God will not accept us into heaven unless we do appear to be perfect...That's why if you are counting on what you can do to get there it will never be good enough...
If Jesus didn't pay the whole price for you, you are sunk...He paid the entire price for me...
So just accept that your Salvation was determined before the beginning of time, that it was fully paid for 2,000 years ago and party on; sex, drugs, rock and roll. Nothing you can do can screw it up.......or you can take what is behind door number 2; the hope of Salvation.
"So then, my beloved, just as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your salvation with fear and trembling;" - Philippians 2:12