Root Causes, Homosexual Consequences

People Can Change ^ | 2004

[scripter]

They say opposites attract.

That maxim, in the very simplest of terms, explains much about our former homosexual condition and how we were able to uncover the underlying problems creating it.

As long as we felt that men were the opposite from us, while we identified with women as our sisters, we remained attracted to our opposite -- the mysterious, unknown masculine. To us, it often felt like men were the opposite sex, so being sexually attracted to them felt natural. Initially, at least, we didn't feel homosexual so much as we felt genderless and, lacking sufficient maleness within ourselves, attracted to that which we felt would make us feel masculine and whole.

Every man has a masculine drive. In our case, that drive inadvertently became sexualized. But we also found it could become desexualized as we fulfilled that masculine drive in more emotionally grounded ways.

We discovered the path to healing as we came to understand that, at least in our case, our homosexual feelings were not the problem but were actually symptoms of deeper, underlying problems and long-buried pain that usually had little or nothing to do with erotic desire. Rather, they had to do with our self-identity, self-esteem (especially our "gender esteem"), relationships and spiritual life. Once we discovered and healed the underlying pain, the symptoms of homosexuality began to take care of themselves.

Survey on Root Causes

In 2004, People Can Change surveyed the members of its online support groups to determine what they perceived to have been the most significant causes of their developing homosexual feelings in their own lives. We asked about 25 possible factors -- everything from biology to personal choice. More than 200 men responded.

To view the survey summary, click here.

(Keep in mind that this is not a survey of the beliefs of the general "gay" population -- those who have accepted a gay identity and are happy in that life. Rather, it is a survey of the beliefs of those who are seeking to overcome or minimize homosexual desires. Gays may or may not answer these questions differently.)

1. Father-son relationship problems: In the survey, 97% said problems in the father-son relationship while they were growing up contributed to their developing same-sex attractions (SSA) -- and men usually identified it as one of the three most significant factors. (See especially page 6 of the survey.)

• It seems very rare for a man who struggles with homosexuality to feel that he was sufficiently loved, affirmed and mentored by his father growing up, or that he identified with his father as a male role model. Oftentimes the father-son relationship is marked by either actual or perceived abandonment, extended absence, hostility or disinterest (a form of abandonment).
  
  Like all human experience, this is not universal, and sometimes the father-son relationship doesn't seem to have been a problem. Rather, the relationship with brothers or male peers or male abusers may have created deep wounding. Whatever the source of the estrangement, it is a common experience for many of us to have felt a deep longing to be held, to be loved by a father figure, to be mentored into the world of men and to have our masculine natures affirmed by other men.

2. Conflict with male peers: The same percentage of men who said father-son problems contributed to their SSA -- 97% -- also said problems in their male-peer relationships contributed. And half said it was one of the "top three" factors. (See especially page 7 of the survey.)

• Somehow, even as boys or young teenagers, we felt like we were never "man enough." We felt like we didn't live up to the masculine ideal. We saw ourselves as too fat or too skinny, too short or too awkward, not athletic enough or tough or strong or good-looking enough -- or whatever other qualities we admired in other males but judged to be lacking in ourselves. It was more than low self-esteem, it was low gender esteem -- a deficiency in our core sense of gender upon which our whole self image is built. Other males just seemed naturally masculine, but masculinity never came naturally to us. We aspired to it but were mystified by how to achieve it. Among other males, we felt different and lonely.

  Feeling deficient as males, we pined to be accepted and affirmed by others, especially those whose masculinity we admired most. We began to idolize the qualities in other males that we judged to be lacking in ourselves. Idolizing them widened the gulf we imagined between ourselves and so-called "real men." In idolizing them, we increased our sense of our own masculine deficiency.

  At the same time that we idolized certain male traits or maleness generally, many of us came to fear other boys and men. Born with unusually sensitive and gentle personalities, we found it was easy for many of us to feel different from and rejected by our more rough-and-tumble peers growing up. We came to fear their taunts and felt like we could never belong. Many of us feared the sports field and felt like we could never compete. Many of us felt rejected by our fathers and feared that we could never measure up or would never really matter to them.

  So where did this leave us, as males ourselves? It left us in a Neverland of gender confusion, not fully masculine but not really feminine either. We had disassociated not just from individual men we feared would hurt us, but from the entire heterosexual male world. Some of us even detached from our very masculinity as something shameful and inferior.

3. Mother-son relationships (and the "smothering mother" syndrome): Nine out of 10 survey respondents said aspects of their relationships with their mothers contributed to their SSA. (See especially page 8 of the survey.)

• Even as we perceived our fathers as abandoning, ignoring or being hostile toward us, it was a common experience for us to over-identify with or become overly dependent on our mothers. Oftentimes, we never fully cut the "apron strings" that attached our identity to hers. Mom often became our confidant and mentor instead of Dad. But Mom could never show us how to act and think like a man. So it was common for us to view maleness from a woman's perspective instead of a man's. We inadvertently adopted a woman's view of the world. The gulf between us and the world of men was widened and reinforced.

  Feeling alienated from the male world, we often found comfort in female companionship. Some of us labeled women and femininity as superior to men and masculinity because we perceived females as more sensitive, accepting and loving. They felt "safer" to be with and to expose our painful emotions to. Instead of ridiculing our sensitive natures, they appreciated them. They didn't expect us to prove we were "man enough," even while we were still just boys. Many of us learned to identify with women and girls as our sisters, our buddies and, inadvertently, even our role models. Our sense of girls as the "same sex" and boys as the "opposite" sex was reinforced.

4. Sexual abuse: 48% of respondents said that, as children or youth, they had been sexually abused by an older or more powerful person. Usually it was by a male, and in those cases, 96% considered the abuse to have contributed to their developing SSA feelings. (See especially pages 8 and 9 of the survey.)

