Eyes wide open is the hard part for me. On Saturday nights after a full day of chores, I have to fight to stay awake. Frequently I lose. Sorry, Lord.
I bet the Lord appreciates you being there anyway! I’ve seen one man kneel down, stand up, sit down and repeat the exercises to stay away during his hour.
Yeah, about 5 years ago I tried doing this, but had to give up my scheduled adoration duty late on Saturday nights due to sheer incompetence and fatigue. When I was really tired and distracted, I’d get there and not remember my entry code to the chapel, or where in my purse it was written down, in case I forgot it.
Also, I had the wrong frame of mind. I thought I was there so that Jesus wouldn’t be left by Himself. I was doing Jesus a favor. (?!) The people in the adoration ministry tried to tell me that I had it backwards in terms of who was benefiting from this. I was too tired to think it through. Not meant to be my calling at that time of my life, I guess.
However, my husband has done 5:00 a.m. on Tuesday for years. He is truly a faithful friend of Jesus.
Well, at least in one regard, that sort of makes us just like the apostles, doesn't it? :-)