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Confessions of an Abortion Doctor
Boston Magazine ^ | December 2004 | (As told to) Cheryl Alkon

Posted on 01/03/2005 6:54:54 AM PST by madprof98

Ten years after the bloody Brookline clinic attacks, one doctor explains why she still performs abortions.

Ten years ago this month, John Salvi sprayed bullets into two Brookline abortion clinics, killing two people and wounding five. Since then, the number of doctors willing to perform abortions has dwindled, increasing the workload for those remaining. One local obstetrician and gynecologist, whose clinic asked that she withhold her name for safety reasons, now performs as many as 10 abortions a day, twice a week.

One morning years ago, when I was working as a resident, a nurse brought me in to talk to a pregnant girl. When I walked into the room, there was this child -- an 11-year-old. She had come in for a procedure, and it soon became obvious that she had no understanding of sex -- she didn't really understand that she'd even had it, or that it had any connection to her pregnancy. We literally had to teach this girl about what it means to have sex -- about STDS, abstinence, and pregnancy. I remember thinking: In a world where people don't want kids to learn about these things, how can you not give them the choice to terminate a pregnancy? Even if she had chosen to continue the pregnancy and opt for adoption, what would that have done to her own childhood? How can we not provide a child with any education about sex, then force her to become a parent long before she's ready?

When I started medical school in upstate New York, I didn't want to do terminations of pregnancies at all. My mom is Catholic and my dad is Jewish, and the church we went to had a pretty strong stance on it: The message I got was that abortion was wrong. As a first-year medical student, I took an ethics class and we talked about abortion. I wrote a paper about how I believed in the right, but would never perform an abortion myself, because it was against the way I was brought up.

That all changed later on, when I had a crush on this guy who was a leader of Medical Students for Choice. At the time, I thought abortion was strictly a women's issue. But he convinced me that abortion is a civil rights issue, that if you have injustice for some members of your population, your whole population has injustice. I remember thinking that was really profound. Still, I told him that I didn't feel comfortable doing abortions, but I was pro-choice. So he gave me these two films to watch, and they changed my life. They were about different providers and patients, men and women, who talked about what life was like before abortion was legal. They really changed my views -- I suddenly thought, Yeah, I have to do that.

Today, though, there are so few providers who will perform terminations that the people who do agree to provide them end up taking the bulk of procedures. It can be hard. I'm a generalist -- I like a lot of different things about being an OB-GYN. But because sometimes I'm the only person around, I end up doing a lot of terminations.

Doing them over and over and over again can be really taxing. All of us who provide abortions believe in what we're doing and think it's a good thing and a right that needs to be available. But when you're in the clinic and in that group of people doing it, it can be tough, and you can get really tired. I don't think it'll ever make me stop doing terminations, but it can move people to tears. And it's not just me -- it extends to the nurses and the people who help us in the operating room. It's not unusual that you'll have only a couple of nurses who will help you out with it. There are nurses that will say, "No, I won't help you take care of this patient." I even know people who feel they can't tell their families what they do; their families think they work on labor and delivery.

It really frustrates me that there are so few providers. I've asked my friends who are doctors if they do abortions. Some women I knew were providers in residency, but they don't provide now because their current medical practice doesn't. It's upsetting that some friends don't fight harder to provide it. But I've also had friends who've stepped up and said, "I'm going to do medical abortions; would you teach me how?"

As providers, we give all options, including adoption and carrying the child to term. I always ask a patient "Are you sure about this?" I've had people change their minds, which is totally okay. We want that. Or sometimes we'll advise them that they have more time to decide what to do. I would feel worse terminating a wanted child than not being able to terminate at all. It's very important that a woman knows what she wants to do either way. I have no problem with a woman walking out. I always find those are good days -- when a woman walks out and says, "No, I'm keeping it."

I have the utmost respect for life; I appreciate that life starts early in the womb, but also believe that I'm ending it for good reasons. Often I'm saving the woman, or I'm improving the lives of the other children in the family. I also believe that women have a life they have to consider. If a woman is working full-time, has one child already, and is barely getting by, having another child that would financially push her to go on public assistance is going to lessen the quality of her life. And it's also an issue for the child, if it would not have had a good life. Life's hard enough when you're wanted and everything's prepared for. So yes, I end life, but even when it's hard, it's for a good reason.

Because of all the threats these days, doctors who have been doing this longer than I have are a lot more hesitant about things that I don't even usually think about. Things like, "Who is sponsoring this conference I've been invited to? Did this interview request come from a referral I trust?" They warn me to be more leery. I wasn't in Boston 10 years ago, during the Salvi shootings, but I recently talked with someone who had been around at that time, and she told me the incident essentially put her whole career on hold. That scares me.

What happens if something like that occurs again? Would I still be able to show up for work? It's unfair and depressing. I'm older now, but there was a time when I was going to sacrifice everything for the cause. But would I really sacrifice the well-being of my family? There are providers who have been shot at, who have been shot and still show up for work and still do their job, which is amazing.

