I tried well into my late 30’s to have a career in what I wanted to do, (Advertising Design) but it just wasn’t happening at any level that would sustain a decent standard of living. Either I wasn’t good enough, not lucky enough or not disciplined enough to keep it going.
I finally settled for some part time jobs just to pay the bills, and was able to find sufficent fulfillment in that way. Sometimes, one has to face the facts. Look at the trajectory of events over time, then make choices, before fate makes that selection for you.
I commend you for trying to find a career. I myself am more of a paraprofessional than a professional. I provide assistance, do basic chores, etc. I lack the discipline, focus, and (I’ll admit it) talent to really take anything to the higher level.
Nevertheless, I find satisfaction in my work. And, I am paying my bills, as well as giving charity to my community. We don’t have to seek identity or fill a void through work, but (unless we were born into privilege like the young lady in the video), we acknowledge the obligation.