I don’t know what you fired before, but the Ruger SR22 or the Sig Sauer P238 might fit you better. They are small and have little or no kick.
I fired some kind of Beretta and another semiauto; and a revolver. Next to us at the range were a bunch of young black guys dripping in gold chains, practicing with big scary ‘assault’ rifles.
It was an interesting day, to say the least...