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Catholicism made me Protestant
First Things ^ | 9/11/2019 | Onsi A. Kamel

Posted on 09/11/2019 10:52:15 AM PDT by Gamecock

Like all accounts of God’s faithfulness, mine begins with a genealogy. In the late seventeenth century, my mother’s Congregationalist ancestors journeyed to the New World to escape what they saw as England’s deadly compromise with Romanism. Centuries later, ­American Presbyterians converted my father’s great-­grandmother from Coptic ­Orthodoxy to ­Protestantism. Her son became a Presbyterian minister in the Evangelical Coptic Church. By the time my parents were ­living in ­twenty-first-century Illinois, their families’ historic Reformed commitments had been replaced by non-denominational, ­Baptistic ­evangelicalism.

This form of Christianity dominated my Midwestern hometown. My parents taught me to love God, revere the Scriptures, and seek truth through reason. In middle school, my father introduced me to theology, and as a present for my sixteenth birthday he arranged a meeting between me and a Catholic philosopher, Dr. B—. From high school into college, Dr. B— introduced me to Catholic thought and graciously helped me work through my doubts about Christianity. How could a just and loving God not reveal himself equally to everyone? What are we to make of the Bible’s creation stories and flood narrative? Did Calvinism make God the author of evil? My acquaintance with Dr. B— set my intellectual trajectory for several years.

The causes of any conversion (or near conversion) are many and confused. Should I foreground psychological and social factors or my theological reasoning? Certain elements of my attraction to Catholicism were adolescent, like a sixties radical’s attraction to Marx or a contemporary activist’s to intersectionality: I aimed to preserve the core beliefs of my upbringing while fleeing their bourgeois expressions. When I arrived at the University of Chicago, I knew just enough about Calvinism to hold it in ­contempt—which is to say, I knew very little. Reacting against the middle-aged leaders of the inaptly named “Young, Restless, and Reformed Movement,” I sought refuge in that other great ­Western ­theological tradition: ­Roman ­Catholicism.

During my first year of college, I became involved in campus Catholic life. Through the influence of the Catholic student group and the Lumen Christi Institute, which hosts lectures by Catholic intellectuals, my theologically inclined college friends began converting to Catholicism, one after another. These friends were devout, intelligent, and schooled in Christian history. I met faithful and holy Catholic priests—one of whom has valiantly defended the faith for years, drawing punitive opposition from his own religious superiors, as well as the ire of Chicago’s archbishop. This priest was and is to me the very model of a holy, righteous, and courageous man.

I loved Catholicism because Catholics taught me to love the Church. At Lumen Christi events, I heard about saints and mystics, stylites and monastics, desert fathers and late-antique theologians. I was captivated by the holy martyrs, relics, Mary, and the Mass. I found in the Church a spiritual mother and the mother of all the faithful. Through Catholicism, I came into an inheritance: a past of saints and redeemed sinners from all corners of the earth, theologians who illuminated the deep things of God, music and art that summon men to worship God “in the beauty of holiness,” and a tradition to ground me in a world of flux.

Catholicism, which I took to be the Christianity of history, was a world waiting to be discovered. I set about exploring, and I tried to bring others along. I debated tradition with my mother, sola Scriptura with my then fiancée (now wife), and the meaning of the Eucharist with my father. On one occasion, a Reformed professor dispensed with my arguments for transubstantiation in a matter of minutes.

Not long after this, I began to notice discrepancies between Catholic apologists’ map of the tradition and the terrain I encountered in the tradition itself. St. Ambrose’s doctrine of justification sounded a great deal more like Luther’s sola fide than like Trent. St. John Chrysostom’s teaching on repentance and absolution—“Mourn and you annul the sin”—would have been more at home in Geneva than Paris. St. Thomas’s doctrine of predestination, much to my horror, was nearly identical to the Synod of Dordt’s. The Anglican divine Richard Hooker quoted Irenaeus, ­Chrysostom, ­Augustine, and Pope Leo I as he rejected doctrines and practices because they were not grounded in Scripture. He cited Pope Gregory the Great on the “­ungodly” title of universal bishop. The Council of ­Nicaea assumed that Alexandria was on a par with Rome, and Chalcedon declared that the Roman patriarchate was privileged only “because [Rome] was the royal city.” In short, I began to wonder whether the Reformers had a legitimate claim to the Fathers. The Church of Rome could not be straightforwardly identified as catholic.

John Henry Newman became my crucial interlocutor: More than in Ratzinger, Wojtyła, or Congar, in Newman I found a kindred spirit. Here was a man obsessed with the same questions that ate at me, questions of tradition and authority. With Newman, I agonized over conversion. I devoured his Essay on the Development of Christian Doctrine and his Apologia pro Vita Sua. Two of his ideas were pivotal for me: his theory of doctrinal development and his articulation of the problem of private judgment. On these two ideas hung all the claims of Rome.

