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I Hated the Idea of Becoming Catholic
Aleteia ^ | JUNE 20, 2014 | ANTHONY BARATTA

Posted on 11/28/2014 2:33:31 PM PST by NYer

It was the day after Ash Wednesday in 2012 when I called my mom from my dorm room at Southern Baptist Theological Seminary and told her I thought I was going to become Catholic.

“You’re not going to become Catholic, you just know you’re not Southern Baptist,” she said.

“No, I don’t think so.”

A pause. “Oh boy,” she sighed.

I started crying.

I cannot stress enough how much I hated the idea of becoming Catholic. I was bargaining to the last moment. I submitted a sermon for a competition days before withdrawing from school. I was memorizing Psalm 119 to convince myself of sola scriptura. I set up meetings with professors to hear the best arguments. I purposefully read Protestant books about Catholicism, rather than books by Catholic authors.

Further, I knew I would lose my housing money and have to pay a scholarship back if I withdrew from school, not to mention disappointing family, friends, and a dedicated church community.

But when I attempted to do my homework, I collapsed on my bed. All I wanted to do was scream at the textbook, “Who says?!”

I had experienced a huge paradigm shift in my thinking about the faith, and the question of apostolic authority loomed larger than ever.

But let’s rewind back a few years.

I grew up in an evangelical Protestant home. My father was a worship and preaching pastor from when I was in fourth grade onwards. Midway through college, I really fell in love with Jesus Christ and His precious Gospel and decided to become a pastor.

It was during that time that I was hardened in my assumption that the Roman Catholic Church didn’t adhere to the Bible. When I asked one pastor friend of mine during my junior year why Catholics thought Mary remained a virgin after Jesus’ birth when the Bible clearly said Jesus had “brothers,” he simply grimaced: “They don’t read the Bible.”

Though I had been in talks with Seattle’s Mars Hill Church about doing an internship with them, John Piper’s book Don’t Waste Your Life clarified my call to missionary work specifically, and I spent the next summer evangelizing Catholics in Poland.

So I was surprised when I visited my parents and found a silly looking book titled Born Fundamentalist, Born Again Catholic on my father’s desk. What was my dad doing reading something like this? I was curious and hadn’t brought anything home to read, so I gave it a look.

David Currie’s memoir of leaving behind his evangelical education and ministries was bothersome. His unapologetic defense of controversial doctrines regarding Mary and the papacy were most shocking, as I had never seriously considered that Catholics would have sensible, scriptural defenses to these beliefs.

The book’s presence on my father’s desk was explained more fully a few months later when he called me and said he was returning to the Catholicism of his youth. My response? “But, can’t you just be Lutheran or something?” I felt angry, betrayed, and indignant. For the next four months I served as a youth pastor at my local church and, in my free time, read up on why Catholicism was wrong.

During that time, I stumbled across a Christianity Today article that depicted an “evangelical identity crisis.” The author painted a picture of young evangelicals, growing up in a post-modern world, yearning to be firmly rooted in history and encouraged that others had stood strong for Christ in changing and troubled times. Yet, in my experience, most evangelical churches did not observe the liturgical calendar, the Apostles’ Creed was never mentioned, many of the songs were written after 1997, and if any anecdotal story was told about a hero from church history, it was certainly from after the Reformation. Most of Christian history was nowhere to be found.

For the first time, I panicked. I found a copy of the Catechism and started leafing through it, finding the most controversial doctrines and laughing at the silliness of the Catholic Church. Indulgences? Papal infallibility? These things, so obviously wrong, reassured me in my Protestantism. The Mass sounded beautiful and the idea of a visible, unified Church was appealing - but at the expense of the Gospel? It seemed obvious that Satan would build a large organization that would lead so many just short of heaven.

I shook off most of the doubts and enjoyed the remainder of my time at college, having fun with the youth group and sharing my faith with the students. Any lingering doubts, I assumed, would be dealt with in seminary.

I started my classes in January with the excitement of a die-hard football fan going to the Super Bowl. The classes were fantastic and I thought I had finally rid myself of any Catholic problems.


But just a few weeks later, I ran into more doubts. We were learning about spiritual disciplines like prayer and fasting and I was struck by how often the professor would skip from St. Paul to Martin Luther or Jonathan Edwards when describing admirable lives of piety. Did nothing worthwhile happen in the first 1500 years? The skipping of history would continue in many other classes and assigned reading. The majority of pre-Reformation church history was ignored.

