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5 findings from Covenant School shooter Audrey Hale's complete diary
Christian Post ^ | September 6, 2024 | Ryan Foley

Posted on 09/07/2024 12:10:32 AM PDT by Morgana

The Tennessee Star has released all 90 pages of the “manifesto” of Audrey Hale, the trans-identified shooter who killed six people at Covenant School in Nashville, Tennessee last year.

The journal had remained under seal from the Metro Nashville Police Department after the FBI sent the local law enforcement agency a memo stating that it “strongly discourages” the release of so-called “legacy tokens” because of concerns that future mass shooters would “immerse themselves in and study these materials for inspiration and tactics.” Critics of the move to keep the document confidential theorized that there was an effort to hide that trans ideology either motivated or played a partial role in the attack.

Over the past year, The Tennessee Star and conservative podcaster Steven Crowder have released excerpts of Hale's diary that revealed a disturbed young woman who fantasized about her “imaginary penis,” resented her parents and Christianity for their refusal to embrace her self-professed gender identity as male, and detailing her intention to open fire at the Christian school.

Tuesday’s publication of the complete manifesto contains unredacted screenshots of the handwritten journal for all to see. The contents of the diary document admiration for other mass murderers, sexual frustration, Hale’s desire to kill herself and others, in addition to providing context for her gender dysphoria.

Here are five findings from the unredacted version of Audrey Hale’s diary.

1. Hale thought she'd become a boy when she died

While the diary contained multiple instances of Hale wishing death upon herself, an entry from February 2023, one month before the mass shooting, features the trans-identified shooter remarking that, “The [cocoon] of my old self will die when I leave my body behind and the boy in me will be free in a butterfly transformation; the real me.”

Hale then suggested that “If God won’t give me a boy body in heaven, then Jesus is a f----t.”

2. Wanted to make Columbine shooters proud

On an undated and mostly blank page toward the end of the diary, presumably written a week or two before the shooting, Hale declared, “I want my massacre to end in a way that Eric and Dylan will be proud of.” While Hale didn't elaborate on what she meant, she was referring to the perpetrators of the mass shooting at Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado in 1999.

Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold killed 12 students and one teacher in the mass shooting. Another portion of the diary, on another mostly blank page presumably from March 2023, illustrates how the Columbine shooting weighed heavily on Hale’s mind. She identified April 1999 as “the year Columbine” was “born” and wrote out the date 4/20/99, referring to the day the mass shooting occurred.

3. Wished death upon her father

While the previously released excerpts of the diary document Hale’s resentment toward her parents, a newly released entry titled “Dad Problems” indicates that she had a desire to kill her father. On the undated page, Hale wrote, “I hate when my dad loves on the cats; not me” and referred to her father as a “f----t.”

“He never once loved on me for years, maybe like ever (as a child; maybe),” she added. “I hate his old cranky-man existence. All cranky good-for-nothing mentally ill men SHOULD DIE. They’re all useless pieces of s---.

Describing her father as a “waste of life, waste of time” and a “waste of human population,” she lamented, “Dad just takes up space for all I know.” She slammed him as a “dried out & hollow” person who “says negative s--- all the time, like ‘he’s a loser’” or “I hate movies like this.”

“WELL GUESS WHAT? [YOU’RE] A LOSER!” she exclaimed. After telling her father “I HATE YOU” and “I DON’T CARE IF YOU DIE,” Hale insisted, “I WANT TO KILL YOU.”

In a previous diary entry from Jan. 19, 2023, Hale lamented that “Sydney is gone but my f---ing dad is still alive,” adding, “It should be the other way around.”

She also called her father “delusional,” responding to his assertion that “it gets better & better” by proclaiming, “OLD MAN, YOU’RE FULL OF S---.” A March 2023 entry has an “X” drawn through the face of a man presumed to be Hale’s father, accompanied by the caption “A day w/o a father will be a better day.”

4. Sexually attracted to females

The complete diary makes clear that Hale’s desire to become a boy stems, in part, from her desire to have romantic relationships with girls. A graphic entry from Jan. 25, 2023, features an illustration of a sex act accompanied by an explicit sexual fantasy. Hale expressed a desire to sodomize a “beautiful young brown girl” and lamented that because she was a girl, she could not do so.

