Posted on 03/10/2005 8:52:19 AM PST by meanie monster
I had 3 children, the youngest at the time was 16 months. I accidentally became pregnant. We were living in a small 2 bedroom trailor. It was a nice mobile home but where was I going to put a new baby!
I was so sad about it. I put the abortion off to the the last 2 days and I became a drinker to end the pain. A cold 6 packy a day!
Well I am sober now for one week. I have had severe anxiety attacks since last june. I have no insurance. My hubby is self employed and getting insured is impossible.
Yesterday I bought a health plan from United American Health Care. For $139.00 A month it covers all 5 members in our house hold. We pay half the doctor visits etc and get reimbursed the rest.
Pray for me I don't want to drink any more. I have been buying meds form international pharmacies and it is very expensive. Probably illegal too.
Not a day goes by that I think about my baby I threw in the trash. I hate myself and I hope God forgives me. Cause I can't forgive myself.
Pray for W and the Women of Abortion
All it takes is for you to ask God to forgive you, in Jesus name, and it is done. He says, "as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us." Psalm 103:12 (Hold that thought for just a moment. East and West NEVER meet! That is how far away it is taken from you!! Never to return!) As soon as you have asked forgiveness, it is long gone. It is the enemy that keeps reminding you of it and holding it over your head. Satan doesn't want you to feel that peace and forgiveness.
You also need to know that God LOVES YOU! You need to forgive yourself, and love yourself again. We all make mistakes, and none of is perfect.... We will all sin until the day we die.
Father, hold our sister close to you. In Jesus name we rebuke the spirit of deceit that continues to tell her lies that she is not forgiven, bind it and cast it under our feet. In Jesus name we loose the peace, and assurance. We bind the spirit of addiction and alcoholism and cast it under her feet, in JEsus name. We loose freedom found in Christ and sobriety. For "whatever is bound on earth in Jesus name is bound in heaven and whatever is loosed on earth in Jesus name is loosed in heaven". Show our sister Your love and help her to feel it. Give her peace, joy and strength. We stand with her Lord, and uphold her to You. Keep your guardian and warring angels round about her to do battle and protect her. Hold her hand each and every day. Thank you Jesus!!! We praise you for her deliverance!!! Praise the Lord! IN Jesus name, Amen!
My prayers are with you.
Coincidently, my wife and 4 kids lived in a 2 bedroom trailer for 6 months during an Iowa winter. We now have 8 kids by the way. It was a little tight but not that bad at all.
You should see how many times trolls post a story that is not true at all just to waste our time and look for an opportunity to call us hypocrites.
Prayers for you.
Be strong. If not for you, definitely for your kids. Get help.
AA isn't a bad idea either.
SD
My prayers are with you.
Plenty of women also live to regret NOT having had abortions that they considered, especially if they end up being too personally and financially overwhelmed to raise their kids properly, and see some of them getting into serious trouble, intractable drug addictions, even violent crime. You made the best decision you could. Please don't torture yourself about it.
She's only asking for advice and/or prayers, which are free. I see no harm, especially since she is an established Freeper.
Praying for you. Get help if you can before the rest of your life is destroyed.
God forgives the truly penatent. Get help from wherever you can. What's done is done. Pray every day for strength and the Lord will help you.
Prayers on the way for your healing.
He'll give you the peace that passes all understanding.
I'll be praying for you as well.
I'm not asking you to change your opinion. I hope you'll grant me the same courtesy.
I'm praying for you to forgive yourself, whatever you have done - and ask the Lord to do the same and take you by the hand. We are imperfect - He knows that!
God bless you and yours.
I will pray for you.
Turn your heart to Jesus. He will abide.
Trust me I am the real deal. Read all my posts. I am on recent terri Shiavo threads plus all the old ones. Don't judge me untill you do some rearch on me at this site.
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