I soon discovered I had less in common with the early Church fathers than I thought. Unlike most Christians in history, communion had always been for me an occasional eating of bread and grape juice, and baptism was only important after someone had gotten “saved.” Not only did these views contradict much of Church history but, increasingly, they did not match with uncomfortable Bible passages I had always shrugged off (John 6, Romans 6, etc).

Other questions that I had buried began to reappear, no longer docile but ferocious, demanding an answer. Where did the Bible come from? Why didn’t the Bible claim to be “sufficient”? The Protestant answers that had held me over in the last year were no longer satisfying.

Jefferson Bethke’s viral YouTube video, “Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus,” was released during this time. The young man meant well, but to me he only validated what the Wall Street Journal called “the dangerous theological anarchy of young evangelicals,” attempting to remove Jesus from the confines of religion but losing so much in the process.

Ash Wednesday was the tipping point. A hip Southern Baptist church in Louisville held a morning Ash Wednesday service and many students showed up to classes with ashes on their forehead. At chapel that afternoon, a professor renowned for his apologetic efforts against Catholicism expounded upon the beauty of this thousand year old tradition.

Afterwards, I asked a seminary friend why most evangelicals had rejected this beautiful thing. He responded with something about Pharisees and “man-made traditions.”

I shook my head. “I can’t do this anymore.”

My resistance to Catholicism started to fade. I was feeling drawn to the sacraments, sacramentals, physical manifestations of God’s grace, the one, holy, catholic and apostolic Church. No more borrowing, no more denying.

It was the next day that I called my mom and told her I thought I was going to become Catholic.

I didn’t go to classes on Friday. I went to the seminary library and checked out books I had previously forbidden myself to look at too closely, like the Catechism and Pope Benedict’s latest. I felt like I was checking out porn. Later, I drove to a 5pm Saturday Mass. The gorgeous crucifix at the front of the church reminded me of when I had mused that crucifixes demonstrated that Catholics didn’t really understand the resurrection.

But I saw the crucifix differently this time and began crying. “Jesus, my suffering savior, you’re here.”

A peace came over me until Tuesday, when it yielded to face-to-windshield reality. Should I stay or leave? I had several panicked phone calls: “I literally have no idea what I am going to do tomorrow morning.”

On Wednesday morning I woke up, opened my laptop, and typed out “77 Reasons I Am Leaving Evangelicalism.” The list included things like sola scriptura, justification, authority, the Eucharist, history, beauty, and continuity between the Old and New Testament. The headlines and the ensuing paragraphs flowed from my fingers like water bursting from a centuries-old dam. 

A few hours later on February 29, 2012 I slipped out of Louisville, Kentucky, eager to not confuse anyone else and hoping I wasn’t making a mistake.  

The next few months were painful. More than anything else I felt ashamed and defensive, uncertain of how so much of my identity and career path could be upended so quickly. Nonetheless, I joined the Church on Pentecost with the support of my family and started looking for work.

So much has changed since then. I met Jackie on CatholicMatch.com that June, got married a year later, and celebrated the birth of our daughter, Evelyn, on March 3rd, 2014. We’re now in Indiana and I’m happy at my job.

I’m still very new on this Catholic journey. To all inquirers out there, I can tell you that my relationship with God has deepened and strengthened. As I get involved in our parish, I’m so thankful for the love of evangelism and the Bible that I learned in Protestantism.

I have not so much left my former faith as I have filled in the gaps. I thank God for the fullness of the Catholic faith.


TOPICS: Apologetics; Catholic; Evangelical Christian; Theology
KEYWORDS: anthonybaratta; baptist; catholic; evangelical; protestant; seminary; southernbaptist
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To: Mark17

Yup, it is good to use God-given discernment.


281 posted on 11/29/2014 8:41:17 AM PST by Theo (May Christ be exalted above all.)
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To: Mrs. Don-o; Iscool
You didn't answer his question. What is it that saves. Faith or or the works generated by that faith? Are those "works" needed for salvation? Let me give you a couple of verses for your consideration.

Romans 4:5 But to him that worketh not, but believeth on him that justifieth the ungodly, his faith is counted for righteousness.