Maybe I live in an idealistic world, but I believe in people being good and in trying to understand their opinion. I don't think I'm going to be easily swayed. Obviously, the threat of violence is something that's always in the back of my mind, that it could happen, but I feel like I'm doing something so right. How could people think it's wrong?


TOPICS: Culture/Society
KEYWORDS: abortionismean; abortionists; easilyswayed; possessedperson; sanctity
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To: Darksheare
jdell23 showing as banned or suspended.

sniff, sniff, I guess I'll get over it,,,someday....

OK, I'm better now.

161 posted on 01/12/2005 12:09:34 PM PST by Protagoras (Real conservatives do not advocate government force to attain societal goals)
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To: Darksheare; jdell23
I just checked again. Where ja go, jdell23??

Bye!

He's dead, Jim!


162 posted on 01/12/2005 12:13:35 PM PST by MeekOneGOP (There is only one GOOD 'RAT: one that has been voted OUT of POWER !! Straight ticket GOP!)
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To: Calpernia; Tax-chick

There are a few lovely mannered young 'uns in my area who are 12 and can pass for 18 or 19, and that is their 'thing' to do on the weekend.

Needless to say, the local men are beginning to learn (slowly) to steer clear unless she can provide pic ID with date of birth.

These lovely shining examples of local young ladyhood like to find older men to buy them drinks.
A few guys went to jail for statutory as well.
What a messed up situation that is.
Glad I'm not dating anymore.


163 posted on 01/12/2005 12:14:00 PM PST by Darksheare (Taglines may or may not reflect reality depending upon the humor of their owner. I'm a penguin!)
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To: Protagoras

LOL!

I stepped out for a few minutes to shuffle some boxes around the garage after calling attention to them, since it was a slow day, and when I got back they'd gotten more attention than I had thought they would.

Don't worry, we'll find you other trolls.

And you're right, this one seemed awfully familiar.


164 posted on 01/12/2005 12:15:59 PM PST by Darksheare (Taglines may or may not reflect reality depending upon the humor of their owner. I'm a penguin!)
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To: Darksheare

EEEK!


165 posted on 01/12/2005 12:24:21 PM PST by Tax-chick (Where am I? Who are all these kids, and why are they calling me Mom?)
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To: Darksheare
You guys ruin my fun, I like to detect 'em myself. LOL


166 posted on 01/12/2005 12:25:08 PM PST by Protagoras (Real conservatives do not advocate government force to attain societal goals)
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To: Darksheare
"Trollus respondus impotentus"?

Maybe he/she was aborted?

Shalom.

167 posted on 01/12/2005 12:25:23 PM PST by ArGee (After 517, the abolition of man is complete)
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To: Tax-chick

That pretty much was my response to the discovery of such happenings.

I was then very grateful that, at the time of said discovery, that I was dating a woman older than I.


168 posted on 01/12/2005 12:26:31 PM PST by Darksheare (Taglines may or may not reflect reality depending upon the humor of their owner. I'm a penguin!)
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To: Protagoras

"Jdell23 had a bimp on his head from a minkey."

*chuckle*

I'm fairly certain you'll find the next one.


169 posted on 01/12/2005 12:28:01 PM PST by Darksheare (Taglines may or may not reflect reality depending upon the humor of their owner. I'm a penguin!)
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To: ArGee

LOL!

Seems that way.


170 posted on 01/12/2005 12:28:16 PM PST by Darksheare (Taglines may or may not reflect reality depending upon the humor of their owner. I'm a penguin!)
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To: Darksheare
I'm fairly certain you'll find the next one.

I found one on another thread, but the turd hasn't been flushed yet.

171 posted on 01/12/2005 12:33:38 PM PST by Protagoras (Real conservatives do not advocate government force to attain societal goals)
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To: Darksheare
"Jdell23 had a bimp on his head from a minkey."

But...But...Jdell23 is a FReeper.

Nit eny moire.

Shalom.

172 posted on 01/12/2005 12:34:01 PM PST by ArGee (After 517, the abolition of man is complete)
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To: Darksheare

Once in my early 20's, I went to the Officers' Club for lunch with my Dad, and several people thought I was his new wife! Dad's 30 years older than I am :-).


173 posted on 01/12/2005 12:37:05 PM PST by Tax-chick (Where am I? Who are all these kids, and why are they calling me Mom?)
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To: Tax-chick; Darksheare

I wonder if Jim Robinson will be able to handle a thread on FR for us to arrange marriages?

We just won't let our daughters out of their rooms until they are 28y.o. and after we have them arranged to a nice freeper husband.


174 posted on 01/12/2005 12:38:06 PM PST by Calpernia (Breederville.com)
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To: Gabz

My daughter gave her phone number to a boy at school yesterday.

I've yet to recover.