In retrospect, I see that Newman’s need to construct a theory of doctrinal development tells against Rome’s claims of continuity with the ancient Church. And at the time, though I wished to accept Newman’s proposal that “the early condition, and the evidence, of each doctrine . . . ought consistently to be interpreted by means of that development which was ultimately attained,” I could not. One could only justify such assumptions if one were already committed to Roman Catholic doctrine and Rome’s meaningful continuity with what came before. Without either of these commitments, I simply could not find a plausible reason to speak of “development” rather than “disjuncture,” especially because what came before so often contradicted what followed.

The issue of ecclesiastical authority was trickier for me. I recognized the absurdity of a twenty-year-old presuming to adjudicate claims about the Scriptures and two thousand years of history. Newman’s arguments against private judgment therefore had a prima facie plausibility for me. In his Apologia, Newman argues that man’s rebellion against God introduced an “anarchical condition of things,” leading human thought toward “suicidal excesses.” Hence, the fittingness of a divinely established living voice infallibly proclaiming supernatural truths. In his discourse on “Faith and Private Judgment,” Newman castigates Protestants for refusing to “surrender” reason in matters religious. The implication is that reason is unreliable in matters of revelation. Faith is assent to the incontestable, self-evident truth of God’s revelation, and reasoning becomes an excuse to refuse to bend the knee.

The more I internalized ­Newman’s claims about private judgment, however, the more I descended into skepticism. I could not reliably interpret the Scriptures, history, or God’s Word preached and given in the sacraments. But if I could not do these things, if my reason was unfit in matters religious, how was I to assess Newman’s arguments for Roman Catholicism? Newman himself had once recognized this dilemma, writing in a pre-conversion letter, “We have too great a horror of the principle of private judgment to trust it in so immense a matter as that of changing from one communion to another.” Did he expect me to forfeit the faculty by which I adjudicate truth claims, because that faculty is fallible? My ­conversion would have to be rooted in my private ­judgment—but, because of Rome’s claim of infallibility, conversion would forbid me from exercising that faculty ever again on doctrinal questions.

Finally, the infighting among traditionalist, conservative, and liberal Catholics made plain that Catholics did not gain by their magisterium a clear, living voice of divine authority. They received from the past a set of magisterial documents that had to be weighed and interpreted, often over against living prelates. The ­magisterium of prior ages only multiplied the texts one had to interpret for oneself, for living bishops, it turns out, are as bad at reading as the rest of us.

But I did not remain a Protestant merely because I could not become a Catholic. While I was discovering that Roman Catholicism could not be straightforwardly identified with the catholicism of the first six centuries (nor, in certain respects, with that of the seventh century through the twelfth), and as I was wrestling with Newman, I finally began reading the Reformers. What I found shocked me. Catholicism had, by this time, reoriented my theological concerns around the concerns of the Church catholic. My assumptions, and the issues that animated me, were those of the Church of history. My evangelical upbringing had led me to believe that Protestantism entailed the rejection of these concerns. But this notion exploded upon contact with the Protestantism of history.

Martin Luther, John Calvin, Richard Hooker, Herman Bavinck, Karl Barth—they wrestled with the concerns of the Church catholic and provided answers to the questions Catholicism had taught me to pose. Richard Hooker interpreted the Church’s traditions; Calvin followed Luther’s Augustinianism, proclaimed the visible Church the mother of the faithful, and claimed for the Reformation the Church’s exegetical tradition; Barth convinced me that God’s Word could speak, certainly and surely, from beyond all created realities, to me.

Catholicism had taught me to think like a Protestant, because, as it turned out, the Reformers had thought like catholics. Like their pope-aligned opponents, they had asked questions about justification, the authority of tradition, the mode of Christ’s self-gift in the Eucharist, the nature of apostolic succession, and the Church’s wielding of the keys. Like their opponents, Protestants had appealed to Scripture and tradition. In time, I came to find their answers not only plausible, but more faithful to Scripture than the Catholic answers, and at least as well-represented in the traditions of the Church.

The Protestants did more than out-catholic the Catholics. They also spoke to the deepest needs of sinful souls. I will never forget the moment when, like Luther five hundred years earlier, I discovered justification by faith alone through union with Christ. I was sitting in my dorm room by myself. I had been assigned Luther’s Explanations of the Ninety-Five ­Theses, and I expected to find it facile. A year or two prior, I had decided that Trent was right about justification: It was entirely a gift of grace consisting of the gradual perfecting of the soul by faith and works—God instigating and me cooperating. For years, I had attempted to live out this model of justification. I had gone to Mass regularly, prayed the rosary with friends, fasted frequently, read the Scriptures daily, prayed earnestly, and sought advice from spiritual directors. I had begun this arduous cooperation with God’s grace full of hope; by the time I sat in that dorm room alone, I was distraught and demoralized. I had learned just how wretched a sinner I was: No good work was unsullied by pride, no repentance unaccompanied by expectations of future sin, no love free from selfishness.

