When we are full of ourselves we have no room for God. Satan is just helping God crush our ego self so we look to God in despair for a higher strength.
The Bible says:
Romans 3:23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;
and - John 3:3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
You have to believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God, who is God.
14 ¶ And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up: 15 That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life.
16 ¶ For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
18 ¶ He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. “
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It sounds like you have a spirit not of God; definitely not the Holy Spirit; and another Jesus. The Lord Jesus says there is one way to Heaven, and it is through Him.
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Not a sinful human praying for portals to open. The word “portal” is not in the Bible; it is used by occultists.
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2 Corinthians 11: 3,4 “ But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ.
4 For if he that cometh preacheth another Jesus, whom we have not preached, or if ye receive another spirit, which ye have not received, or another gospel, which ye have not accepted, ye might well bear with him.”
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It sounds as though you have been deceived, friend.
What does the Bible say about what you have been doing?
Why wouldn’t you tell the ladies that the only way to Heaven is through belief in the Lord Jesus Christ as their Savior, who can forgive their sins, and reconcile us to God the Father? I am afraid for your own soul here.
Satan helping God? That tears it. Get theme behind me, Satan!