Really, don't waste your time. I am not going to take spiritual advice from someone floundering away at the extreme edges, if that, of Christianity.
Closer to Catholic form. Want to try again?
I have been doing this exercise for a few decades. The Lord has brought some into His family through it. I trust Him to give the advice, to your human soul via His Holy Spirit whispering to you in the exchanges. It is all His and ONLY He deserves the credit if you get born again.