Welcome :) Widow? I am sorry to hear that.
Yes, my husband died jan 6 2002, so it has almost been 4 years, still hard to believe though. It was unexpected, he had a birth defect in his heart, that we discovered in the autopsy. We had a 17 day old baby, who definitely has kept me going. But its really hard to get anything done when he is awake and I have a bookkeeping business that I basically do when he is in bed. So, when I can no longer concentrate on my work, the posts at FR keep me informed on the news and entertained.