Posted on 03/29/2010 1:33:43 PM PDT by DesertRenegade
A few months ago I decided to write my memoirs, a project I knew was going to bring me closer to an amazing turning point in my life. From the moment I wrote the first phrase I was sure the book was the tool that was going to help me free myself from things I was carrying within me for a long time. Things that were too heavy for me to keep inside. Writing this account of my life, I got very close to my truth. And thisis something worth celebrating.
For many years, there has been only one place where I am in touch with my emotions fearlessly and that's the stage. Being on stage fills my soul in many ways, almost completely. It's my vice. The music, the lights and the roar of the audience are elements that make me feel capable of anything. This rush of adrenaline is incredibly addictive. I don't ever want to stop feeling these emotions. But it is serenity that brings me to where I'm at right now. An amazing emotional place of comprehension, reflection and enlightenment. At this moment I'm feeling the same freedom I usually feel only on stage, without a doubt, I need to share.
Many people told me: "Ricky it's not important", "it's not worth it", "all the years you've worked and everything you've built will collapse", "many people in the world are not ready to accept your truth, your reality, your nature". Because all this advice came from people who I love dearly, I decided to move on with my life not sharing with the world my entire truth. Allowing myself to be seduced by fear and insecurity became a self-fulfilling prophecy of sabotage. Today I take full responsibility for my decisions and my actions.
If someone asked me today, "Ricky, what are you afraid of?" I would answer "the blood that runs through the streets of countries at war...child slavery, terrorism...the cynicism of some people in positions of power, the misinterpretation of faith." But fear of my truth? Not at all! On the contrary, It fills me with strength and courage. This is just what I need especially now that I am the father of two beautiful boys that are so full of light and who with their outlook teach me new things every day. To keep living as I did up until today would be to indirectly diminish the glow that my kids where born with. Enough is enough. This has to change. This was not supposed to happen 5 or 10 years ago, it is supposed to happen now. Today is my day, this is my time, and this is my moment.
These years in silence and reflection made me stronger and reminded me that acceptance has to come from within and that this kind of truth gives me the power to conquer emotions I didn't even know existed.
What will happen from now on? It doesn't matter. I can only focus on what's happening to me in this moment. The word "happiness" takes on a new meaning for me as of today. It has been a very intense process. Every word that I write in this letter is born out of love, acceptance, detachment and real contentment. Writing this is a solid step towards my inner peace and vital part of my evolution.
I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man. I am very blessed to be who I am.
RE: “You can tell who’s the homo at the beach...”
Yep. The guy taking these pictures.
Who knew :)
“Living La Vida Loca”
Yeah, next thing you know, Clay Aiken and Adam Lambert will say they are homosexuals.
Fortunate he hasn’t died of a venereal disease yet.
The gay-OK crowd seems to encourage these people to dump their closets out into the most glaring spotlights in front of the biggest audience they can get. It looks not only like the perversion it is, it’s baroque. Not many hetero men go around screaming to the public about how they love women (Tiger Woods excepted), nor do celibates flaunt their celibacy.
“A good rule of thumb is, if people think your are gay, you are usually gay. There are of course a few exceptions, but there always are with a rule of thumb.”
My wife and I were noticing the other day that a number of our unquestionably hetero male friends are effeminate. I think those guys just have a strong enough self-image not to buy into the BS that “you must be gay, look how you talk”.
Colonel, USAFR
No kidding?
Looks like a barber kit to me.
Yes, how fortunate you are Ricky, with both feet firmly planted in Hell, and yet you continue to flout your sinfulness and degraded lifestyle choice.
Some people are really stupid.
I hate to think how this is going to screw up his poor kids.
Well, some don’t think so. I read that in some schools it is cool to be gay and bi-sexual.
How is it news that this guy is homosexual? Anyone with an eye could tell when he broke on to the scene. Sort of like our suspicions about the marxist...only he I suppose would be considered ‘bi’. I don’t know but you know what....all this sewage is surfacing for all of us to see. It’s either a wake up call...or it’s a “you should have stopped this dead in its tracks” message from God.
I always thought that Rick Sanchez from CNN was gay...
Not that there is anything wrong with that.
Never mind...
It’s Ricky Martin.
Another self absorbed homosexual.
Such a rarity these days. /s
The word gay used to mean happy. I think homosexual men adopted the word to try to convince themselves they are perfectly happy and well adjusted. Straight men who are enjoying life don't go around talking about how happy they are. I mean what's the reason for doing that anyway? Trying to make someone else feel envy? I don't think so. Or is it to get someone to follow their life style?
I don't get it.
Ugh. And one of those turds inflicted ObamaCare on us.
Who knew?
EVERYONE
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