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Posted on 11/12/2004 8:42:14 PM PST by MoJo2001
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Find the hatches and batten them DOWN!
The Cowboy's in Town!
**How ya doing?????**
Did you want an honest answer to that question?
Oh oh........
Yeah. Sure! I DO! But make sure you play some Christmas music as you're typing! It does WONDERS for the soul!
hey there!
Long time no see!!!
Ms.B
Oh.......THAT'S nice, Cowboy. I take it back.
No battened down hatches! :)
I'm sorry Grammie...
I wasn't trying to be smart..
Just thought they might have what ya wanted!
Ms.B
India Company, 3rd Battalion, 5th Marine Regiment, 1st Marine Division, this ammo supply found during a raid in Fallujah, Iraq, Nov. 11, 2004. U.S. Marine Corps photo by Lance Cpl. James J. Vooris
Marines of India Company, 3rd Battalion, 5th Marine Regiment, 1st Marine Division, pickup weapons and other items found during a raid in Fallujah, Iraq, Nov. 11, 2004. U.S. Marine Corps photo by Lance Cpl. James J. Vooris
No! You did GREAT! I'm smacking myself up the side of the head for not thinking of it!
Thank you SO MUCH!! And I mean that!
BTW.......Gramps KNOWS I've gone off the deep end now, fer sure. I'm playing the Christmas music...and he just sorta looks at me. (hehe!)
God gave me a frog's croak!
Okay, how am I doing? Well...my "best friend" of 8 years basically thinks I'm scum because she despises President Bush and I support him...but other than that, I'm fine...
Awesome TC!
*HUGS*
How are you doing?
Huh. You are NOT the only one with a frog voice.
That was just BEAUTIFUL!!!! Do you, uh, have any more?
You don't BUY pebbles! You swipe 'em from the neighbor's driveway! ;)
Ack! You know, that's just not right...(in my opinion). We had EIGHT STINKIN' YEARS of Clinton...EIGHT! And we still maintained our cool, didn't we?
Maybe...I don't know for sure...but maybe if she doesn't want to talk anymore (gosh this is tough...) ... is it time for YOU to move on? As painful as it will be?
Gosh, I hate to see you hurt like this!!!!
MS. B!!!!!!!!
Lookie at #334!
FREE PEBBLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That means they have .50 caliber machine guns of some type.
I haven't heard that mentioned.
LOL!!
Well, there ya go!
Ms.B
This is the e-mail she sent me: Kate I want to be your friend too. But I'm just having a lot of trouble dealing with things right now. Since the re-election, at this point it's more my problem than yours. We both said horrible things to each other and I feel like now that you "won" it's easier for you to try to mend things. Politically the tension has eased on your end. But on my end it has intensified severely. I don't really want to get into why, unless you really want me to, because it will just spark another debate. But I have cried almost every day since the re-election. I feel so hopeless and so angry at my country, that half of us could not see what has been going on for the past four years and were not willing to trust change. And that half of that half voted purely on the fact that they were evangelical and wanted a good Christian man in office. It saddens me and it sickens me and I am having a really, really difficult time dealing with it. I'm even seriously considering moving to Europe for a few years when I get out of school because they're recruiting social workers over there since they actually give funds to them. I am sick and depressed and can't handle this. And no matter how I try to think of it, you are linked to it. Just because everything you support is what makes me hate living here, sometimes hate living at all. And that is not your fault, you are absolutely entitled to your beliefs. But it is really difficult for me to face that. I can't even begin to explain how passionate about this I am. Obviously in NYC I have been living in the thick of anti-war protests, in "We the people say NO to the Bush agenda" protests, etc. And the more I feel like our voices are silenced, the angrier and sadder I get.
I love you to death and that will never change. And I know when we get past this point--whether it's because we both calm down further down the road and head more toward a middle point or because the country becomes more united--our friendship will be stronger than ever because we will have made it through. And we can. But the question is how. How do we get through this when we are so passionate on opposite ends. It's not just about political views anymore, at least not for me. It's become my entire way of life, it is involved with every part of who I am now, and I don't think it's possible to put everything that I am aside. I'm too angry and bitter and sad. I feel like "my side" is frustrated as hell for not being heard, and if I try to ignore those issues I'm just perpetuating the silence. I can't ignore for one second how strongly I feel about the state of our nation, and I can't even pretend to. So it's really hard for me to talk to you about normal things. Because first of all, there is nothing in my life right now that isn't connected in some way to that, because it has become such an enormous part of who I am. And second, when I think about you I think about Bush. I can't separate the two, for obvious reasons. So I get really upset, and it's not fair to either of us for me to just be angry in your presence, to just feel so hopeless and upset. To just be crying the whole time I'm with you; not because of you, but because of what you stand for that feels like such a huge weight on me. And I don't expect you to see my side, I don't expect you to change your views. I want you to have beliefs that are just as important to you, whatever they are. I want you to stand for something, and I'm glad you do. But those very things are what add to my misery, to the burdens I feel suffocated by every day.
I know it's hard for you to understand why it has such a tremendous effect on me, but that's not because you aren't just as strong in your beliefs. It's because your side won. So you don't know what this despair is like. Depression, yes, of course, I know you've been through despairing times. But not for this reason. I believe that between the two of us, this situation is unique to me, as is yours to you. For you, there has been a victory. You are relieved. For me, I feel like I am in prison, in hell, for at least four more years. I just can't add one more weight to my shoulders. I already feel like I'm carrying the world. And I can't really explain that, it's just the best way I can describe it.
I feel very fortunate that right now I live in a state that is also very depressed and angry over this. I feel so supported here, like I've never known before. My point is, I love you to death and can never completely abandon what we have. But right now I'm not ready to handle it. Not that I'm not ready to try to think about it or something, but I feel like I am physically incapable of it. I am not in the mental or emotional state to be able to handle it. I'm fighting a breakdown every day as it is. I can't add to it for me, nor can I drag you down with me. I'm just really, really hurting, like I've never felt in my life and cannot fully explain. I will always love you and I look forward to the day when we can truly reconnect on every level. But right now it is not feasible, there is too much pain for me, inflicted by Bush and half of this country, not by you. I am struggling and I am fighting but it's all I can do just to keep my head above water for a bit of air. I am not balanced enough right now to get further than that. I hope you can understand that and I hope you will be there when I find a way to come back from this. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers, as I will you. I love you.
I hate that word...insurgents.
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