I experienced something similar with my brother who was also my best friend. Lung cancer that changed him before he was actually taken away. Don’t expect to feel ‘normal’ again for awhile. It is going on two years and my sister and I both mentioned the other day that only now do we feel like we can even begin to enjoy life again. And I firmly believe in Christ. But such losses are huge and create such giant wounds that they take a long time to heal. The scar remains forever, tho. God bless!
I constantly have spirits approach me to pass a message on to the loved ones they left behind. The message is usually, “Tell them that everything is ok.”
I used to clear them out of houses. In a good way,
Thanks dubyagee. I’ve had the thought in the back of my mind that I will just give it a year to feel better. Looks like I better extend the time frame...
Right now, the pain is pretty bad as he was diagnosed last October. Everything about this time of year, early sunsets and such, reminds me of last October. I’m absolutely dreading the Christmas season as he died December 17th.
It doesn’t help that my mom is now in assisted living as my dad was her main caregiver. We tried having her live with us but she is wheelchair bound and I’m not physically large enough to lift her. She’s pretty bitter about that and lives in the land of denial regarding her own grief.
I’ve decided that I need to concentrate on my own mental health before I can begin to help her.
My condolences on the passing of your brother and thanks again for sharing your story with me.