sounds like the frustration that Catholics feel when confronted with the strange and erroneous teachings of the hundreds of protestant denominations, all of whom consider themselves correct.......
I know how you feel. I get frustrated when confronted with strange and erroneous teachings too, so don't feel like the Lone Ranger. I will pray for you TC, so you can KNOW positively, that you are going to Heaven. I don't want to have to drop down out of Heaven, to pull your tail out of purgatory, 🔥 but I will pull you out if I have to. In a little while, I am meeting Pastor Bernardo, we have some people to preach to. 🇵🇭 Hang in there bro.