In a Feb. 6, 2023, entry, Hale expressed disappointment that “I will be of no use of love for any girl if I don’t have what they need,” referring to a boy’s “body” and the “male gender.” In another entry, which appeared to be written on Feb. 9, 2023, Hale characterized herself as a “major blow to girls” because “I am a boy that has no penis.”

5. Diary concludes with Hale using her birth name

While the diary features multiple instances of Hale referring to herself as “Aiden,” a boy’s name that reflects her self-declared gender identity and is based on the contention that she was born in the wrong body, the diary concludes with a message reading, “Remember me for the good things.” She signed the last sentence in her diary using her given name “Audrey,” accompanied by a heart.

Earlier in the diary, Hale wrote a love letter to someone else, reading, “Audrey is not my name but when you say it, I am just the little 1 I was back then.” The letter also insisted that “I can be a kid again with you, alongside you, even if I can’t be w/ you” and concluded with Hale signing her name “Aiden” with “Audrey” in parentheses.


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Audrey you needed Jesus, sorry you missed out on Him.
1 posted on 09/07/2024 12:10:32 AM PDT by Morgana
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To: Morgana

Full of anger and delusional thinking. Blaming others for things. Not accepting personal responsibility. Caused so much pain to others because she would not face the fact of who she was.

But if you look online the links and websites are numerous in their ‘people hate trans people. Violence against trans people’.


2 posted on 09/07/2024 12:38:53 AM PDT by Beowulf9
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To: Beowulf9

The trans kids are not to blame for the mess their lives are in and for trying to change gender. Most of these kids are dealing with boatloads of pain, anger, and self-hate, as this diary shows.

There’s no knowing what she went through to reach this point, but to be so messed up at her age is tragic.

The adults, however, who are pushing this crap, well, that’s evil to a degree that is on par with jihadis and gangs.


3 posted on 09/07/2024 1:44:20 AM PDT by metmom (He who testifies to these things says, “Surely I am coming soon.” Amen. Come, Lord Jesus”)
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To: Morgana

What meds were prescribed to her? Inquiring minds want to know... what the pharmacology industry is hiding.


4 posted on 09/07/2024 3:14:52 AM PDT by DocRock
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To: metmom

If the adults can blame the guns every time there’s a mass shooting, then we should blame the adults (loud and clear) who are enabling this trans crap on our kids when this stuff happens - every time.


5 posted on 09/07/2024 3:15:31 AM PDT by StayoutdaBushesWay (Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding...)
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To: Morgana

I have encountered cases of attattched spirits changing a person’s gender identity.

For example, if a male spirit attaches to a girl, she will identify as a boy. This happens when the attached spirit is the opposite gender of the child and has a stronger will than the developing child.

There are other situations that cause gender identity issues. This is just one of many influences.


6 posted on 09/07/2024 3:42:24 AM PDT by tired&retired (Blessings )
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To: Morgana

“it” was a deranged sick POS and it’s a good thing it’s dead. Only problem is it should have put a bullet in its own head much sooner.


7 posted on 09/07/2024 3:54:16 AM PDT by maddog55 (The only thing systemic in America is the left's hatred of it!)
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To: Morgana

btt


8 posted on 09/07/2024 3:58:37 AM PDT by KSCITYBOY (The media is corrupt)
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To: Morgana

Over the years, I’ve done a lot of work with lesbians to determine the root cause of their shift in attraction toward a partner in a relationship.

Over 90% of the many cases, their mother was angry at thrir father while the daughter was in their mother’s womb.

A child in the womb cannot differentiate between their own experiences and their mother’s experiences during pregnancy. The period between conception and birth are the most impressionable period on a child’s personality development.

Another major influence is when the father, or mother and father want a boy and the child in the womb is a girl. I encounter this frequently. It creates a feeling of being unwanted, a feeling of rejection, and subsequently a feeling of never being “good enough.”

It is easy to determine if a child in their mother’s womb feels unwanted by one or both parents. (I’m working with adults of varying ages). When I touch the stored memory in the soul of the experiences of when they were in their mother’s womb, it knocks them over backward, even though I am many feet away from them.

By the way.. Life begins at conception as the memories back to conception and beyond are stored in their soul.


