Probably, but booze just helps you get there faster.
I hope you are doing better now.
The separation and divorce were over 40 years ago. I put my son's body in the ground on his 27tth birthday, almost exactly 28 years ago, August 7, 1985. I dream of them almost every week now. Used to be every night.
Doing better? It's like the holes in the door.
You sound like you are.
One day at a time. With the Lord, who watches over me better than He does with the sparrows. Every hair numbered, for my new body, I guess. This one is wearing out. The price of sin in the world. It gives us a second chance, if we make the right decision now.
Glad you are resting in His peace now.
My condolences, losing a child is the most difficult thing in the world.