I AM A LUCKY MAN (Rush Deafness Announcement Transcript)

I had intended to start today's program telling you what I'm about to tell you. The outbreak of our attack on Osama bin Laden made it necessary to deal with that and bring everybody up to speed first on that, and to place that in perspective. But I have, throughout my career - at least as far as this program is concerned, now into its 14th year - have been as up front and candid with all of you, first, as possible. This as opposed to, say, calling a press conference to announce something or doing it in some other way.

The relationship that I have always enjoyed with you is one I consider to be familial. I see evidence of it each and every time I venture out in public, and I've been overawed by that. I will never take it for granted. And around Christmastime and Thanksgiving time, I always try to make an effort to express my gratitude and thanks for how much your support has meant. Because so many people have told me over the course of the years how much this show has meant to them, because, when it started, there was nothing like it in the national media.

There were all sorts of liberal talk shows, both TV and radio, but they were at night, and the people who think as you and I do had to endure being laughed at and made fun of and impugned on a daily basis. And finally, here came a guy, Rush Limbaugh, who didn't tell you what to think but simply reflected what you already thought, what you already believed. He validated what you already thought and believed.

That made you feel confident, and you relished the fact that the show was there, and you made no bones about expressing that. There was never any market research. We didn't survey the market before the program started and say, "What's missing out there," and try to fill the void, and then come up with decisions. "Hey, there's no conservatism in national radio. Let's go do that."

That's not at all what happened. We just decided to try something, based on a passion, and do it - and the passion to do it continues. That's the first thing that I want you to understand. The passion to get up every day - I talked a moment ago about pursuing happiness, and how I was going to be mentioning this a lot in the coming days and weeks. Well, I've been doing a lot of soul-searching this past summer because of some things that have happened to me, that have caused me to redefine what's meaningful and what is happy and important and what's not.

Simply put, I noticed on the 29th of May - I'll never forget the date - that I could not hear anything in my left ear. So I went to the doctor. They assumed it was earwax, (as they always do; I'm 50 years old) and took my oral history and found out that there's some genetic hearing loss in my family, and immediately chalked it up to that. The bottom line is, from May 29th up until about, I'd say, ten days ago, I lost hearing every five days, to the point, ladies and gentlemen, I'm now totally deaf in my left ear.

I cannot hear a thing in my left ear. Hearing aids, the most powerful made, mean nothing. I have the ability to recognize sound but not identify it in my right ear. I cannot communicate with people. I can occasionally talk to people in person one on one if their voice frequency happens to fit the range that I can still hear, but I cannot hear radio; I cannot hear television; I cannot hear music. I am, for all practical purposes, deaf - and it's happened in three months.

I have been to what I learned were the finest doctors and clinics throughout the country, focusing on one, and every effort has been made to stabilize the loss, with the hope of restoring it. No success has been reported, in either stabilizing it or ... restoring it. Now, all during this summer, the loss, even though rapid - by the middle of July, for example, I was told that from the end of May to the middle of July I had lost what the average person loses in 15 years, in terms of hearing. Hearing aids are of such improved quality today that they accommodated the loss.

My hearing wasn't normal, but I could function. I could have one-on-one conversations. I could do everything but listen to music. Music was just a mass of noise. I was unable to hear it. I still don't know music. I haven't been able to recognize a song I'm hearing since the middle of July. I have been able, though, to get powerful enough hearing aids to where I can communicate one on one with people and, up until about ten days ago, was able to listen to things on radio and TV.

But I can no longer do that, and the odds are that within another month or so, if the pattern keeps up, I will be entirely deaf - 100% - and at that point, a decision has to be made as to what to do about it, because my desire is to continue doing this, and there are an infinite number of ways of continuing. I mean, I'm doing this program today, ladies and gentlemen, in effect, total deafness. I have taken two phone calls today, and have not heard a word any of the callers said to me.

I'm not going to explain to you how we're doing this. Put two and two together, if you wish, but as long as the passion exists to do it, then we'll find a way. I'm at that point now. This is where I am. What do I do about it? Now, I've been luckier than most people will ever be in life. I can retire if I wanted to and not suffer. I don't have a worry in the world when it comes to finances. That's how fortunate I've been, and as such, I have options.

That's, again, getting back to what I was referring to earlier when I talked about all the options that we as a free people have. I can still, even with this, get up, and if I want to, with the help of other people, come in here and do this radio program. I can do this radio program every day without taking a phone call, if I have to - and in my mind, still out rate 99% of the people who do it.

Or, if I want to take phone calls, we'll find a way to do that. In fact, we already have. That's what I was doing all last week was rehearsing ways in which to conduct this program in a way that would allow me to perform in such a way that it would meet and hopefully continue to surpass the expectations that you have.