9 posted on 09/07/2024 4:09:06 AM PDT by tired&retired (Blessings )
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Audrey you needed Jesus, sorry you missed out on Him.

And apparently, her dad did as well.

10 posted on 09/07/2024 4:22:41 AM PDT by daniel1212 (Turn 2 the Lord Jesus who saves damned+destitute sinners on His acct, believe, b baptized+follow HIM)
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To: Morgana

This was one sick puppy.


11 posted on 09/07/2024 4:33:38 AM PDT by vetvetdoug
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To: Beowulf9

BTTT


12 posted on 09/07/2024 4:48:42 AM PDT by nopardons
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To: Morgana

Her pronouns were her/him/legion


13 posted on 09/07/2024 5:04:07 AM PDT by 2nd Amendment
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To: Morgana

The real thing they are hiding are that these trans kids have deep mental problems, and people aiding them in castration are completely abandoning medical ethics. This is not normal, and it has to stop.

Someone tell the Hollywood liberals and the disaster of their political party to leave the kids alone.


14 posted on 09/07/2024 5:16:32 AM PDT by Titus-Maximus (Tthe trouble with socialism is that you soon run out of other people's zoo animals to eat.)
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To: tired&retired

“..I have encountered cases of attached spirits changing a person’s gender identity....”
There’s nothing new under the sun when it comes to these so-called “spirits”. They’ve been around basically doing the same thing for centuries and throughout just about all facets of human culture.
Ashtereth, Astarte, Ashteroth, Ishtar, Artemis....many names, many cultures: same sexual, transgender spirit/demon.


15 posted on 09/07/2024 5:50:18 AM PDT by lgjhn23 ("On the 8th day, Satan created the progressive liberal to destroy all the good that God created..." )
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To: lgjhn23

It’s just that the decay of marital relationships, the lack of religion, and the destruction of moral values has made people more open to having an attachment in current times.


16 posted on 09/07/2024 6:16:48 AM PDT by tired&retired (Blessings )
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To: maddog55

” Only problem is it should have put a bullet in its own head much sooner.”

The killer thinks life isn’t fair*. Nobody has suffered like they suffer. They want others to suffer, and they feel when others suffer it releases their suffering. They hate, hate, hate. But especially, they hate themselves. These people are so toxic, nobody who talks to them even briefly will stay around to become a friend, companion or mate.

* In their view, if life was fair, they’d have the fabulous body they wanted. People would fall over each other to be their friend/companion/lover. Since none of these things happened everyone needs to suffer. I think narcissism is too mild a descriptive word.

I’m reminded of when you mother wants you to like a fat girl they always, accurately, describe her as having a wonderful personality. I’ve noticed that gorgeous men or women are often very unpleasant to be around. That’s because they never once had to work to have a friend or companion. It’s those with some unattractive feature who work to have and maintain a friendship. My mother said, “Don’t aim at the most attractive girl. She won’t know you exist. And, looks are fleeting. Eventually, she’ll be her mother.”


17 posted on 09/07/2024 7:00:53 AM PDT by Gen.Blather (Wait! I said that out loud? )
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To: metmom

Amen. Instead of trying to calm, reduce and repair these kids’ mental anguish, American marxists are pouring gas on the fire in the name of critical theory and political conflict.


18 posted on 09/07/2024 7:43:23 AM PDT by PGR88
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To: tired&retired

“..It’s just that the decay of marital relationships, the lack of religion, and the destruction of moral values has made people more open to having an attachment in current times....”

Yep, without a doubt The absence of God and His “guardrails” in a life provides the enemy with the perfect opportunity to fill that emptiness and void with demonic garbage. Kinda like what the Lord described in Luke 11:24-26....it’s NOT a good thing for sure.


19 posted on 09/07/2024 8:14:51 AM PDT by lgjhn23 ("On the 8th day, Satan created the progressive liberal to destroy all the good that God created..." )
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To: Gen.Blather

What extremely good advice your mother gave you. I married a handsome man and suffered accordingly with his “Bill Clinton” problem.


20 posted on 09/07/2024 8:15:09 AM PDT by Albion Wilde (Propaganda keeps only governments in business, not corporations. —John Nolte)
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