John 6:29 Jesus answered and said unto them, This is the work of God, that ye believe on him whom he hath sent.

282 posted on 11/29/2014 8:50:45 AM PST by CynicalBear (For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus)
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To: mdmathis6
I would have trouble believing that Nicodemus would have responded with the words he did unless Nicodemus was that spiritually insouciant.

Did you read my post 167?

I see there is an argument over the Greek translations. I do find it interesting that the Catholic English Bible the Douay Reims that many Catholics swoon over translates the phrase as “Born again!”

No translation is perfect, that is why in cases like this we must go to the original Greek.

283 posted on 11/29/2014 8:51:55 AM PST by verga (You anger Catholics by telling them a lie, you anger protestants by telling them the truth.)
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To: verga

If we accept Jesus as He instructs in His Word, we do not need a denomination after our names. That is why I enjoyed going to the many churches we went to when I was a kid. Our town and county were very small and my parents knew or were related to many people. We were invited to their churches and we accepted. One thing about every one of them was that each and every one taught from the Bible. If we are Christians, do not worry about the name as long as they are Bible teaching churches. The Catholic religion is not the Only way to Heaven. It does not matter how much they believe that or any other church for that matter. God has the instructions in The Bible an they are easy enough for a child to understand.


284 posted on 11/29/2014 8:55:48 AM PST by MamaB
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To: delchiante
>>A study of the number six hundred three score and six in hebrew letters<<

The problem with that approach is that Revelation was written in Greek not Hebrew. Reverting to Hebrew is only speculation and not based on scripture.

285 posted on 11/29/2014 8:57:46 AM PST by CynicalBear (For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus)
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To: CynicalBear

Sorry. I read your post wrong. I thought you were bashing Protestants.

Personally, I would prefer not to bash Protestants or Catholics. I save that for the muzzie cult.


286 posted on 11/29/2014 9:05:28 AM PST by boycott
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To: Salvation; Iscool; Resettozero
>>Catholic Baptism is a baptism of water AND the spirit.<<

What water is that?

John 7:38 He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water.

John 4:14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.

287 posted on 11/29/2014 9:09:07 AM PST by CynicalBear (For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus)
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To: daniel1212; metmom; boatbums; caww; presently no screen name; redleghunter; Springfield Reformer
Would you agree that that Scripture was the transcendent supreme standard for obedience and testing and establishing truth claims as the wholly Divinely inspired and assured, Word of God? As is abundantly evidenced. <>p>I most assuredly would agree. Would you agree that 1500 years of Christian belief, practice, and tradition as a living faith throughout the Western World is also somehow relevant?

You see, not only were my humble ancestors among the Christians who preceded us, as were yours, but the so were the descendants of the apostles and their families, of the disciples and their families, even the descendants of the earthly "family" of Jesus and His "relatives."

Surely many of them were saved by grace through faith. What they believed should at least be of interest, don't you think?

BTW, I also believe that through the centuries spurious and corrupt practices crept into established Christianity, even pagan influences. However, the establishment churches tell me, "Do not throw out the baby with the bathwater." Seems somewhat sensible.

BTW,I do think of this often, when I contemplate not only churches, but the Republican Party. Does one kill a corrupt organization ... or cure it? What follows?

Is it simply too hard to imagine that some silk-and satin-bedecked 14th C. bishop surrounded by clouds of fragrant incense might also be saved, as well as a sweating peasant looking no farther than the tail of the ox pulling his plow?

288 posted on 11/29/2014 9:10:37 AM PST by Kenny Bunk (The fate of the Republic rests in the hands of the '15 -16 Congress. God help us.)
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To: Steelfish

**OMG!**

Which God are you calling on right there...God the Father? God the Son? or God the Holy Ghost?

**Apparently the saints, martyrs, theologians, early Church Fathers etc were all deceived except of course you.**

Let God be true (the scriptures), and EVERY man a liar.

**This is the not unlike same nonsense the likes of David Koresh and Jim Jones did, or what Jehovah’s Witness and the Mormons believe**

I may be mistaken, but, I think (except for the JW’s, who are completely confused) that their beliefs are/were trinitarian to some degree or another. Joseph Smith can be shown a liar by this simple fact: He claimed to have seen the Father along side the Son, both appearing as men. That wasn’t a vision like John’s ‘lamb’ approaching ‘one sitting on the throne’. And Jesus Christ testified that no man has seen the Father. Sorry, Mormans reading this, I don’t believe that dynamic has changed since the Son spoke those words.