So that's my challenge. How to structure this in such a way as to continue to be able to do it at the highest levels - my desire, my expectations, and yours - without dwelling on the loss. It's happened, and...there are things that are being done. You would not believe the medication that is flowing through me in an attempt to reverse this. There is a theory as to what's happening, but I'm going to keep that to myself. It is not genetic. There's something more going on than that. I have been through every conceivable medical test and exam this summer you can imagine.

All those times that you thought I was on vacation or playing golf, I've been in an MRI machine or getting blood drawn, or on a stress EKG machine or at a cardiologist - wherever - hearing aid doctor, the hearing doctor, where have you. The only thing that is really going to change is that I may have to be absent a day here and a day there, more so than I would like, just in order to see the doctors.

Now, if it eventuates that the medication that is literally - I mean, I'm popping pills [and] I'm shooting up stuff. I've never done stuff like this before. If this stuff doesn't work, then there is one other option that is relatively new, but it's not something that has been done enough to where a pattern has been established to say that it's acceptable. There's always the last resort - the cochlear implant. It's the last thing they do, because it's irreversible. Once you do that, you're finished, and if it doesn't work, then nothing they can do to go back and put you back the way you were.

So you must wait until you are entirely deaf for approval for this. I mean, the FDA even gets involved in this, because it's surgery which involves the brain. I have not yet spoken to people who have received cochlear implants, but I've talked to a number of doctors who say that it would be an improvement over the situation I'm in now. To describe for you the way I hear things now, I understand what I'm saying -, but I think it's more because I know what I'm going to say, rather than I'm actually hearing it.

I feel it. I feel the vocal vibrations in my skull, but in terms of actually hearing what I say, I don't really know if I am or not. Other people, depending on their voice range, if they're loud and speak slowly enough and are close enough to me, then I can hear them, but this is relatively new. The past ten days, it's been this case. Ten days ago [and] two weeks ago, I was able to conduct a normal conversation, just a couple of times, "Say that again, please?" But now it's deteriorated to the point that, for all clinical, practical purposes, if I take the right-side hearing aid out, I do not hear a single thing - zip, zero, nada.

I don't hear smoke alarms, and you know how loud they are. I've tested the loudest things that I could find to see if I hear them, and I don't. Now, I do hear certain sound frequencies. I hear myself walking on a concrete floor. I hear the toilet handle flush now and then. But when it comes to the human voice, I hear not enough to have any kind of a productive conversation with anybody. That doesn't mean that I cannot continue to do what I love doing here. It's just a matter of finding out how and the best way to do it.

Now, one other thing here before I go to commercial break. I know a lot of you are sending e-mails about my voice, and I know that a good percentage of them are what I call seminar e-mails because you are so far off track, you've got to be making it up. Somebody's got to be telling you what to say. "Rush, I hadn't listened to you for four months, and all of a sudden, you sound like you're Bill Buckley all the time." Or "Rush, I haven't heard you in six months, and you sound very pompous."

That's just flat-out BS, but there are some people who are writing who are saying your voice pitch is lower, or you sound like you're speaking slower than normal, what have you. My friends, it could well be that my voice is changing. I don't know. I cannot hear myself well enough to know. As far as I'm concerned, my voice is as normal as it's ever been. My energy level is as normal as it's ever been. And when we were in rehearsals last week out in Los Angeles, we discovered, in fact, that some of the people in the rehearsal were also concerned about the voice quality, and they were stunned as how normal I sounded last week.

So we're looking at technical things. Is there something in our technical circuitry, in the connections from here to New York, to wherever our signal goes to get the program to you that's causing some of these fluctuations to take place, in addition to whatever may be happening with my voice? But as far as today is concerned, everybody that's surrounding me tells me I sound as normal as I always have when they're in the room with me, that there's no change whatsoever today.

We have made some technological changes, because people have been complaining about the lower octave, so I think we've made some minor changes to raise the pitch of the voice electronically today as were trying to figure out what's going on but as far as I'm concerned there's no change, it's very frustrating my voice is my voice and I'm not trying to change it in any way, shape, manner, or form. Got to take a break here because of the length of time in the opening segment. We'll be back and continue in a moment.

It's no pressure. Is that Billy Joel? I thought it was. That's Billy Joel? That's no pressure. Nice try, Mammone, but that's no pressure. Mammone, the broadcast engineer. See, folks. This is my whole point. This is not pressure, and it is why I posted on my website the little statement I did after our attack yesterday. It's why I reread it again today. You really have to keep things in perspective when you are fortunate enough to live in this country.

