Catholics can have “born again” moments.
You are still a Catholic, however. The marks of Baptism and Confirmation are indelible.
Sit down with a priest and get your questions answered.
I do not wish to get into some theological debate with you or anyone. I can only tell you, for me personally, Catholicism with all its endless rules, regs, rituals, sacraments, do’s and don’ts, I was made to feel like a neurotic in a spiritual sense.
I began reading the Bible many years ago and prayed God would lead me to the Truth. The more I read the Bible and prayed the more I was led away from not only Catholicism, but all religion. Religion is a waste of time in my humble opinion.
I never wished to speak to a Priest at any given time during my studies and praying. Truth is, the Holy Spirit was opening my eyes in ways no other human being could do.