord? Please, take her on Home. Let her graduate from this tortured terrain. Let her ascend speedily to your eagerly waiting arms, to her Heavenly reward and all the glories, joys and pleasures Heaven can offer. Make it happen speedily, Lord, in Jesus' Name.

Dear One, we release you. We salute you. We already miss you. We miss your wholeness, your peace, your joys. But we will not hold you back from Heaven's joys any longer. We commend you into God's Rest. We commend you into your Heavenly roles. We commend you to wholeness and Joys Unspeakable. We release you from this dimension, this sphere. We release you from our fleshly and earthly family to God's eternal family and to His and our eternal Love more fully than you could ever experience here.

You have our peace and our blessing to let go and arise. You can have confidence that God's Peace will surpass even our understanding and sustain us until we meet on that golden shore, across The Jordan, just inside the Eastern Gate. God's speed to you most special, most precious, most bestest wife and mother. Go in His will. Pray there for us and remember that we daily will look forward to seeing you again probably sooner than any of us think.

Go in Peace. Go in Peace. Go in Peace. Go speedily in His Peace and experience instantly His Eternal Perfection and Wholeness--in Jesus' Name. Amen.

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[enormous sigh]

[flutters]

Ernest, I'm so sorry. Prayers sent for you and your family.

[shadowman99]

I hope peace comes soon for your wife and family. Be well.

[Burkeman1]

My mother was diagnosed with Myasitis and Scerla Derma two months ago (very rare to have either one and even more to have both.) To make a long story short she was put in intensive care two days ago. She also has an unknown infection that is making all of her vital signs eratic. Yesterday we were told she is as sick as a person can be and could pass away within hours or a day. She was stable enough for some us to stagger the hospital watch tonight. There are some very faint glimmers of hope- but we have been left with no illusions by the doctors. This site has allowed me to forget everything, even for the brief times I have been able to post in the last 48 hours.

I would appreciate any prayers offered for my mother- Mary Ann.

[Exit148]

May the good Lord bless Earnest and Kathy.

Such a difficult time. May their closeness comfort them as they approach the bridge to heaven.

[Burkeman1]

And hang in there Ernest_At_The_Beach. There is always hope. I will pray for your wife tonight.

[sonsofliberty2000]

I'm very sorry to here of this happening. I just pray that God will ease her pain in these times and that He will comfort both of you.

God Bless You,
Nick

[Doc On The Bay]

AW, Earnest, I am so sorry.

A Dear friend of mine called to say, "Goodby," tonight; he, too, will be gone in days.

He told me that he is looking forward to greeting us all, "on the Other Side."

But we will miss him so--.

I told him that Only the Miserable Bastards last "beyond their Time,"--because they are being Mercifully Given a Chance to Correct their F+ck-Ups.

He Laughed, & asked me to look out for his Loved Ones,-- as if he had to ask.

There must be SOME REASON why those of us "left behind" are here. I can only believe that there is Something we have to do before we rejoin the "Good Ones Who Got It Right."

So Those of us "left behind" bear the pain of our loss & "Soldier On," I Guess, because we have some "appointed task" we must complete. (at least that's how I have come to understand the premature loss of "one of the Good Ones!")

Doc

[missyme]

May G-D have Mercy and Christ ease your pain.

God Bless you and your family. May your precious wife find peace for eternity in G-D's loving hands.

[Soaring Feather]

Prayers up for Ernest's wife and the family.

[Scott from the Left Coast]

Ernest, friend, so sorry to hear this...prayers for your wife's health.

[Dolphy]

I'm so sorry, Ernest. You are both in my prayers.