You know, whatever malady befalls people in this country, there are - look, there are a lot of people worse off than I am, especially since September the 11th. And I cannot sit here and in any way compare myself to people who have lost their lives or lost body parts or have suffered really tragic injuries in the effort to save others. This is just one of those things that happens. It happens with 10% of the people in the country.

As I say, my challenge is - I want to do this. I want to keep doing this. So the challenge is to find a way, and there are any number of ways of doing it. I'm not going to get into the various ways of going about it, but there are infinite, infinite ways of keeping this program alive, in present form or in some other form. And that's what most of last week was spent doing, in fact, various forms of rehearsal, discussion, broadcast partners, that kind of thing - and, of course, just a self-examination.

I've got to make sure that I can do it in a way that doesn't let people down, that doesn't dissatisfy me or in any way detract from the overall level of excellence that people have come to expect. I mean, that's just the whole reason I do this anyway is the passion and love for it that drive it, and then take it to that level. And I've not lost that. All I've lost is my ability to hear, but it doesn't mean I've lost my ability to communicate. Those are two different things, given the technological advances that we have in this country today.

Sometimes, adversity doesn't build character. It reveals it.

Absolutely! The fact that he could do his radio broadcast at all--wow! Rush, I thank God for you!!!

"My advice: turn show over to Mike Savage and do a daily commentary at the beginning of the second hour.

On a personal level, if Rush is not a Christian, its time he becomes one."

Interesting that you are able to advise Rush but you have no idea if he is a Christian. If you have ever listened to him, you would know he is. Therefore, you show you have zero, zip, nada, knowledge, and still you presume to offer advise.

I now know much about you. And I suggest you are a twit.

The Bible doesn't teach that money is evil. It does teach that the love of money is problem. I have heard Rush say many times that happiness in his career came when he learned to stop concentrating on how much money he was or wasn't making. No one knows what Rush does with his money. He could be living off 10% of his income and giving away 90% for all we know. Everything happens for a reason, and God has seen fit to trust Rush with great talent and wealth.

There are many examples of godly men in the Bible whom God trusted with great wealth. Job, Abraham and Solomon are the first who come to my mind. Pray that Rush will find God's will in this time of personal trial.

Thanks for the post. I heard Rush today and couldn't believe my ears.

Like him or not, the man has had a profound effect on America and I for one will be pulling for his dogged determination.

Mr. Limbaugh ... You're the man!!!

Hey Rush,

'Tis a difficult thing to find out that one's mentor is battling, perhaps, one of the greatest battles of his life.

You, oh MahaRushi, convinced me that I'm a Conservative, and for that I'm eternally grateful.

I, and 20+ million others, will continue to enjoy the extraordinary work that you. We're not going to let you go, my friend, so you figure out how to continue doing what you do best, and we'll support you.

Best wishes and Godspeed to you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you have done to make our great country even better.

Laz, good to see you. I have been looking for favorite posters.

Hate to hear this about Rush. Been too much bad news of late.

Take care, amigo. These are rough times.

Thanks so much for posting this as I was at work and haven't been able to listen to Rush as much as I'd like.

I'm so very sad to hear this news, but will keep Rush in my prayers and know that he will find a way to keep communicating. Am so grateful that he wants to keep his show. America needs him.

Good to see you FRiend. Life has been as wonderous and fulfilling as the times have been troubling. It is odd -- sometimes the best living occurs in periods of unrest.

Thank-you. Our inept radio station, KBUF, managed to screw up the begining of the 2nd hour of his show, so we didn't get to hear what Rush told others. I found this on FR before his website. I was so glad he repeated his announcement again later.

I'm a Christian and you've really humiliated me with your comments. Looks like you need to attend church more often because the message isn't penetrating your thick skull.

Rush, if you'll put up with us we'll be proud to "put up" with you! Prayers for you and Marta. You'll overcome this little stumbling block... I just KNOW it! And if not, you'll figure a way to overcome it and stay on the air. I have faith!

I had to go to work this morning before the second hour of Rush's show started. I was so curious about his announcement and had to miss it. I knew I could get on here when I got home and find out what he said. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought this!
What a brave man Rush is, and he will be in my prayers. He will do a better job than any other radio talk show host hands down in spite of his hearing loss!
God Bless you Rush! We will be with you no matter what!

This might explain all those "Does RUSH's voice sound funny lately?" posts we had the last few weeks.

Rush changed my life and GOD BLESS YOU BIG GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven't been a long time listener of Rush just the last few years. I have enjoyed him many times and his wisdom. Having just read this I am in a bit of shock but feel his character and philosophy of life will carry him through. Prayers for Rush.

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