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I Hated the Idea of Becoming Catholic
Aleteia ^ | JUNE 20, 2014 | ANTHONY BARATTA

Posted on 11/28/2014 2:33:31 PM PST by NYer

It was the day after Ash Wednesday in 2012 when I called my mom from my dorm room at Southern Baptist Theological Seminary and told her I thought I was going to become Catholic.

“You’re not going to become Catholic, you just know you’re not Southern Baptist,” she said.

“No, I don’t think so.”

A pause. “Oh boy,” she sighed.

I started crying.

I cannot stress enough how much I hated the idea of becoming Catholic. I was bargaining to the last moment. I submitted a sermon for a competition days before withdrawing from school. I was memorizing Psalm 119 to convince myself of sola scriptura. I set up meetings with professors to hear the best arguments. I purposefully read Protestant books about Catholicism, rather than books by Catholic authors.

Further, I knew I would lose my housing money and have to pay a scholarship back if I withdrew from school, not to mention disappointing family, friends, and a dedicated church community.

But when I attempted to do my homework, I collapsed on my bed. All I wanted to do was scream at the textbook, “Who says?!”

I had experienced a huge paradigm shift in my thinking about the faith, and the question of apostolic authority loomed larger than ever.

But let’s rewind back a few years.

I grew up in an evangelical Protestant home. My father was a worship and preaching pastor from when I was in fourth grade onwards. Midway through college, I really fell in love with Jesus Christ and His precious Gospel and decided to become a pastor.

It was during that time that I was hardened in my assumption that the Roman Catholic Church didn’t adhere to the Bible. When I asked one pastor friend of mine during my junior year why Catholics thought Mary remained a virgin after Jesus’ birth when the Bible clearly said Jesus had “brothers,” he simply grimaced: “They don’t read the Bible.”

Though I had been in talks with Seattle’s Mars Hill Church about doing an internship with them, John Piper’s book Don’t Waste Your Life clarified my call to missionary work specifically, and I spent the next summer evangelizing Catholics in Poland.

So I was surprised when I visited my parents and found a silly looking book titled Born Fundamentalist, Born Again Catholic on my father’s desk. What was my dad doing reading something like this? I was curious and hadn’t brought anything home to read, so I gave it a look.

David Currie’s memoir of leaving behind his evangelical education and ministries was bothersome. His unapologetic defense of controversial doctrines regarding Mary and the papacy were most shocking, as I had never seriously considered that Catholics would have sensible, scriptural defenses to these beliefs.

The book’s presence on my father’s desk was explained more fully a few months later when he called me and said he was returning to the Catholicism of his youth. My response? “But, can’t you just be Lutheran or something?” I felt angry, betrayed, and indignant. For the next four months I served as a youth pastor at my local church and, in my free time, read up on why Catholicism was wrong.

During that time, I stumbled across a Christianity Today article that depicted an “evangelical identity crisis.” The author painted a picture of young evangelicals, growing up in a post-modern world, yearning to be firmly rooted in history and encouraged that others had stood strong for Christ in changing and troubled times. Yet, in my experience, most evangelical churches did not observe the liturgical calendar, the Apostles’ Creed was never mentioned, many of the songs were written after 1997, and if any anecdotal story was told about a hero from church history, it was certainly from after the Reformation. Most of Christian history was nowhere to be found.

For the first time, I panicked. I found a copy of the Catechism and started leafing through it, finding the most controversial doctrines and laughing at the silliness of the Catholic Church. Indulgences? Papal infallibility? These things, so obviously wrong, reassured me in my Protestantism. The Mass sounded beautiful and the idea of a visible, unified Church was appealing - but at the expense of the Gospel? It seemed obvious that Satan would build a large organization that would lead so many just short of heaven.

I shook off most of the doubts and enjoyed the remainder of my time at college, having fun with the youth group and sharing my faith with the students. Any lingering doubts, I assumed, would be dealt with in seminary.

I started my classes in January with the excitement of a die-hard football fan going to the Super Bowl. The classes were fantastic and I thought I had finally rid myself of any Catholic problems.


But just a few weeks later, I ran into more doubts. We were learning about spiritual disciplines like prayer and fasting and I was struck by how often the professor would skip from St. Paul to Martin Luther or Jonathan Edwards when describing admirable lives of piety. Did nothing worthwhile happen in the first 1500 years? The skipping of history would continue in many other classes and assigned reading. The majority of pre-Reformation church history was ignored.

I soon discovered I had less in common with the early Church fathers than I thought. Unlike most Christians in history, communion had always been for me an occasional eating of bread and grape juice, and baptism was only important after someone had gotten “saved.” Not only did these views contradict much of Church history but, increasingly, they did not match with uncomfortable Bible passages I had always shrugged off (John 6, Romans 6, etc).