In this state, I picked up my copy of that arch-heretic Luther and read his explanation of Thesis 37: “Any true Christian, whether living or dead, participates in all the blessings of Christ and the church; and this is granted him by God, even without indulgence letters.” With these words, Luther transformed my understanding of justification: Every Christian possesses Christ, and to possess Christ is to possess all of Christ’s righteousness, life, and merits. Christ had joined me to himself.

I had “put on Christ” in baptism and, by faith through the work of the Spirit, all things were mine, and I was Christ’s, and Christ was God’s (Gal. 3:27; 1 Cor. 3:21–23). His was not an uncertain mercy; his was not a grace of parts, which one hoped would become a whole; his was not a salvation to be attained, as though it were not already also a present possession. At that moment, the joy of my salvation poured into my soul. I wept and showed forth God’s praise. I had finally discovered the true ground and power of Protestantism: “My beloved is mine, and I am his” (Song 2:16).

Rome had brought me to ­Reformation.


TOPICS: Catholic; Evangelical Christian; General Discusssion; Mainline Protestant
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To: MHGinTN

Okay, so you think the words of Jesus are a strawman.
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So now you’re claiming to be Jesus? I suspected you might be possessed, but that’s really over the top!


681 posted on 09/15/2019 6:24:21 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: terycarl
>>Rome's Bible wasn't declared dogmatically until the Council of Trent.<<

maybe, but it was in the process of being written, thus existed, long before then......and it's still about 1,100 years before there was even one Protestant....

There is no maybe.

It was at Trent (1546) when Rome dogmatically proclaimed their Bible.

682 posted on 09/15/2019 6:28:16 PM PDT by ealgeone
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
But didn’t James say faith without works is dead?

Adding works to intellectual assent is not going to save anyone.

Saving faith is one that produces works as the natural outflow of the work of the Holy Spirit in the person's life.

683 posted on 09/15/2019 6:28:57 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
Oh well. We will all see soon enough who will be saved and who will be burned. Good luck!

That’s about the only thing you have said that I agree with. I, of course, STRONGLY disagree with my Irish Catholic ancestors. You are right. We will all know soon enough, who will be saved, and who will burn. Good luck with that.

684 posted on 09/15/2019 6:29:41 PM PDT by Mark17 (Once saved, always saved. I do not care if some do not like that. It will NEVER be my problem)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat; imardmd1
If you don’t mind I think I will rely on more reliable sources regarding an understanding of what “the will of the Father” is.

Is Jesus good enough?

John 6:40 For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.”

685 posted on 09/15/2019 6:31:25 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: Iscool

+1


686 posted on 09/15/2019 6:32:55 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: metmom
Salvation is about Jesus being the substitutionary sacrifice for our sins, Him taking the punishment for our sins so that we don't have to.

Osama Bin Laden will be glad to hear that...…..sigh

687 posted on 09/15/2019 6:33:32 PM PDT by terycarl (Notre Dame was God's way of pointing out that France has fallen from His favor....)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat; MHGinTN
MHGinTN:For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.”

ffj:Setting up a straw man again, I see, because nothing I’ve stated is in conflict with this teaching. You people are always using the misdirection ploy to avoid what you are not able to refute. Shameful!

A STRAWMAN?????

Those are the words of JESUS Himself. And you're calling it a STRAWMAN???????

688 posted on 09/15/2019 6:35:02 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat
Well how come there are literally hundreds of Christian religious sects, dividing and multiplying daily, squabbling and denouncing one another over their understanding of the Scriptures?

I don't see a lot of denouncing each other.

On the contrary, I've seen a lot of non-Catholic churches in our area coming together and praying for our city.

People go to different denominations for different reasons and I do not ever hear from the pulpit pastors bad mouthing other denominations.

How many of these things have you heard yourself? When and where?

689 posted on 09/15/2019 6:37:59 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: MHGinTN
The poster is incapable of seeing self in the light of Truth found in the Word of God. ‘If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!’

Correct. There is no sense in even continuing to discuss it with him. 👍 See you in the clouds bro.

690 posted on 09/15/2019 6:38:44 PM PDT by Mark17 (Once saved, always saved. I do not care if some do not like that. It will NEVER be my problem)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat; Iscool
The key is understanding what “believe on him” means”, so if you think you know that, tell us what it means.

Here, John describes it.

