(((KC)))) I’m so sorry. My husband was physically and verbally abused by his dad, and I’ve told him I wish I could go back in time and get between him and his dad. He had no protector at that time and neither did you. Again, I am so sorry.
I understand how you feel about your husband, as well. We all seek to protect those we love. My husband's mom was raging alcoholic and some of the stories he told really angered me.
But the past is gone. Memories good and bad, are simply “what was”. Some of us feel compelled to relive it as if it could be changed, but it can not be changed.
If I say I have permanent emotional damage, I do not sell myself short by the admission... but I'm selling God short, because God can heal all these things.
I need forgiveness and healing the same as my abusers. Perhaps my abusers formed an unfeeling , selfish person, , but I alone am responsible for my future actions.
I'm saying, I understand me, but that does not excuse me. Lol!
Did I say I was a bit manic also?