Posted on 09/13/2013 4:19:05 PM PDT by MestaMachine
Dear FRiends,
This day is Erev Yom Kippur, (Yom Kippur Eve,) usually commemorated with two festive meals, the giving of charity, and asking others for forgiveness. This is to ask YOUR forgiveness for not explaining why all of my pings have stopped without anyone knowing why.
I wouldn't exactly call this a 'vanity', more like an explanation and apology to all of you who have added your names to any of my lists for why you don't get those oh, so many pings anymore.
Below is what this post started as. And THIS is how it ended. I figured it was better to show you *what only ywp pr three [ep[;e a;ready know than tp have you thonl I just qioy/>[?
*what only two or three people already know than to have you think I just quit.
To All the Freat freepers om amy of my ping ;ists.
Paet od this post is comp;etely unedited and pitposefully so. It's to show you as best I ca hy O dpm't [pst very ,uch any,ore.
Ihave ;pst ,ost comyro; pf ,y ,pypr skills and my eyesught is fokkowing very closely/ Both are failing and tryong to pst even one line takes amywjere frpm 20 ,imutes to hald an hour and stil has ty[ps even though I thinl it looks all right. It is frusteating amd embarrassing, nit I don't want anyobe to thiml I a, ignorong or disinterested becaise nothing could be further fro, the truth.
The illness conbomed woth a ,addive quantity of frigs has made ,y duslexoa nearly i,possible to cope with. Sometines I will type the same wrong letter three or fpir ti,es before I get iy roght and I odten end up in tears.
So you see. O do SO apologize if I have let you sowm or goven the ompression that just stopped caring. O woll never stop carong.
Thanl you and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. U read them all at 150 ,agnification,
U started this post at 2:-- AM pm the dot/ Oy is npw 2:30 and I am gpog tp edot ot.
Translation:
To All the Great Freepers on any of my ping lists:
Part of this post is completely unedited and purposefully so. It's to show you as best I can why I don't post very much anymore.
I have lost lost control of my motor skills and my eyesight is following very closely. Both are failing and trying to post even one line takes anywhere from 20 minutes to half an hour and still has typos even though I think it looks all right. It is frustrating and embarrassing, but I don't want anyone to think I am ignoring or disinterested because nothing could be further from the truth.
The illness combined with a massive quantity of drugs has made my dyslexia nearly impossible to cope with. Sometimes I will type the same wrong letter three or four times before I get it right and I often end up in tears.
So you see. I do SO apologize if I have let you down or given the impression that I just stopped caring. I will never stop caring.
Thank you, and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. I read them all at 150 magnification.
I started this post at 2:00 AM on the dot. It is now 3:20 and I edited it but I have to add something. (Editing as I go now.)
When this first started, and the posts were really screwed up even after I had edited them, I would ask the mods, who I am so grateful to, to pull them and sometimes they were gone before I even got back to the page. Thank you, Mods. I realized I couldn't keep doing that for long. The Mods aren't babysitters and they have more important things to do than stop me from embarrassing myself.
The final kicker though, was a Freepmail I sent to Brad's Gramma. She sent it back to me and said it was the first good laugh she had had all day. When I saw what I had sent, I was beside myself. She understood it, but I don't know how. And that was the end mostly.
I have several rather large ping lists and would be extremely grateful if someone could take one or two and get the word out. Please Freepmail me if you would. I will give the links and graphics and explain how to keep the indexes right with the links. Anything I can do to help, I will...gladly.
Tomorrow is Yom Kippur and I will be offline all day from sundown today. May G-d hear my prayers.
You guys have all been terrific and I am so sorry.
Finished at 4:55 AM. Holding to post until afternoon.
Mesta, we totally understand. No apology needed. I continue to hold you in my prayers......and Neveah, also.
Blessings to you and yours.
RR
We’re with ya, FRiend.
You know I love you and pray for your recovery.
You owe us no explanation...just take care of yourself and know that you are in our prayers.
Prayers are on the way, dear one.
God bless you, Mesta.
He Who blessed our forefathers Abraham, Issac, and Jacob, Moses and Aaron, David and Solomon may He bless and heal the sick person __________ Ben ________ (a.k.a. MestaMachine) because the whole congregation is praying for them. In reward for this, may The Holy One, blessed is He, be filled with compassion for them to heal them, to strengthen them, and to revive them. And may he send them speedily a complete recovery from heaven for his organs and sixty-five blood vessels among the other sick people of Israel, a recovery of the spirit and a recovery of the body swiftly and soon. Now let us respond and say Amen.
thoughts and prayers coming your way.
Chode
Prayers up for you, my FRiend. I have enjoyed your posts and thank you for your care and concern. God bless you.
You have always been one of my favorite freepers.
Best of luck to you, and I’ll keep you in my prayers.
Shalom
God bless you MestaMachine.
God Bless you dear Mesta! Thank you for everything you have done for Free Republic! We all love you and will keep you pinged to stuff we know you are interested in! You take a break and get to healing and feeling better. You are always in our prayers! Keep your chin up.
Hugs,
Pen
Prayers for you, MM. God bless you!
May our one and only , the God or us all whether we like it or not, bless you in all things, even things we don't understand....
FRiend, my prayers are with you for strength and for peace.
Thanks for sharing Mesta..but there’s no need for asking any here for forgiveness...we’ve just all missed you soooo very much...and do now.
Praying that all which is possible be done for you dear friend...and the impossible we surely leave with Him who holds you in His Great and Loving hand....may you find relief there.
We Love you you know...
CW
My prayers are with you.
I’ve been here a little while, and have always read your posts.
It’s been my honor to serve with you sir !
may God hold you tightly in His arms. Thanks for all you do!
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