John 1:10-13 He was in the world, and the world was made through him, yet the world did not know him. He came to his own, and his own people did not receive him. But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.

691 posted on 09/15/2019 6:39:35 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: 2nd amendment mama
Do you even proofread what you write? Millions of Bibles in every country in the middle ages? Liar!!!

The sentence was misleading....by the 1600's there were many many bibles SPREAD throughout every country....not millions in each country and they were read by those who could read and were either in the homes of the very wealthy or libraries, or Catholic organizations or palaces.....but there were a lot of them. When Gutenburg invented the printing press, they became available to almost anyone who wanted one.

692 posted on 09/15/2019 6:41:17 PM PDT by terycarl (Notre Dame was God's way of pointing out that France has fallen from His favor....)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat; Luircin
Another example of setting up a straw man since I have never said anything about earning salvation through works. That said, anyone who fails to do the will of the Father as is clearly revealed throughout the Scriptures will not enter the kingdom of heaven.

You just contradicted yourself.

What you describe here IS earning salvation by works, because if you don't do the works you don't get the salvation.

You just said so right here yourself.

693 posted on 09/15/2019 6:42:35 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: Luircin

Are you depending on your works to save you, or the grace of God?
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Actually I’m depending on YOU to save me since obviously God has selected you for that commission! But meanwhile, just to be sure of my salvation, I will rely on God’s grace AND continue to conduct myself in accordance with His will, i.e., doing the “works” He has clearly set forth for Christians to do in the divinely inspired Scriptures!


694 posted on 09/15/2019 6:47:07 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: MHGinTN
You have not been reading all the posts to you. I dealt with your misinterpretation of James.

When I was a catholic, so MANY decades ago, I was led to believe that I needed a priest to interpret the scriptures for me. I can see, from reading all these posts, that most of these Catholics don’t believe they need a priest to interpret scripture for them. Lots of catholic YOPIOS going on here. I disagree with most of it, but it is happening nonetheless. 😁👊

I hate to keep saying it, but see you in the clouds bro. 😁

695 posted on 09/15/2019 6:49:05 PM PDT by Mark17 (Once saved, always saved. I do not care if some do not like that. It will NEVER be my problem)
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To: MHGinTN; Luircin; imardmd1; Iscool; Mark17; aMorePerfectUnion; 2nd amendment mama; boatbums; ...
What is missing in all these discussions about works and faith is the Catholic's understanding of the new birth and the new nature.

Catholicism focuses on the works and the outward activities, and has no concept of receiving a new nature through the new birth, on that does not want to sin, one that wants to please God, one that is Christlike and Spirit directed.

It is beyond their comprehension that someone could be born again and not know it.

When that change comes into your life, it's unfathomable. They seem to think that intellectual assent with their works added to avoid hellfire is equivalent to saving faith that makes a new creation out of a person.

2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

And Romans 7 describes the struggle with sin that we all have.

696 posted on 09/15/2019 6:49:41 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: 2nd amendment mama; Iscool
I'm misinformed that millions of people had their own bibles in the middle ages? Handwritten at that?

I did not say that millions of people had their own bible...I said there were millions on Earth (slight exaggeration) and yes, they were hand written so very costly

697 posted on 09/15/2019 6:53:42 PM PDT by terycarl (Notre Dame was God's way of pointing out that France has fallen from His favor....)
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To: Mark17
Do you know ANY catholics who have assurance of salvation?

They can't.

If they claim they do then they are told they have committed the sin of presumption which instantly disqualifies them from that salvation>

What a Catch 22.

So they spend all kinds of time trying to convince people that they are not really saved, just like they are.

I know when I was Catholic and a friend's sister got saved, we just hated it. She was such a goody two shoes, showing off how spiritual she was and mad about her arrogance that she thought she was so good that she would get into heaven.

And jealousy was behind all of that feeling and thought. I wished I could live a good enough life to get into heaven and knew I couldn't so we were angry and gave her the worst time about it.

698 posted on 09/15/2019 6:53:55 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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To: metmom

You just said so right here yourself.
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You’re either a slow learner or a very devious individual. Do yourself a spiritual service and read Matthew 7:21 a few dozen times until its teaching becomes clear to you!


699 posted on 09/15/2019 6:54:57 PM PDT by fortes fortuna juvat (Bad guys will enslave or exterminate good guys who acquiesce.)
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To: fortes fortuna juvat; MHGinTN
mhgintn; Okay, so you think the words of Jesus are a strawman.

ffj: So now you’re claiming to be Jesus? I suspected you might be possessed, but that’s really over the top!

Those are the very words of Jesus recorded in Scripture of that the entire world to see and read.

He's not making anything up.

John 6:40 For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.”

700 posted on 09/15/2019 6:57:17 PM PDT by metmom ( ...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith...)
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