Posted on 05/29/2005 5:47:44 PM PDT by ETERNAL WARMING
My deepest and heartfelt condolences. You're in my prayers.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. What is comforting for me in your time of loss, is that you and Norman were so well grounded. It sounds as if your whole family is, and that tells me that in the grand scheme of eternity, it will be only moments before you are all together in the New Earth to come.
God bless all of you.
I am so sorry to hear about your husband. You do know he is with the Lord now and that will comfort you. Prayers for you, special lady.
Prayers for you and your family, EW. Clearly, your marriage and the way your beloved husband passed were wonderful blessings to you. I pray that the Father will continue to watch over and provide the best for you.
Sorry to hear your Norman went home before you.
You mentioned dancing and I am reminded of Garth Brooks old song "The Dance"
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance
Prayery up.
Prayers for your comfort.
My condoleances and prayers
Sincerest condolences on your loss, and prayers going up for you. God will see you through this.
Prayers will be said.
supertracpak
May God grant you peace and surround you with his love.
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss this weekend...you are in the prayers of many.
Ah, EW, I'm sorry to hear this. You're in my prayers.
Barb, my God comfort you in your time of loss.
I lost the love of my life about 5 years ago....the wonderful memories will sustain you. The strength of your relationship is everlasting. My prayers are with you during your time of need.
Condolences to you and your family.
Lord, may his soul rest in peace and may he gaze upon Your face.
In Christ,
Sursum Corda
I am praying for you and those who are family of Norman to keep on carrying on , in our Lord Jesus Christ!
Norman can now share his prayers with us from Heaven!
God BLess The USA!
Ops4
I am overwhelmed. Please understand that I can't respond personally to all of you, I'm just in no shape to do it. But you each deserve it and have my gratitude. It just moves me to tears.
For over a year, we have been making daily radiation runs. I cannot tell you how difficult that was. Many days, I had to pull him on a rug to the door, get him down three steps and into a wheelchair, only to have to get him in the car while he was screaming in pain. It was heartwrenching. But we did it.
He survived 6 cancers. We had just received a cancer free prognosis! He went in the hospital for tests to see if he could survive surgery so that he could walk again. It was there that they told me his organs were failing from so much radiation and that he probably had 3 to 10 days to live.
The shock of that was just...I can't find the words.
It was then that I finally stopped fighting for his life and gave him permission to go home. He needed that. He fought so bravely and valiantly and I know he fought for me.
That breaks my heart.
I realize now that I have been grieving for a long time..I just didn't know it. I raged against death and fought it with all I had in me. To live without him after 39 years was just inconceivable. We are one.
Now I find a strength to bear the loss. It's precisely because of what we shared that I can go on. I'm amazed. I miss him sorely, but when I do I picture him in health in the light, free of pain, free of the indignities that illness brings. No more tubes or needle bruised arms. No more screaming in pain. No more suffering. He is smiling and walking and leaping. He can run again. He is loved and all is well with his soul. That makes me smile. His new life has a healing quality that blesses my soul.
It is the aftermath that is so cruel. The papers to sign, the confusion concerning...what do I do with this? It comes at a time when you just want to be left alone to cry, to enjoy his new life and reach out to God for life itself and solace from the pain of loss. I miss him. Yet papers descend like an evil snow..in triplicate.
Reality is a terrible thing. It makes me long for the day when all this will pass away and He will remove this hideous system so entrenched in our lives. It strangles and sufficates us. It weighs us down like a millstone around the neck. It is cruel and uncaring....
By the grace of God, I will make it because He and he lives.
I need your prayers to give me strenght to deal with all this. The problems seem unsurmountable.
In the midst of all this, He is with me. He gave me a scripture when I was pouring out my heart to him about the bills and monthly expenses that I can no longer afford. ( I must somehow keep the only financial asset we have left.I lost $1400 per month with his passing..not yet old enough for a widow's pension or electrical assistance, our savings long gone on medical bills.)
But the scriptures gave me hope:
It's from Psalm 68:8-10:
The heavens also dropped rain at the presence of God;
Sinai itself quaked at the presence of God, the God of Israel.
Thou didst shed abroad a plentiful rain, O God;
Thou didst pour rain on thine inheritance when it was parched.
Thy creatures settled in it;
Thou didst provide in Thy goodness for the poor, O God.
He is reassuring me that He will provide the rain I need to survive and prosper. Thankyou Lord.
I don't know from where the help will come, but I know that it will, for He keeps His promises.
He also gave me the Book of Ruth..I've yet to have the peace of mind and time to study it thoroughly, but know it's for me. The names and places all have meaning and I must find what they mean. Any insights from you would be appreciated.
So I ask for your prayers now for me and our children as I attempt to get on with the rest of our lives, that the path will be well marked and His protection wrapped around us.
I thank you all for this outpouring of love. The Body of Christ is a beautiful thing. I am so blessed to be part of it.
God bless each one of you and hold you close. May He rain down his provision on you as well.
Love, Barb
You will have my prayers as well.
You are wise not to try to reply to everyone individually. I think each one of us understands.
Elegy
As bears lie down for winter
As flowers fold at night
As children's voices quiet
In the evening's fading light
As new lights glow in windows
As the gathering dusk grows deep
As sheep in distant fields lie down
And shepherds watch their sleep
As leaves fall from the trees
As snow falls on the ground
As waves wash up on sandy shores
As love is lost and found
As brothers grow to manhood
As sisters' hair turns gray
As evening's cool breezes
Gently nudge the sun away -
Alone we lie in bed at night
Alone to dream our dreams
To walk along the garden path,
Alone in life, it seems.
But even in the darkness,
As the grass collects the dew,
And even in your sadness,
Know
The Shepherd watches you.
-TPW-
2-94
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