**Each group takes its “own” interpretation of the Bible and go on a gallop.**

I simply repeat the testamony of Jesus Christ and his apostles, and you choose to spin that into an ‘interpretation’.

The Son is ‘of’ the Father. Jesus Christ’s testamony supports that fact throughout the book of John. Sure, there are spiritual descriptions of the Father giving all power to the Son, showing the receivers of the visions that the Son is indeed the Judge. But, God is invisible; both the Son and his apostles testify to that in the scriptures.

For a very plain and simple illustration of the Son’s testamony, take a clean sheet of printer paper, and look at what is on it. There should be nothing visible on the paper. Yet, God is everywhere on that sheet....you just can’t see him, for God is a Spirit, and is invisible.

Now, draw the outline of a man, being sure to keep it inside of the borders of the paper. God is INSIDE the outline of the man, and OUTSIDE the outline.

Jesus Christ, the Son of God, taught this understanding to his disciples quite plainly in John chapter 14, with verse 11 being the most descriptive: “Believe me that I am in the Father; and the Father in me: else believe me for the very works’ sake.” Jesus had just told them in the previous verse that the words and works that he does are not his, but the Father that “dwelleth IN me”.

I ask again: Are you ‘Free Republic the Steelfish’, or ‘Steelfish of Free Republic’? Is the entire presence of this blog, Free Republic, in you Steelfish? or is your presence IN Free Republic?


289 posted on 11/29/2014 9:39:51 AM PST by Zuriel (Acts 2:38,39....Do you believe it?)
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To: BipolarBob

**It is interesting to note Jesus fought these offers with “It is written” rather than a “according to Church tradition.”**

So true!

Now, if the Son had said to Satan, “You go and tell your offers to my mother, then I’ll listen”, then there would be something for the RCs to stand on.


290 posted on 11/29/2014 9:44:38 AM PST by Zuriel (Acts 2:38,39....Do you believe it?)
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To: Zuriel

This is purely sophomoric interpretation. You arrogate for yourself the right to interpret Scripture according to “your” own lights. By what authority? Those who assembled the books in the Bible did so by the authority of the Petrine mandate. This supreme authority (”whatsoever thou shall bind on earth…”) did not end soon after they gave us the books you call the Bible. The modalities and forms of interpretation continue to this day but only by Petrine authority.

Not the nonsense anyone spouts off by cracking open the pages of the Bible, producing swatches of Scripture, and telling us what it means. If you reject the Eucharist, the source and summit of Catholic worship you have rejected the central thesis of Christianity. This is what the early Church fathers and theologians believed and what the greatest constellation of scholars, believers (saints, martyrs, and stigmatists) have believed for 2000 years. The rest is all drivel


291 posted on 11/29/2014 10:06:24 AM PST by Steelfish
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To: ealgeone
oh and there's more from the pope on this... 13. How grateful and magnificent a spectacle to see in the cities, and towns, and villages, on land and sea - wherever the Catholic faith has penetrated - many hundreds of thousands of pious people uniting their praises and prayers with one voice and heart at every moment of the day, saluting Mary, invoking Mary, hoping everything through Mary.Through her may all the faithful strive to obtain from her Divine Son that the nations plunged in error may return to the Christian teaching and precepts, in which is the foundation of the public safety and the source Of peace and true happiness. Through her may they steadfastly endeavour for that most desirable of all blessings, the restoration of the liberty of our Mother, the Church, and the tranquil possession of her rights - rights which have no other object than the careful direction of men's dearest interests, from the exercise of which individuals and nations have never suffered injury, but have derived, in all time, numerous and most precious benefits. 14. And for you, venerable brethren, through the intercession of the Queen of the Most Holy Rosary, We pray Almighty God to grant you heavenly gifts, and greater and more abundant strength, and aid to accomplish the charge of your pastoral office. As a pledge of which We most lovingly bestow upon you and upon the clergy and people committed to your care, the Apostolic Benediction. (Vatican Website: Encyclical of Pope Leo XIII on the Rosary, Octobri Mense, Pope Leo XIII, 1903-1914) You know, I'm not even sure why catholics even need Christ when ya'll place the hope on Mary. Oh, and there's more.... We constantly seek for help from Heaven - the sole means of effecting anything - that our labours and our care may obtain their wished for object. We deem that there could be no surer and more efficacious means to this end than by religion and piety to obtain the favour of the great Virgin Mary, the Mother of God, the guardian of our peace and the minister to us of heavenly grace, who is placed on the highest summit of power and glory in Heaven, in order that she may bestow the help of her patronage on men who through so many labours and dangers are striving to reach that eternal city. …..showing that the Catholic Church has always, and with justice, put all her hope and trust in the Mother of God. SUPREMI APOSTOLATUS OFFICIO ENCYCLICAL OF POPE LEO XIII ON DEVOTION OF THE ROSARY Again...with the worship of Mary...not sure why catholics need Christ. This is what happens when you follow man-made teachings that go against the Word.

