Posted on 04/24/2011 6:34:14 PM PDT by Mary Kochan
This is my 17th Easter.
For the first 38 years of my life I did not celebrate Easter because I was one of Jehovah’s Witnesses, a pseudo- Christian group with a very strange economy of salvation. It is not easy to describe life in a cult like Jehovah’s Witnesses. It is very dark. Even their light is darkness.
Jehovah’s Witnesses do not believe in the Trinity, so they do not believe in the deity of Christ. They believe that Jesus was Michael the Archangel before he came to earth, and that after he was resurrected, he went back to being Michael the Archangel — but with the name “Jesus.” They do believe Jesus died (but not on a cross) to save mankind from sin and death by atoning for the disobedience of Adam. Jesus had to be a perfect man, to match Adam in every respect, and thus he takes Adam’s place as our father. I know this is weird — not to mention the whole ontological problem of how he is an angel, then a human, and then an angel again — but I’m telling you about it because I want you to know that I had an idea that I could call myself a Christian and believe Jesus died for me, without conceiving of Jesus as God.
Most of you reading this are like my grandchildren who have heard all their lives that Jesus died for you and that Jesus is God the Son –- true God from true God. It has never dawned on you, because it was always the light that you lived in.
But it dawned on me.
In 1993, after a long and harrowing period of life disruption, searching for the peace and transformative power that I read about in the New Testament, I had an encounter with Christ.
Long my imprisoned spirit lay, Fast bound in sin and nature’s night; Thine eye diffused a quickening ray— I woke, the dungeon flamed with light; My chains fell off, my heart was free, I rose, went forth, and followed Thee.
I did not know then that he was Deity, but I knew that he was not who the Jehovah’s Witnesses said he was. I knew that I would have to leave the religion that I had grown up in and known all my life. I would have to walk away from every relationship of my adult life. I went to a church.
Now to you, that might seem like the most natural thing in the world for me to do. You want to know about Jesus, you go to a church. But for me it was terrifying. I had always been told that churches housed demons. Jehovah’s Witnesses do not even like to turn their cars around in a church parking lot. But that visit to a church set me on the road to learning the truth about Jesus. It became pretty clear, pretty quickly that Christians worshiped Jesus. The fundamental fact of my religious upbringing had been that you only worshiped God (Jehovah), who is Jesus’ father. To worship anything or anyone else was to be guilty of idolatry. But there was a tractor beam on my heart. I had to figure out who Jesus really was.
Having left what I recognized to be a religion of error, I was very leery about falling into error or being misled once again. But I knew that I had to open my mind to the witness and the arguments of Christians around me in order to untwist the distorted way I had learned to read scripture.
A humorous skit put on one time at a meeting of ex-Jehovah’s Witnesses illustrated what I was facing. It featured a “Christian” trying to “help” a recently-exited Witness. When the ex-JW expressed confusion about Christian doctrine, the Christian said, “Oh, it’s easy. Just believe everything the opposite.”
“What are you talking about?” the baffled ex-JW asked.
“Well, you didn’t used to believe in the Trinity, and now you do. You didn’t used to believe in the deity of Christ, and now you do. You didn’t used to believe in the immortal soul, and now you do. You didn’t used to believe in going to heaven, and now you do. You didn’t used to believe in celebrating Christmas, and now you do. See, everything is the opposite. It’s easy.”
The appreciative laughter with which this was greeted gave testament to the fact that it is not easy! And the more you care, really care, about the truth, the harder your struggle is. If you have always lived in the truth, you can’t imagine how hard it is.
For a while I lived in a partial shadow. I was in love with Jesus, but still didn’t know what to make of all the Christian adoration of Him? How could I explain this phenomenon if he were not God?
I found some relief by latching onto the biblical image of the Church as the Bride of Christ. After all, what would be more natural than for a bride to be focused on her bridegroom? Of course Christians sang love songs to Jesus! It was the Jehovah’s Witnesses who were strange — like a bride who ignored her groom and tried to give all her affection to her father-in-law instead.
Meanwhile, I was participating in Christian prayer and worship to the best of my limited understanding. I also asked questions, and I studied… and studied and studied. Finally I was turned on to reading the Early Church Fathers. It started to became clear to me that this teaching — that Jesus was Divine, was God in the flesh — was really Christian teaching from the beginning, was the apostolic witness.
There was just one problem left in my mind: If Jesus was God, then that man on the Cross was God.
