I wanted to throw away the food dish, the water dish and the litterbox.
I almost donated the kitty carrier to the vet’s office.
I don’t want to see another pet die.
Give yourself time.
You will know if and when you are ready for another furry friend.
I understand what you are feeling, but think about all the joy your cat brought to you. There is another kitty out there who needs your loving care and devotion.
Someday, another cat or dog will choose YOU.
I've done what you just did many times over the many years. So many wonderful dogs and kitties over the years: Sam, Solo, Maple, Willow, Jasper and Maple II. And, like you, I couldn't let them "go" alone. Difficult as it is, being with them at the end just seems like the right thing to do. I know you did it for her, rather than for you and that it took a lot of courage.
Experience doesn't make it any easier to lose a pet but I've found that it helps to fall in love with another pet. It's an honor to the joy your pet gave you. Take some time and then go get yourself a couple of kittens. I do believe it will help.