Posted on 05/03/2005 7:36:10 PM PDT by GeekDejure
Hello Freepers... it's Alex (GeekDekure) here...
Laura, my darling wife of 30 wonderful years, has been in the hospital, dying from the devastating effects of severe cancer. I talked to her on the phone at 5:00 this evening. I told her I'd be at her bedside on Wednesday morning at 11:00. In a quiet, muffled, fast breathing voice she said, "That may be too late!"
Later... at 7:45... I received a call from Laura's son, Mark. "Sorry to have to tell you, Alex... Mom died at 7 o'clock !!!"
Freepers... I really feel like a totally useless piece of sh!t. Good grief... I couldn't even be at my wife's bedside when she died !!! Eeeyuch... just another reason for me to hate myself... and no, I surely don't need therapy. I'll live with it privately until I eventually join her in Heaven above !!!
Laura and I are followers of Yahweh (the true Name of the Most High). And despite losing her to the cancerous infestation that finally overtook her ability to survive, I am still convinced that the Force ( Yahweh ) is with us !!!
click...click... Alex (GeekDejure) ;-((
I'm so sorry. That's awful.
Dude, I grieve with you. But please...don't do anything foolish!
Yahweh CARES for you!!
I'm sorry for your loss, it's not a perfect world and even with the best intentions, we are NOT perfect.
Don't hold things over your head, as a survivor, it is quite normal to feel guilt as it is where none should be.
God Bless.
I am really so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Please do not add useless quilt to your grief.
She watches you now, my friend. She sees you but cannot speak to you. These things will come right in time, for love conquers time as it conquers death. Be at peace.
I'm terribly sorry for your loss.
My Prayers are with you and your family.
Chris
If God had meant for you to be with her when she passed, you would have been. Try to take comfort in that.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
MY Condolences on your loss
Prayers for you my FRiend. I hope that your 30+ years together with your wife have been wonderful and you are full of happy memories that will sustain you until your joyous reunion.
May God bless and keep you my FRiend.
Prayers for you and for her soul. Know your wife is in a better place and TALK TO HER...you can still be with her...especially through your children. It will be a long road. Share your grief with your children and loved ones and also take time to celebrate your wife's life. It seems unbearable now...but it can get better but PLEASE...forget the GUILT! That is Satan's work and a very very slippery sloap!
Take care of yourself. Your wife would want you to.
Yahweh must think you are a very strong person. To give you such a burden knowing that you can persevere and lead others to a stronger belief in their God.
I am sorry for the loss of your wife. Celebrate her life. Do not mourn her death.
I am so very sorry. You have my thoughts and prayers.
No one is alone when they die, when they die in the company of God. God is with us who live in Him, and us who die in Him.
May the Peace that passes understanding be with you and in you. It is obvious that your love will not end.
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