Posted on 02/06/2023 10:19:24 PM PST by Jim Robinson
I'm still flat on my back. The pressure sores that sent me to the hospital are almost healed, but still too painful for me to spend much time in my power chair, so I spend all my time in bed. The nurse says the wounds are now just superficial, and should be healed very soon. I do have a new spot on my bottom and on my back, but they haven't become sores yet. Hoping to spend more time in my chair each day until completely healed and to prevent more sores on my back.
My hands and arms are already very weak from muscular dystrophy and they're even weaker now after lying in bed for six months. A physical therapist is working with me on range of motion exercises to get my arms stronger again. And that's very painful, but has to be done.
I can't type on the computer while lying in bed, so I'm using speech recognition software to control the computer. The software allows me to navigate by clicking on any link on a page using voice commands. I can do almost any function using voice commands, like opening/closing files, tabs, etc. I can also click on a reply button and enter short replies, however it's almost impossible to enter anything more than just a few words, because the software makes many errors and it takes a long time to clean that up. Consequently, if I have a long post to enter, I have to call Chris in to type it in for me, as he's doing right now.
But I can do most functions in maintaining the website, and the abuse system. So I spend a lot of time now reading and bumping threads to breaking or frontpage news, and handling the abuse reporting system. One thing I cannot do is cut and paste. For example, when I receive an abuse report and a true title needs to be copied from a source, I need to call in Chris to do it for me. Chris has been a real trooper. Not only is he my primary care provider, but he's been doing all my banking/bill-paying/bookkeeping as well as my entire job while I was in the hospital, and a thousand other chores since I went to the hospital.
For about a week before going into the hospital, I was in a lot of pain. I couldn't focus on my work, couldn't eat, sleep, sit/lay in my chair for very long without excruciating pain. I was also constipated for an entire week, and I knew I was in trouble.
The evening before going into the hospital, I asked Chris and John to lift me into bed because I was in so much pain. But even in bed, there was no relief. I kept calling the boys in every five minutes or so to adjust my position, but I still couldn't get relief. They became concerned, so they decided to take me to the VA emergency room.
In the VA, they suspected that I had blocked bowels and were considering surgery. They put tubes in me to feed me and take out the waste. They also found that one of the pressure sores had gone all the way through to the bone, and that I had a sepsis infection. I don't remember very much about that period, because I was literally out of my mind. These things were told to me later.
Chris says that for the first couple weeks, the VA wouldn't allow visitors or anybody to even talk/see me. This hospital had very strict rules because of Covid. John, Chris, and Amy even considered getting a lawyer so that they could talk to me. The VA finally relented, and allowed them to visit me so they could find out what was going on - they literally had absolutely no idea what was happening to me.
I was pretty much out of it that first week and couldn't remember much, but I remember talking to the surgeon and some doctors. They were actually considering surgery for my blocked bowels, but then they decided let's try an enema. Sure enough, cleared that shit up! No surgery was required.
I also remember I couldn't sleep in that first week, and they were begging me to go to sleep, but every time I drifted off I had a repeat of some recurring nightmares. While I was having these nightmare, I knew they were nightmares, but couldn't wake myself up. I knew how they began and how they ended. And once one began, I couldn't wake myself up until it went all the way to the end.
One of the nightmares concerned a pit bull that was released in the hospital, and I could hear him running from room to room, attacking people and chomping on their bones. I knew when he got to my room (which he never did), he'd start chomping on my feet first and work his way up.
Another recurring nightmare was about being in a hospital run by terrorists, and it had a public side and back side. On the public side, they were nice as can be and took real good care of you. But on the back side, they were mean as hell and liked to torture people.
I also became very paranoid, and while slipping in and out of delirium. I had suspicions about being in a government hospital with government employees. I described some of this to John, and he said, "I don't know what they have you on man, but you are loopy!"
They started feeding me broth, and couple days later soft foods like Jello and ice cream. The best part about being in the hospital is ice cream.
There's a lot more to add, but I'll cut this short. The good news is I'm healing. The bad news is it's going to take a bit more time, but we'll get there.
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers and continuing support.
God bless.
prayers up for you jim
Sending prayers 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
I must admit, your description:
"...Another recurring nightmare was about being in a hospital run by terrorists, and it had a public side and back side. On the public side, they were nice as can be and took real good care of you. But on the back side, they were mean as hell and liked to torture people..."
made me think:
"That's not a hospital, that is the US Government!"
Jesus touch you by His Spirit!
Amen!
Prayers up, Boss.
Amen!!
Much love and prayers sent to you, JimRob!
Every single one of us!
Prayers up Mr. Robinson, to you health and may God bless.
Prayers up!
I’m no medical person, but wouldn’t a memory foam mattress or
topper be good for bedsores?................
Ditto that.
God bless you. The dreams alone would be more than most people could handle. You’re one tough dude Jim.
The Nightmares? Sounds like your subconscious is telling you there’s danger in the world - but the pit bulls aren’t able to get to you... You’re aware of the damage they’re doing to others. It’s interesting. You’ve always known evil was out there - doing damage - and you’ve kept it at bay. That’s a lot of what FreeRepublic has been about. I wonder if that’s part of the dreams. You’re in my prayers - thanks for working to keep all of us safe.
I was so glad to get this update even though I realize you have been through a lot of suffering and this is a hard read.
I continue to pray for healing for you Jim. God bless you.
Praying for complete recovery and vibrant health.
Ping
Prayers for quick healing and recovery.
We all are feeling empathy reading about what you’ve been through, And joy that the worst of it seems to be behind you and the worst of your pains and difficulties have been relieved.
Thank you for reporting your pains and even your nightmares with such clarity, something we can all identify with in some small way and preparing us for greater challenges and suffering we all must face.
And thank you for creating the most addictive news congregation and conservative discussion/argument forum imaginable.
Jim, we want nothing more than you to be well. You’re going thru a lot. The meds can really do a number on you too. The mental side on top of the physical must have been exhausting. It’s good to hear you’re doing better and hearing from you about this means a lot to all of us who care so much about you. You will be in our prayers. Please keep us updated. Your presence on FR reminds us of just how great of a forum this is. We are a fortunate group. There is no other place like this on the web. And it’s because of you. Blessings and love.
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