Other questions that I had buried began to reappear, no longer docile but ferocious, demanding an answer. Where did the Bible come from? Why didn’t the Bible claim to be “sufficient”? The Protestant answers that had held me over in the last year were no longer satisfying.

Jefferson Bethke’s viral YouTube video, “Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus,” was released during this time. The young man meant well, but to me he only validated what the Wall Street Journal called “the dangerous theological anarchy of young evangelicals,” attempting to remove Jesus from the confines of religion but losing so much in the process.

Ash Wednesday was the tipping point. A hip Southern Baptist church in Louisville held a morning Ash Wednesday service and many students showed up to classes with ashes on their forehead. At chapel that afternoon, a professor renowned for his apologetic efforts against Catholicism expounded upon the beauty of this thousand year old tradition.

Afterwards, I asked a seminary friend why most evangelicals had rejected this beautiful thing. He responded with something about Pharisees and “man-made traditions.”

I shook my head. “I can’t do this anymore.”

My resistance to Catholicism started to fade. I was feeling drawn to the sacraments, sacramentals, physical manifestations of God’s grace, the one, holy, catholic and apostolic Church. No more borrowing, no more denying.

It was the next day that I called my mom and told her I thought I was going to become Catholic.

I didn’t go to classes on Friday. I went to the seminary library and checked out books I had previously forbidden myself to look at too closely, like the Catechism and Pope Benedict’s latest. I felt like I was checking out porn. Later, I drove to a 5pm Saturday Mass. The gorgeous crucifix at the front of the church reminded me of when I had mused that crucifixes demonstrated that Catholics didn’t really understand the resurrection.

But I saw the crucifix differently this time and began crying. “Jesus, my suffering savior, you’re here.”

A peace came over me until Tuesday, when it yielded to face-to-windshield reality. Should I stay or leave? I had several panicked phone calls: “I literally have no idea what I am going to do tomorrow morning.”

On Wednesday morning I woke up, opened my laptop, and typed out “77 Reasons I Am Leaving Evangelicalism.” The list included things like sola scriptura, justification, authority, the Eucharist, history, beauty, and continuity between the Old and New Testament. The headlines and the ensuing paragraphs flowed from my fingers like water bursting from a centuries-old dam. 

A few hours later on February 29, 2012 I slipped out of Louisville, Kentucky, eager to not confuse anyone else and hoping I wasn’t making a mistake.  

The next few months were painful. More than anything else I felt ashamed and defensive, uncertain of how so much of my identity and career path could be upended so quickly. Nonetheless, I joined the Church on Pentecost with the support of my family and started looking for work.

So much has changed since then. I met Jackie on CatholicMatch.com that June, got married a year later, and celebrated the birth of our daughter, Evelyn, on March 3rd, 2014. We’re now in Indiana and I’m happy at my job.

I’m still very new on this Catholic journey. To all inquirers out there, I can tell you that my relationship with God has deepened and strengthened. As I get involved in our parish, I’m so thankful for the love of evangelism and the Bible that I learned in Protestantism.

I have not so much left my former faith as I have filled in the gaps. I thank God for the fullness of the Catholic faith.


TOPICS: Apologetics; Catholic; Evangelical Christian; Theology
KEYWORDS: anthonybaratta; baptist; catholic; evangelical; protestant; seminary; southernbaptist
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To: Salvation

I proved a point. I didn’t prove “then meet in church homes on Sunday for the celebration of the Eucharist.” Sunday as a worship day didn’t come until much later. The Sabbath was still The Lords Day as long as the Apostles were alive.


121 posted on 11/28/2014 5:51:57 PM PST by BipolarBob (You smell of elderberries, my friend.)
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To: Salvation

Your post 102. I’ve explained it numerous times and have shown the Greek support on this yet Catholics refuse to believe the Greek. It can’t be made any clearer.


122 posted on 11/28/2014 5:52:11 PM PST by ealgeone
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To: mountn man; right way right
My advice to you is to just avoid these threads because, for the most part they only produce rotten fruit.

Just in case 'right way right' is a poor judge of fruit quality, I say 'mountn man' is free to go and welcome to post wherever he wishes on Free Republic, a website for and supported by Constitutional conservatives and some liberals who think they may be conservative in some way.
123 posted on 11/28/2014 5:52:24 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: Kenny Bunk
Lutherans

Non-apostate Lutherans are Sola Scriptura. The same issues remain for Confessional Lutherans regarding communion with Catholicism and Catholicism lite.

