I hope I didn’t miss anybody. I just wanted to update those who have responded so kindly to my thread about our furry loved ones.
Kitty died Thursday morning. I took her to the vet that Wednesday after I posted this thread. She wasn’t diabetic, she had a urinary and kidney infection. She was to be on antibiotics for 2 weeks.
After a few days, she seemed to perk up and I thought yay, she’ll pull through. The weekend before she died, I knew she was going. She started to wobble.
I went into work Monday and told the girls Kitty was going, it was a matter of days. Went into work Tuesday and took 1/2 a day, because I knew it was Tuesday or Wednesday (her 2 week follow up, after the antibiotics was on Wednesday).
Went I got home on Tuesday I canceled the vet appt. I knew it was time. I was able to spend the last almost 2 last days with her, kissing her, crying into her fur, knowing this was it.
Tuesday night was the last night she arose. She laid there dying. I was with her from Tuesday afternoon until her death Thursday morning (no, I couldn’t even shower. Anytime I left her she mewed, something she never did before). Wednesday night, about 8:30, I begged God to take her so I wouldn’t have to do it.
I begged for just one more hour though. I laid there on the couch with her and cried my eyes out, thinking I had just 1 more hour. 9:30 passed and she was still breathing. I stayed up until 11 or so.
I awoke the next morning and she was still breathing, but it was different.
She died about 9:30-9:40 Thursday morning. I was there for her last breath and was devastated. I called my friend because I didn’t know what to do. She said to call your vet, if I couldn’t, she would call for me. I said I would.
The vet’s office (whom I will now be using for my other 2) said I could bring her in for the Dr. to check and confirm. They were so sweet and understanding. I said I wanted her cremated and they explained I could leave her and they would take care of it.
I said I wanted to bring her to the crematorium myself. I took my shower, called the vet’s office and said I was on my way. When i walked in, they took me immediately to the exam room and the Dr. came right in. She confirmed my Kitty was gone.
They were so sweet. I broke down, again, apologized to them and they said “no, please, we’re so sorry for your loss”. The Dr. then took Kitty’s head in her hands and rubbed her head.
I took her to the crematorium and they too were so loving and kind.
I’m picking her ashes up on Tuesday. I have not been myself since and now it seems this pain will never go away. The man who performs the cremation said I will have closure once I get her home (he wouldn’t let me leave until I had my self control back. I was devastated.)
I just wanted to update you guys who were so kind and loving in my time of despair. I’ll never forget it.
One thing I realized this morning.....I asked God to take her, but to give me 1 last hour. If He had given me what I had asked for, it would have been around 9:30 Wednesday night. At the same time I was begging Him to take her, I was begging Him for more time.
Thursday morning, just after 9:30, He took her back. He knew I needed more time, but yet He knew I didn’t want her to suffer anymore, as I’m sure he didn’t either, nor wanted me to suffer anymore.
That’s my update. I am still devastated by her loss. Feels like a large chunk of my heart has been ripped out and will never be replaced.
I thank the Good Lord for seeing what I needed, not wanted, as He took my Kitty back to His Kingdom.
Again, thank you ALL for your support and kindness. I have learned much and am now applying it to my other 2.
God Bless you all.
May G-d comfort you. I now from personal experience how greatly His comfort is at such times.
I know how bad you feel. It gets better, but you will still cry for a long time when you think about her.
I am so sorry. After awhile we took another youngster in.
It helped.
I am truly sorry for your loss. I know how much it hurts; I still grieve Emma cat everyday. Unpacking Christmas ornaments this year and brought out her little stocking. It made me cry all over again. My prayers are with you during this season of grief.
I’m so sorry. You did your utmost for her. I hope the memories of all the good times will stay with you.
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Fly free sweet, sweet Kitty.
I am deeply sorry for your loss. It is only a month since my Krueger went to the Bridge. And I still catch myself sobbing over him ...
May God comfort you. I am so sorry :-(
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. My nearly twenty years buddy, CrookedTail passed away the Wednesday before Thanksgiving. He too developed the wobbles just before declinging rapidly. Perhaps I’ll be able to write more when my eyes dry up ...
Prayers....*hugs*
Prayers....*hugs*
My sweet cat Emily who was a stray I found when she was 12 weeks old was my only baby for nearly 15 years. When she got very sick and the vet told me she either had IBD or cancer, but to do a biopsy to confirm it would mean surgery and she was too old and sick to tolerate it. He said even if she had cancer, there was no real treatment for her at her age and it would not really buy her much time for the suffering it would cause. He gave me steroids to give her and said she will probably get better for about two weeks (which she did) and if it is IBD she would continue to improve. If it was cancer, however she would go down hill after the two weeks were up. It was two weeks to the day that she crashed. We knew we had to say goodbye and not let her have to suffer anymore. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do and my husband had to be with her when they gave her the shot because I just didn't think I could see it. I stood outside the room and sobbed. After she was gone, my husband came and got me and I went into the room where her little body laid on the table. She looked like she was asleep and we cried in each others arms for a good while. We really miss her and we now have two sweeties that we love so much and they have really helped me to heal after losing Emily. I know that some day I will have to probably say goodbye to them, too. I do not look forward to it, but I cherish the time I so have with them now and thank the Lord for creating such wonderful friends for us to love and care for.
I am praying that the Lord comforts you and you remember all the good times you had with Kitty and what a great life you gave her.
I am so sorry for your loss. I have been there and it is painful for us to let them go. You can find comfort in remembering that she is no longer suffering.
I'm sorry for what you're going through. Your Kitty was fortunate by be loved by you.
I too wish they were longer lived. I had to put a boy to sleep in about 2002, and I still miss him.
I've got three tortie girls now; I'm hoping they'll all stay healthy.
I didn’t see your story originally in November. I just read about your kitty passing—cried reading it. I’m very sorry for your loss. You must have been doing something right to get your kitty to 19. That’s an amazing age for a cat. Of all the cats my mom has had, only two made it to 19. Best wishes to you and your family and remaining animals.
I am so sorry :o( It is so hard to loose a pet. I am glad you have the other two to love on. May God give you peace.
Upon learning of my cat's passing, the moderator of the CRF group I belonged to sent me the following short poem which I want to share with you:
I loved my friend
He went away from me.
There's nothing more to say.
The poem ends,
Soft as it began--
I loved my friend.
--Langston Hughes
I lost a 19-year old feline friend in '99 and I know how hard it is.
You gave Kitty a good life.
Prayers up for your comfort and strength.
As I type this, my 18 year old is sitting on my lap after not having eaten her breakfast. I know her time is also near.
I lost my diabetic about 2 years ago and every now and then he sends me a sign, reminding me of his time here.
You will never forget your baby and she was very lucky to have owned you!
I am sorry for your loss. I was just pinged about kitty and didn’t read the thread. There were some excellent recommendations here for you as you were well aware. I am going to bookmark it because it will be helpful for my clients as well. Kitty will be there waiting for you when we pass over, God gave us domain over the animals and they share our redemption as well.
You have my deepest sympathy for your loss. What you’re going through is very familiar to me and to most pet lovers. May God comfort you in your grief, and may your memories of Kitty go from bringing tears to making you smile fondly as the months go on.