Your as lost as a ball in high weeds.
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Sorry, but “Christian doctrine” is what is lost.
It is totally contrary to every word in the Bible.
Christian doctrine is what Yeshua is denouncing in Matthew 7:21-23.
Christian doctrine turns every word of the apostles and disciples on their head. it is all the creaation of sinful men.
Christian doctrine leads straight to Hellfire.
Turn to the written word if you wish to be saved on the Day of Trumpets. “He that endures to the end, the same shall be saved.”
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