124 posted on 11/28/2014 5:52:26 PM PST by xone
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To: Mrs. Don-o
Thank you for your reference. Actually, just 5 minutes ago I read you post. You might look at Michael Thomsett's book, . I do not understand such devotion to tyrants. There are so many good and decent Catholics (I am a fundamental Bible believing Christian - I attend an Independent Baptist Church). But, in the name of Christ, the Popes fielded armies, payed for them with Indulgences (Complete Indulgences). How can a man of God order such killing in the name of the Prince of Peace. This is something I will never understand.
125 posted on 11/28/2014 5:53:37 PM PST by Texas Songwriter (w)
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To: mountn man

There is the ONE Catholic Church based on Petrine authority. And then there is everything else under the sun.

Take “your” own interpretation, or that of the Joel Osteens, Rev. Al Sharptons, Rev. Billy Grahams, Rev. Jeremiah Wrights; Rev. David Koresh; Rev. Jim Jones’; Rev. Moons; Rev. Jimmy Swaggart; the Mormons, Jehovah’s Witnesses, or the self-appointed pastors at every corner street street Foursquare Church. You have seen for yourself how mainline Protestant and Evangelical Churches have given us “Bible-based” interpretation whereby gay and lesbian married pastors ar enow admitted to “their” Churches.

The young lad and his Dad made the only correct choice they could They are not alone. Prominent Protestant scholars and theologians have after a lifetime of teaching and preaching have converted to Catholicism. This includes the President of the scholarly Evangelical Theological Society (ETS). Francis J. Beckwith
See
http://www.amazon.com/Return-Rome-Confessions-Evangelical-Catholic/dp/1587432471

Then there is the popular Wheaton professor, Joshua Hochschild
http://online.wsj.com/articles/SB113659805227040466

And then came the shock. The founder of Sweden’s largest Protestant denomination, Ulf Ekman converted to Catholicism

http://www.firstthings.com/web-exclusives/2014/03/ulf-ekmans-charismatic-conversion

The books in the Bible did not fall from the skies and automatically arrange it self in a set order. These were carefully put together after years of discussion ad debate by the early Church theologians based on Petrine authority and by drawing upon a boat load of written materials, confirming some and discounting others like the Gnostic Gospels, they drew upon the oral tradition, the Aramaic and Greek meaning of words, early liturgical practices, and revelation. This authority did not dissipate over time. It continues to remain to this day and until the end of time.

The famous British essay, Hillaire Belloc wrote, that unlike other heresies, Protestantism spawned a “cluster of heresies” and the evil of the Reformation continues to spawn a mudslide of various sects and sub-sects.

Cross over my friend.The water is warm and inviting and get rid of all that born-again nonsense etc.


126 posted on 11/28/2014 5:57:30 PM PST by Steelfish
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To: mountn man
The person is talking about Christianity-as a whole versus Catholocism as a subgroup of Christianity.

Catholicism IS Christianity, the various protestant denominations are subgroups of Catholicism.....sort of Catholicism lite!

127 posted on 11/28/2014 5:57:34 PM PST by terycarl
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To: Resettozero; right way right
Reset, RWR wasn't being negative towards me. (at least I didn't take it that way) Just pointing out that threads like these, are designed from the out set to be inflammatory. And that it would be best to avoid them, because the fruit they produce.

I will readily admit, that sometimes my fruit is pretty rotten.

But I do appreciate the way the message was delivered.

Thanks to both of you. (I mean that)

128 posted on 11/28/2014 5:59:10 PM PST by mountn man (The Pleasure You Get From Life Is Equal To The Attitude You Put Into It)
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To: Texas Songwriter; NYer; Salvation
Your generalizations about "the Popes" are partial and thus misleading, as a detailed history of the period will show.

And Popes who committed murders are regarded by he Church as murderers, not saint.

For instance, Pope Innocent III died suddenly at Perugia on 16 July 1216. Innocent III was believed to be in the flames of God's punishment on the very day he died. He appeared to St. Lutgarda in her monastery at Aywieres in Brabant, (modern-day Belgium), which is impossible to account for naturally, since they would not have yet known, even in Rome, that he had died in Perugia. Engulfed in flames, he declared to her, “I am Pope Innocent”.

He continued to explain that he had had the grace to repent of his sins just before he died, but was in Purgatory for three evils which required him to be purified for his remaining attachments to sin. Innocent asked St. Lutgarda to come to his assistance by prayer, saying, “Alas! It is terrible; and will last for centuries if you do not come to my assistance. Help me!” At that moment he disappeared and St. Lutgarda informed her sisters of what she had seen, writing letters to all her allied nun's communities. These letters still exist: this is how we know she knew what she knew, and when she knew it!

My point here is not to start an argument about the reality of mystical visions or the docrine of Purgatory (please! don't let's argue about that right now) but to point out that murderers are considered murderers, even if they are Popes.

In Islam, they would be saying he was a Shaheed and would get to enjoy his 72 virgins. In Catholicism, he is considered to have just missed Hell by the skin of his teeth and the mercy of the Lord Jesus, and still by God's justice engulfed in flames for his sins, which included some of the the worst aspects of worldly wickedness, aggressions and cruelty. The Albigensian Crusade was only one of them.

