This was my morning meditation: Job 31:7 if my steps have turned from the path, if my heart has been led by my eyes, or if my hands have been defiled, 8 then may others eat what I have sown, and may my crops be uprooted.
***Busy day — just fired my spiritual director who offered no help with a family issue. She accused me of bearing false witness about my seeming irrational behavior. My wife is now my spiritual director. I dislike pastors who tear families apart for control of the soul.***
Dave; you have testified here about your behaviour. Do you not also remember 1 Timothy 2:
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3 It is my wish, then, that in every place the men should pray, lifting up holy hands, without anger or argument.
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Similarly, (too,) women should adorn themselves with proper conduct, with modesty and self-control, not with braided hairstyles and gold ornaments, or pearls, or expensive clothes,
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but rather, as befits women who profess reverence for God, with good deeds.
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A woman must receive instruction silently and under complete control.
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I do not permit a woman to teach or to have authority over a man. 4 She must be quiet.
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For Adam was formed first, then Eve.
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Further, Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and transgressed.
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But she will be saved through motherhood, provided women persevere in faith and love and holiness, with self-control.
If you are seemingly irrational, it is not meet to allow your wife to be your spiritual director. I pray that you turn from Job to Paul but yet consider both. You may not be yet upon the Via of Christ.