God bless you and yours.

292 posted on 11/29/2014 10:11:05 AM PST by cloudmountain
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To: BipolarBob
"The transferrence of Sabbath to Sunday as Gods day of rest is not in recorded history."

Here's a pretty good run-down of earliest Christian observance of Sunday as the day of gathering the community to worship LINK)---this is recorded history, and not from a Catholic source.

It is reasonable to think that in 361 AD, when legislation by Emperor Constantius II designated Sunday as the day of public prayer, it was simply recognizing a custom already well-established by centuries of practice, starting with the Book of Acts (first century) and going on to communities such as those of St. Ignatius of Antioch and St. Justin Martyr (second century).

That's recorded history, too.

As is so common, it started as imitation of the Apostles' practice, became customary in the congregations they and their successrs founded, acquired theological elaboration along the way,and was finally codified by law. In other words: practice first, law later--- the law serving as a confirmation of an already long-held practice and belief.

293 posted on 11/29/2014 10:23:19 AM PST by Mrs. Don-o ("Without justice, what is the State but a great band of robbers?" -- St. Augustine of Hippo)
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To: Steelfish

I am not that caught up in religions.

I am a follower of Jesus Christ.


294 posted on 11/29/2014 10:27:18 AM PST by boycott
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To: cloudmountain

The truth of the teachings of the Catholic Church hurts doesn’t it?


295 posted on 11/29/2014 10:32:05 AM PST by ealgeone
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To: NYer

It’s really not a laughing matter NYer. The lack of scripture and claims to faith in Christ alone is rather alarming. Their trust is in religion.


296 posted on 11/29/2014 10:42:33 AM PST by CynicalBear (For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus)
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To: tomsbartoo; Resettozero
>>For your information, the Roman Catholic Church is the one and only true Church founded by Jesus Christ,<<

No, it's not. Jesus Christ would have nothing to do with a "church" that includes paganism or traditions of man.

297 posted on 11/29/2014 10:45:41 AM PST by CynicalBear (For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus)
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To: boycott
>>I don’t know why I am included in this one but since you’ve added me,<<

Simply a courtesy ping because the post I was responding to had been addressed to you.

298 posted on 11/29/2014 10:48:48 AM PST by CynicalBear (For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus)
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To: boycott
>>I save that for the muzzie cult.<<

You do realize don't you that the Catholic Church claims that they and the Muslims serve the same god?

299 posted on 11/29/2014 10:51:41 AM PST by CynicalBear (For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus)
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To: Mrs. Don-o

“It is reasonable to think that in 361 AD, when legislation by Emperor Constantius II designated Sunday as the day of public prayer”
I feel a presumption coming on. We have an emperor dictating religious law. Not a good thing.
“ was simply recognizing a custom already well-established by centuries of practice”
Luke 4:16 And as His custom was, He went into the synagogue on the Sabbath Day, and stood up to read. Catholics follow Constantius and I’ll follow the Lord.
Your link (filled with spurious claims and inaccuracies) called Sunday the Lords Day in referring to Rev. 1:10 with no basis whatsoever other than more circular logic. Whereas The Bible (Mark 2:28) tells us in Jesus own Words that the Sabbath is the Lords Day.
Your “practice-first - law later” doesn’t pass the smell test. Go with what God says every time. It may not be popular but it will be right.


300 posted on 11/29/2014 12:25:28 PM PST by BipolarBob (You smell of elderberries, my friend.)
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