What IS it about 'official LDS sources' (ref #463) that causes you to recoil so violently from them?
Is it the realization that perhaps the thing you so wish to be true and pure, has warts, errors and a crumbly foundation?
Moses 4:1 AND I, the Lord God, spake unto Moses, saying: That Satan, whom thou hast commanded in the name of mine Only Begotten, is the same which was from the begining, and he came before me, saying--Behold, here am I, send me, I will be thy son, and I will I all mankind, that one soul shall not be lost, and surely I will do it; wherefore give me thine honor.And the Lord said: Whom shall I send? And one answered like unto the Son of Man: Here am I, send me. And another answered and said: Here am I, send me. And the Lord said: I will send the first.