175 posted on 01/12/2005 12:39:02 PM PST by Calpernia (Breederville.com)
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To: international american

Well, where do I begin? This whole piece is about her definition of heros and goats. She is a hero because she has the "utmost respect for life", but elects to kill life.(hero) Her boyfriend is a hero for "teaching her that abortion is a civil right".(hero)He is also a hero because he is a smart person "a leader of the Medical Student Union". She is a hero because she has been asked and has taught "medical abortion to others".(hero)She is a hero because she "would sacrifice everything" for the cause. She is a hero because she "would not hesitate to perform abortions even though abortionist get shot at". She is a hero because "she has no problem with a woman walking out of her clinic", (I am sure because the wallet biopsy was negative).
Now the goats. Those ignorant prolife, antiabortion parents, church teachers, those who, in her words, force an 11 year old to have a baby, those mean nurses who will not participate in the killing, those faithless providers who disagree with her avocation and will not participate, parents who do not want the public schools to teach sex education and hand out condoms.
Now to PITY: increased workload,it can be hard, it can be taxing, it can be tough, you can really get tired, it can move people to tears, it really frustrates, it is upsetting, I don't think about the threats, I am going to sacrifice everything for the cause, it is unfair and depressing, and ...how could anyone think I was doing something wrong?
Now to EUPHEMISMS: terminate pregnance = killing children,....it = human being....civil right = right to kill a human being,......a good thing = killing human beings,........Providers = People who kill people,....life begins in the womb, = you can take human life ad lib,....sacrifice = the hard work of an abortionist.
I am in the buisness of surgery. I don't and never have performed abortions. I have delivered 20 week gestation babies, intubated them and sent them to a neonatal care unit. Guess what,.....they look like little people. The doctor who is quoted in this article is the most self-centered person I have ever read about. This buisness, to her, is all about her. But I give all of my fellow freepers a warning. This is what medical schools are producing or trying to produce. Soulless empty vessels who, as one previous poster on this thread said, would do well in Mengelee's clinics. She is a shame to a profession who swears to "First, do no harm." That is the clarion call of medical doctors down through the ages. Now its is about what is expeditious for the physician. Read and reread this and you will get a glimpse into what many in American medicine explicitly or implicitly subscribe to.


176 posted on 01/12/2005 12:39:04 PM PST by Texas Songwriter (p)
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To: frog_jerk_2004; All

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0089907/quotes

This movie pretty much sums up why abortionists must consume the unborn.

The movie is "Return of the Living Dead". I don't recommend it for entertainment value. But there is dialogue that explains why the dead must consume the living (and in this particular movie, live brains...kind of fitting for today, isn't it?):

What's also interesting is how Tina allows her creepy dead boyfriend, Freddy, eat her brains. It was a very uncomfortable scene, but somehow I was able to sit through it without covering my face with my hands. Please understand that when I saw this, I was a plebe (freshman) at an Academy and this was the only entertainment we were allowed to see before our "recognition" by the regiment.




Ernie Kaltenbrunner: You can understand me, can't you?
1/2 Woman Corpse: Yes.
Ernie Kaltenbrunner: Why do you eat people?
1/2 Woman Corpse: Not people. Brains.
Ernie Kaltenbrunner: Brains only?
1/2 Woman Corpse: Yes.
Ernie Kaltenbrunner: Why?
1/2 Woman Corpse: The PAIN!
Ernie Kaltenbrunner: What pain?
1/2 Woman Corpse: The pain of being DEAD!
Ernie Kaltenbrunner: [laughs uneasily to his friends] It hurts... to be dead.
1/2 Woman Corpse: I can feel myself rot.
Ernie Kaltenbrunner: Eating brains... what does that do?
1/2 Woman Corpse: It makes the pain go away!




Freddy: [to Tina] See? You made me hurt myself again! I broke my hand off completely at the wrist! But that's okay, honey, because I love you, and that's why you have to let me EAT YOUR BRAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIINS!



177 posted on 01/12/2005 12:41:35 PM PST by SaltyJoe ("Social Justice" begins with the unborn child.)
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To: Calpernia

If we're all still around in 10 years or so, I'll ask!


178 posted on 01/12/2005 12:46:04 PM PST by Tax-chick (Where am I? Who are all these kids, and why are they calling me Mom?)
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To: Darksheare

Mission accomplished
http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-chat/1319333/posts?page=27


179 posted on 01/12/2005 12:51:28 PM PST by Protagoras (Real conservatives do not advocate government force to attain societal goals)
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To: Aquinasfan

It's Orwellian.

The Brookline attack is a tragic loss of life. The ten abortion she does per day is a public good.

Only 7 people died in the Brookline attack. This lady even admits what she is doing 10 times a day is ending life.

Critical thinking skills are clearly not required to be a Doctor.


180 posted on 01/12/2005 12:51:56 PM PST by RinaseaofDs (The problem with socialism is that eventually you run out of other people's money.)
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