5. Other sexual experiences: 93% said they had had other sexual experiences -- including pornography, sexual fantasy and sex play with other boys -- as children or youth, and of those who did, 93% said they believed these experiences contributed to their SSA feelings. (See especially page 9 of the survey.)

6. Personality traits: 87% said they believed their personality traits were a contributing factor. (See especially page 10 of the survey.)

• A great many of us were born with or developed an innate sensitivity and emotional intensity that we learned could be both a blessing and a curse. On the one hand, our sensitivity caused us to be more loving, gentle, kind and oftentimes spiritually inclined than average.

  On the other hand, these were some of the very traits that caused our more rough-and-tumble male peers to taunt us, girls to welcome us into their inner circles, moms to hold onto us more protectively, and dads to distance themselves from us. Perhaps even more problematic, it created within us a thin-skinned susceptibility to feeling hurt and rejected, thus magnifying many times over whatever actual rejection and offense we might have received at the hands of others. Our perception became our reality.

Homosexual Consequences

These and other hurts were oftentimes the problems buried below the surface. Complex, interwoven and painful, they drove us to homosexual relationships in an attempt to find healing. But we found that, for us, acting on these homosexual desires actually worsened rather than lessened the underlying problems. Homosexuality, for us, wasn't the solution; it was an escape from solving the real problems that had caused the symptoms to begin with.

Time alone could never really heal these kinds of deep wounds without our going back to face them, acknowledge them, grieve them, release our legitimate anger over them, take steps to repair the damage they had caused us (to the extent we could), and finally, to forgive and move on.

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[mabelkitty]

It was very eye-opening.
I would have to say #4 is much higher, but the shame and fear probably continues to keep people from dealing with it. #4 could be overcome with a strong family unit, so that makes it twice as bad.
I pray for these folks who have such inner turmoil.
They aren't to be shunned - they are to be loved and helped.

[mabelkitty]

Don't forget, grandfathers, uncles, or your brother-in-law could make for wonderful role models, as well.

I'm sorry for your loss, so please don't burden yourself. You have wonderful stories to share with him about his dad, and that may be who he will aspire to be!

[Clint N. Suhks]

This is excellent scrip, where did you find this? NARTH, Exodus?

[knak]

My thoughts exactly, he is nine and remembers him well. So trying to keep him as alive as possible for him. Thanks.

[Nowhere Man]

ping.

[scripter]

I found the website People Can Change referenced in a book, perhaps A Parent's Guide to Preventing Homosexuality, and I've been pouring over their site ever since.

Last year I decided to concentrate more on the ex-gay/former homosexual aspect of the issue, as the very existence of ex-gays tends to help folks better focus on the real issues.

[Tench_Coxe]

"What if I'd attended college and tried to fit in by trying lesbian sex (which is really a form of mutual masturbation that is probably quite pleasurable and not painful like sex with men can be)."

I suspect there is something to that. I've noticed that excessive narcissism seems to be prevalent in the gay community, although it tends to be very much on the surface without a lot of introspection.
I suspect this is overcompensation for feelings of inferiority or inadequacy, and a lot of the behavior is an unhealthy reinforcement mechanism to compensate.

[Clint N. Suhks]

the very existence of ex-gays tends to help folks better focus on the real issues.

You're right, that's the silver bullet. As much as I try to research the science end of the equation, it's all null and void if the ex-gay movement gets legs in the MSM. It'll take dragging the pro-sodomy activists out the door by their heels.

[riri]

This is fascinating. I have some thoughts.

I have a nephew and a BIL who would, according to this, be very at risk for homosexuality.

My nephew, raised without a male figure until he was five and then by a step father he pretty much despised and could not relate to. Though, the step father was a decent man. My sister and myself really raised him. And, yes we smothered and did coddle him.

Though, he has been married and had children, I often have wondered if he had some issues about his sexuality when he was younger. He went through some difficult periods and I often wonder if he went to the other side for material needs. If that makes sense.

Now, my brother in law was raised very similarly. No father figure to speak of. Smothering mother. BUT, he did have my husband as a role model and to keep his butt in line. Strangley, my husband (ten years older) did have the father around during most of HIS youth and had him as more of a role model.

So, I would never even consider my BIL going over to the dark side. EVER. I think having the older brother decreased his vulnerability.

Intersting article, I think there is alot of truth there.

[EdReform]

BTTT

[DirtyHarryY2K]

If same-sex attraction really is a result of environment and confusion as we think it is, there really is no such thing as signs of homosexuality.

BTTT

[worldclass]

I've heard this guy speak a few times. As a former homosexual is a MUST for this topic:

http://www.sbministries.org/

and

http://stephenbennett.blogspot.com/

[EdReform]

BTTT

[scripter]

Over 40 testimonials of ex-gays.

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Mike Haley's Great Escape from homosexuality.

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Confession from a former homosexual

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Eagles Wings Testimonials

[my_pointy_head_is_sharp]

...it was a common experience for us to over-identify with or become overly dependent on our mothers. ... Mom often became our confidant and mentor instead of Dad. But Mom could never show us how to act and think like a man. So it was common for us to view maleness from a woman's perspective instead of a man's. We inadvertently adopted a woman's view of the world.

That makes a lot of sense.

...as children or youth, they had been sexually abused by an older or more powerful person. Usually it was by a male, and in those cases, 96% considered the abuse to have contributed to their developing SSA feelings.

But this makes NO sense. Why would they be attracted to the gender that abused them? You'd think it would be the opposite.

[little jeremiah]

Because molestation of boys often involves sexual pleasure for them as well. It's molestation/seduction.

It's a lot easier for boys to experience sexual pleasure even while being molested than girls. It's crude, but it's the nature of the beast.