Mama made it through the night last night. Today she’s been much less responsive, and in considerable pain. We’ve upped her dosage of morphine and her frequency of getting it. Her breathing sounds horrible. She’s virtually comatose. The swelling around her eyes has gone down some, so today she’s looked, around the eyes, more like her old self than she has in months. The lower part of her face is still swollen, but it’s good to see glimpses of my old Mama.
She had an episode of severe pain this evening that had her moaning horribly, and it was so hard to watch. It took a little while for the morphine to kick in, but it did, and she settled back down.
Her blood pressure was lower today than yesterday, her temperature up, her pulse up - all of these are signs of progression toward death. It won’t be long now. I pray for sooner than later, though I’m not sure I won’t regret that prayer when she’s no longer physically with us at all.
Anyway, it’s hard-going here, but I wanted to update you all.
Love to each of you.
You are in my prayers. It is tough to watch someone you love die.
This has got to be so hard for you and your Dad...bless you both as you spend this time with kay.
I am sure she senses you being there...and she will know that you were with her when she dies.
My prayers and thoughts are with you always..and with kay, that she may have no more pain.
sleuth
Oh Poppy.....we’re here with you, all the way.
Bless your HEART for coming on here and telling us about your Mama. I’m so very sorry you all have to go through this.
Please Lord, heal Kay of this pain, and please Lord, let her family feel Your love through all of this.
In Your Name,
Amen
Continuing to pray.
((((((((poppyseed))))))))
You won't regret it honey. You only want your Mom to be eased of her suffering.We went through the same thing with my father. And yes, it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I'm so glad you are there for her.
Your Mom was a great FRiend to my husband when we were looking at where to buy a business less than a year ago. Yesterday he talked fondly of their exchanges then, FReepmail and on board.
Our family's prayers are with you and yours, Poppy.
prayers continue
Father God, release this your servant into your presence. Please grace her family with your presence as well, and the joy of knowing that their loved one is with you and whole again.
Deep in the night, a prayer for you. When all is dark, do not despair - you are not alone. Surrounding you and your mother are the prayers of thousands, calling out to God in Jesus’ name.
it is hard to wait. Listen for the Angels...
May your heart find the peace that passes all understanding, poppyseed, even in the midst of your agony. Your beloved Mama hears the heavenly strains ...
Wonderful Peace
by W.D. Cornell and W. G. Cooper
http://www.cyberhymnal.org/htm/w/o/wonpeac1.htm
Far away in the depths of my spirit tonight
Rolls a melody sweeter than psalm;
In celestial strains it unceasingly falls
O’er my soul like an infinite calm.
Refrain
Peace, peace, wonderful peace,
Coming down from the Father above!
Sweep over my spirit forever, I pray
In fathomless billows of love!
What a treasure I have in this wonderful peace,
Buried deep in the heart of my soul,
So secure that no power can mine it away,
While the years of eternity roll!
Peace, peace, wonderful peace,
Coming down from the Father above!
Sweep over my spirit forever, I pray
In fathomless billows of love!
I am resting tonight in this wonderful peace,
Resting sweetly in Jesus’ control;
For I’m kept from all danger by night and by day,
And His glory is flooding my soul!
Peace, peace, wonderful peace,
Coming down from the Father above!
Sweep over my spirit forever, I pray
In fathomless billows of love!
And I think when I rise to that city of peace,
Where the Anchor of peace I shall see,
That one strain of the song which the ransomed will sing
In that heavenly kingdom will be:
Peace, peace, wonderful peace,
Coming down from the Father above!
Sweep over my spirit forever, I pray
In fathomless billows of love!
Ah, soul! are you here without comfort and rest,
Marching down the rough pathway of time?
Make Jesus your Friend ere the shadows grow dark;
O accept of this peace so sublime!
Peace, peace, wonderful peace,
Coming down from the Father above!
Sweep over my spirit forever, I pray
In fathomless billows of love!
We're here for you, and will help you carry the load when you can't carry on.
Thanks.
Whew. My heart hurt just reading all of that. You won’t be sorry for your prayer for her to leave sooner than later. You don’t want her to suffer and...you have all those wonderful, loving memories to carry you through and beyond. God bless you all.
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I know this is a very difficult time for you and for your Dad and brother. My prayers are for strength for you.
I also pray for your Mama’s release from this unbearable pain she is suffering.
Thank you for your beautifully written updates, poppyseed.
God Rest Her Soul.
Hugs, tears, and love. God be with you all.
I will miss Kayak. She was a good friend. I remember many a freepmail exchange.
I am so deeply sorry.
:-(
RA