I am alone tonight.
My husband has Parkinson’s, had a crisis, spent the last week in the hospital to get over it, and is now in the TCU (transitional care unit) for rebailitation.
So, after 45 years of marriage, we are each spending our first Christmas eve apart from one another, and we both are lonely and sad. We are smart enough to know that our paths will soon be diverging, and we wish we could turn back the clock of time.
Eyes are getting a bit blurry at the moment, but I refuse to feel sorry for myself, because I know there are so many people out there who are also alone on Christmas eve, who feel much lonelier.
I am going to pray for them. I wish I could win Publisher’s Clearing House sweepstakes to make other people’s lives easier, with less worry about not being able to buy toys for their children, a present for their spouse, and get their bills paid up for the year.
The only concept I can put forward for us “aloners” is that God has promised us that we never are alone, that He is always there, and knows of our fear and pain.
I cling to that hope, and try my best to feel His presence when I am the most lonely. Sometimes, I can feel it, sometimes I can’t - but I keep on trying.
Wow.
God bless you, both.
That was beautiful.
I’ve been in your shoes; my dad suffered from Parkinson’s for decades (early onset). Please know that you aren’t alone and have a very Merry Christmas.
I stopped reading the thread and prayed for you to feel God’s presence in a special way tonight.
As hard as it is — and I know some of what you are going through — it is also a gift that your 45 years with your husband feels like “not enough,” still.
May the Lord spread his warm cloak of peace and comfort on you and your husband this Christmas.
Prayers for you both. May you stay toasty tonight, too, and wrapped in angels’ wings.
You are never alone...........