Damnable? We can only agree. There have been 266 popes, some great, some good, some very, very bad. But the bad ones are not emulated nor honored. They are not our saints.

As the comedienne Gilda Radner used to say, "If you can't be a good example, you'll just have to be a horible warning."

129 posted on 11/28/2014 5:59:14 PM PST by Mrs. Don-o (If you desire to know the truth about anything, you always run the risk of finding it. - S. Undset)
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To: Resettozero

Moutn man is just fine.


130 posted on 11/28/2014 5:59:21 PM PST by right way right (America has embraced the suck of Freedumb.)
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To: terycarl

Bless your heart


131 posted on 11/28/2014 6:00:24 PM PST by mountn man (The Pleasure You Get From Life Is Equal To The Attitude You Put Into It)
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To: Steelfish
...and get rid of all that born-again nonsense etc.

That is possibly the most inflammatory thing I seen posted on FR RF.

You, sir or ma'am, have just stated the opposite of what the Lord Jesus Christ told Nicodemous!

THAT is pure heresy.
132 posted on 11/28/2014 6:01:12 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: right way right
Moutn man is just fine.

Yes indeed. I understand things better now.

Carry on.
133 posted on 11/28/2014 6:02:57 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: BipolarBob

You should watch me howl at the full moon.


134 posted on 11/28/2014 6:03:17 PM PST by 353FMG
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To: ealgeone
Caths may read the bible but they don’t apply it. They certainly aren’t paying attention to the Greek as the Greek clears up the issue of Jesus having brothers and sisters, Mary being sinless, and not remaining a virgin and that we don’t have to go through Mary to get to Christ.

1. Caths? So, Protestants would be "Prots"?
2. How can YOU read the hearts of ALL 1.6 billion Catholics on this earth and make the blanket statement that they don't apply the Bible?
3. Why do you decide that the GREEKS had all the answers about Jesus and Mary? One of my oldest friends was married to a wonderful Greek man and I used to visit them often. I learned all about Greek Orthodoxy and I never did hear what you just wrote.
4. I NEVER, EVER learned that we had to go through Mary, or ANYONE, to get to Christ. Of course, I only took religion classes for 12 years and have been attending DAILY Mass for decades. The "Our Father" is an old prayer that Jesus said to His Father in heaven. How intimate is that? Jesus TAUGHT us to pray.

Perhaps you were speaking with someone who knew JACK about the Catholic faith. If you have a question about Catholicism you can go to two websites:

1. Catholic Online http://www.catholic.org/

or

2. Catholic Answers http://www.catholic.com/

for REAL answers from Catholics who make it their business to answer questions about our faith. People from anywhere can ask all kinds of questions. There you will get answers that you might not get here on the FR.
NO reason to be afraid. NO ONE will try to convert you or put you down.

God bless you and yours.

135 posted on 11/28/2014 6:04:51 PM PST by cloudmountain
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To: Steelfish
CORRECTION FOR GRAMMAR AGREEMENT...

...and get rid of all that born-again nonsense etc.

That is possibly the most inflammatory thing I have seen posted on FR RF.

You, sir or ma'am, have just stated the opposite of what the Lord Jesus Christ told Nicodemous!

THAT is pure heresy.
136 posted on 11/28/2014 6:05:38 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: JSDude1
By Grace you have been saved through Faith (in Jesus alone), and this not of yourselves, it is a gift of God that no man may boast”. This one passage answers all your objections. If you brake this down (among other passages in the Bible), you’ll find that all we need is Jesus.

See Mathew 25:31-46....our own actions mean a lot in our salvation!!

137 posted on 11/28/2014 6:07:39 PM PST by terycarl
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To: Resettozero

No Catholic believes in this stuff. No need to be born again. We having the Living Bread. The Holy Eucharist. Believed by a constellation of theologians for over 2000 years: saints, martyrs, and stigmatists.


138 posted on 11/28/2014 6:09:08 PM PST by Steelfish
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To: Steelfish

You did not address the issue I raised in my post to you.


139 posted on 11/28/2014 6:10:09 PM PST by Resettozero
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To: Resettozero
It's the Vatican that is not very likeable and the manner they've indoctrinated so many RC FReepers to have an arrogant "We are the one true church" superiority-complex regarding non-RC Christians.

I am always amazed when a Protestant objects to Catholic claims of being the one true church. Does not every Protestant preacher present the teaching of his denomination as being the truth and that of other denominations as being false? Do not Protestant posters here at FR present their opinions as the truth against all other interpretations of the gospel? If they do not claim to hold the one true gospel then perhaps they should add the phrase "but this might not actually be true" to everything they preach.

140 posted on 11/28/2014 6:10:57 PM PST by Petrosius
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