It would mean that God had died.
It would mean that God had died… for me.
For all time, there will be no more astounding, no more elevating, no more humbling proposal to a human soul than this.
And can it be that I should gain an interest in the Savior’s blood! Died he for me — who caused his pain – For me who him to death pursued? Amazing love! How can it be that thou, my God, shouldst die for me?
He left his Father’s throne above (so free, so infinite his grace!), emptied himself of all but love, and bled for Adam’s helpless race. ’Tis mercy all, immense and free, for O my God, it found out me!
Amazing love! How can it be that thou, my God, shouldst die for me?
The sun had come up in my life.
[The lyrics are from the hymn, "And Can it Be (Amazing Love)", by Charles Wesley.
To understand the Light one has found, they must sometimes testify about the shadows from whence they came....
I’m sure that you don’t mean to sound judgemental...Do you?
The fate of one’s immortal soul, and of the souls of one neighbors, is a far more crucial matter than describing the character of a former girl friend.
Have you considered becoming a Baptist? You avoid paganism; plus, we have pot-luck meals!
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“And Can It Be” is an outstanding hymn that encapsulates the Christian message in song!
I did consider it. Thank you for the invite — you wouldn’t be a good Baptist if you didn’t make it. Let us together praise our Savior while our Easter joy is still fresh in our hearts. We can argue another time. God love and keep you.
“You avoid paganism; ...”
I have a huge respect for my true Baptist friends, they are as sound Biblically as a non Catholic can be. In that light, what do you mean “paganism”?
Yes, it is wonderful. I learned it at a Methodist church. I love the Wesleyian hymns.
God bless you and guide you, sweet sister!
Thanks for posting this Mary, it was very interesting and I didn’t find that it was “running down” any religion at all. It was very informative. I didn’t know some of the things you listed about the religion of your youth. We had a very small JW group in our small town when I was a kid. Where I live now, we get an unwelcome visit once a year or so from another group of them.
Tell me, is it true that when the person whose home they are approaching, doesn’t want to talk with them, isn’t that some kind of badge of honor or proof to them that they are the chosen ones and not us non-Witnesses? I’ve always wondered that, and I must have heard it somewhere in the past.
Welcome to the fold Mary! God Bless you!
Compare the Catholic pantheon of saints to any culture’s pantheon of gods.
Saints are any and all saved in heaven - how is that either a “pantheon” or “paganism”? Is the the communion of saints not part of the Apostles Creed?
We Christians in this country can talk about our faith openly in ways that are the envy of many of our persecuted brothers and sisters around the world — so we’d better do it!
A "Saint" is one who suffers for God.
A "Saint" does not need a Papal Decree to be a "Saint."
Happy Easer and Peace be with you! I was raised a Jehovah’s Witness and have been baptised and confirmed in the Catholic Faith as well...just this Holy Saturday. It has been an exhilarationg journey to say the least and I am confident in my dedication to my savior. I, too, was quite confused that Jesus was not worshipped as God even though he laid down his life, sent for just that purpose, and yet JWs deny his gift to us. Here’s a question though....JWs believe that Jesus was crucified on a stake not a cross. Is there any documentation that criminals were condemned to death on a stake? I have read about people being crucified on a cross not a stake. Is it anywhere in written history? I think that Russell and the other founding JWs were fast and loose with the facts.
“A “Saint” does not need a Papal Decree to be a “Saint.””
Even the Pope agrees, how then are Saints “pagan”?
When people are rude to them at the door, they consider that to be “persecution” and yes, they think that is a mark that they have the truth. Actually though, they are often rude and obnoxioius to people and they are often pushy, prompting a negative reaction, which they are very proud of. It is kind of perverse.
A couple of things though:
1. I really think that every Christian should try to be as loving to them as possible — that’s what we are called to.
2. Remember that although they look zealous — they really are not; they are driven. Going door-to-door is reqired of them and they have to report to their local elders how much time they spend doing so each month.
3. If you are a strong Christian and you can detain them by inviting them in, giving them some refreshment and talking to them, you kill two birds with one stone: you show them the love of Christ AND you keep them from visitng someone they might mislead.
Of course I'm judgmental. So are you. So is everybody. If you say you're not judgmental you're either delusional or a liar. I would prefer to believe you're delusional. You're not a liar...Are you?
First off, we weren’t talking about me, we were talking about you.
Second, you sure seem to be trying to pick a fight, and on Easter Sunday...shame on you.
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