You sound like a good liberal artist I heard lecture. As she was forced away from the fine arts school that had nurtured and supported her for 8 years, she learned she had to make a living working.
She had a masters degree in fine arts and was a very accomplished wood worker. Unfortunately she didn’t like to make things that didn’t comply with her artistic ideals. He thing was” a dialogue with lines and dots” Everything she made from wood was decorated with lead pencil lines and dots. There was a dot and then a line connecting it to another dot and so on.
She decided she would make framed mirrors. The wood frames were painted with flat paint and then covered with the lines and dots, thus expressing the unique dialogue. She learned to her dismay that she had to do the shipping and packing. She also learned that boxes for the purpose were not available in the random sizes of her completed work. To buy the available packaging, she must standardize her frame sizes and thus surrender the freedom of artistic line and dot dialogue.
At the time of the lecture, she was but weeks away from being kicked out of the academic nest and still had no idea about where she was going or what she was going to do. She could not get over the fact she had to either use available standard packing materials or spend the time and money to develop and fabricate her own. She was an artist and packing was mundane activity for riff raff. She had a masters degree!!!
And you sound like someone who has difficulty with the English language, or logic, or both. I'm not making those envelopes that cost me a nickel, or wishing they were a different size. I buy a hundred at a time at one of those office supply stores that dot the landscape because they suit my purpose.
ML/NJ