I'm still struggling with feelings of failure here, and I really should stay off job related threads for awhile. I mean...I applied pretty much everywhere at least once, except for the fast food places. I suppose I shoulda done that, too, but there were always jobs on the horizon that I was just SURE would come through.
And I did call temp agencies a buncha times and just got the "don't bother us, we'll call you if we want you" kinda response.
I'm hoping it's all just a sign that I'm not meant to stay here, but fretting that things will be the same wherever I go. And considering how easily I've found work until now, it's puzzling and ego shattering.
Hon, please try not to feel like a failure. Chalk it up to a risk taken that didn't pan out, and look forward to the next adventure. Happens to folks all the time. I know that doesn't make you feel better, right now, but it's just one thing in the grand scheme of life.
Please stop because you are *anything* but. You are brave and bold and living out a great adventure. You are constantly pushing past your comfort zone. You have been places and done things that lots and lots of sad, provincial little people would never dream of doing.
When Big'ol and I were moving in to our new neighborhood we struck up a conversation with a neighbor. We asked him by way of polite small talk, "Are you from around here?" And to our minds "around here" could be Maryland, Delaware, Pennsylvania, etc. He shook his head with a firm no and named a town that is four exits down on I-95. To me, it is sad that his whole world is so small.
You, on the other hand, are living large and seeing the world. Keep at it. Keep seeing new places, doing new things, driving down new roads. And don't dispair .... you're gonna have awesome neighbors.