Me either.
I was pretty much in the agnostic camp when I got saved, but somehow could just not cross the line to flat out stating that God didn't exist.
Even in my rationalize God away days, taking a good honest look at the creation around me, I could not get to the thought that it all just happened. It was too complex.
And that was back in the 70's before we had the technology that has revealed complexity to us that we never dreamed of.
God has a way of coming crashing in on your world in a way that makes it hard to argue with.
AMEN!